I am on day 135 and frustrated as all hell today. I want to write this for me first off and I hope this helps some new quitters as well. I just want to re-iterate the importance and significance of posting roll every day. Posting roll is our promise to our brothers and sisters that I will not use nicotine, in any form, today. We stick to our word that day. We post this early in the morning and we do this every damn day. It is as simple as that. There is no easier way to build trust within this community. We trade phone numbers and we text each other our promises for the day, if we cannot make a post for the day. Then that person posts for you with your quit group.
I think that scratches the surface of what posting roll every day does for a quitter. Yes you build trust, and quit tobacco, but for me this has been a much bigger process and I hope that it has been for many of you as well. I had to fight my own demons and look myself in the mirror everyday, as I posted roll. Roll taught me to examine my behavior for just ONE day and INTENTIONALLY change my behaviors. I see some comments being made "oh if I quit posting roll, then I won't be reminded of dip". Well what kind of addict bullshit talk is that! You are not ready to change, and you are not ready to have control in your own life! Make the decision to quit or not. You have the choice to live your life INTENTIONALLY or let life chose for you.
There are many things in life that we cannot control. Nicotine addiction is one thing, that NONE of us here can control. The one thing we can control though, is our behaviors. You are not here by accident. You are here because you are sick and tired, of being sick and tired. You have no control of your life because you have not examined your behaviors, and how they are affecting yourself and your life.
So when I post roll every morning, I examine my own life and decide that I am going to INTENTIONALLY live my life. I am going to change my behaviors and live without nicotine. My life is exponentially better since I have changed my behaviors.
Starr - Day 135