Guys and gals, I have been MIA for about three days and it has been killing me. I think I posted roll late Wednesday and again a few minutes ago. Unacceptable, I know. Trust me, I know.
I hope you guys will forgive me. I suddenly have a new woman in my life and it happened so fast it threw me for a fucking loop. It's been incredible and I doubt I would have ever found a way to like her more than dip if it weren't for this place. I have actually thought about that a lot over the past few days. I was married and I loved dip more than her. Dip was the only thing I was accountable to. This is the first time in five years I feel like the future is mine for the taking. I realize new relationships don't always work, but I love the outlook right now. It is absolutely amazing how life without dip changes your outlook on the simplest things and turns the really important stuff sacred.
And please forgive my giddiness.
Holy shit! Are you ready for this? Call if needed; this is major.
I think a school girl hijacked his intro.
I was thinking the same thing Diesel.... 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
Is it wrong to feel like a school girl? I do. I really do. I'm a fucking mess. Thank you, evil, diesel, and jaynellie for recognizing it. But I'm really fucking happy about it. I can't even sleep. School girls are more manly than I am right now. And yes, Evil, I'm ready. Feels fucking great!!
I am happy for you man, that kind of stuff is rare. however, it is not a reason to miss roll.
First off, the euphoric feeling could be more dangerous than drinking. if there is one thing that makes men do dumber stuff than drugs or alcohol, its early relationship emotions. Enjoy it, but make sure you are protecting your quit just as passionately.
Second, you have thrown a lot at new quitters, particularly a certain caver, about accountability and roll posting. Don't be a hypocrite.
Never, ever let your quit guard down. Before you know it you will be trying to sleep with both women again. Chances are the new lady won't be down with all that.
Damn, you are a buzzkill, J2B. But you are absolutely right, not that you need me to tell you. This was my first two days missing roll, and for that, I am an absolute hypocrite. Thanks for calling me on it.
I think this is a lesson for me, above all else, and I didn't see it until J2B chopped off my knees. Nothing good happens on the outside with a person's quit until they're able to see that it actually has everything and nothing to do with their quit. For everybody else, it's just life, and good stuff happens sometimes. For us, we have to find a way to relate it to quitting. In my case, I spent so much time the past few days ignoring the foundation of my quit that I actually ignored it. That ain't right, boys and girls. Though I was swimming in good shit, I somehow shat upon our daily promise. I'm sorry.
I'm really happy right now, but I owe that happiness to KTC. Sorry I was a hypocrite. Post roll every fucking day. I missed two days, I'm sorry, and J2B speaks the truth. It'll never happen again.
