Thanks all for the support for the 1 year of quit. I am actually typing this today due to a realization I had on a road trip yesterday.
This past weekend my younger brother got married, and I traveled to go be the best man. Really an honor to stand for your brother, and I am proud of him. But I was on my way back yesterday and I had a long time friend/ college roommate with me after the airport. I was going to be driving through his hometown on my way back to my hometown so we thought we could drive together on our way back.
Well he decides right away that he needs a smoke... Well I told him that I would rather he did not do that in my car (Smoking was not ever one of my vises but I just don't like it) So he says well I can just dip some Copenhagen instead.... (MY old brand) so we stop off and he gets some and I am all to familiar with the smell... It didn't smell the same to me this time. I was a little confused.
Then I came to the realization, I have definitely changed in the past year.
I didn't get envious of him as he threw in way too large of a dip. I was feeling bad for him as he put in that dip, because I immediately visualized stained teeth, a mouth full of cancer, and him being completely powerless to nic. This was my imagination playing tricks in my mind, and it was so negative that I am proud of how my brain works now. I used to sensationalize when smelling this oh so familiar smell. Not this time, after fighting to stay quit ODAAT EDD for the past year my mind has been made up. This is a lifelong quit that I have built. This is a quit that I have decided to make with all of you, and I will continue my ODAAT ways and it will be EDD. Not because I am attempting a quit, but because I am freaking killing it. I am so proud of myself, and damn straight I am arrogant about it.
The best decision I have ever made is signing up for KTC. If you are reading this and not yet quit, I urg you to sign up and get involved in this website. It will change your life and make you a better person without nicotine. Gain control of your life.
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