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[srans]

Smokeys right I never quit before. I'm quit now.

Freedom brother. Smell it. Taste it. This freedoms going to cost you a little, but it is so worth it. One day at a time my friend. I'll quit with you today,, I got nothin better to do.

[gorilla1]

Smokeys right I never quit before. I'm quit now.

[loot]

Last October I was able to quit dipping one day at a time through the help of this site. I was lazy at best about posting roll call and getting in touch with people. I fell off the site after about 2 months. Life was better. I didn't have any more cravings. I was feeling healthy again. I could taste! Anyway, I stayed on through the winter dip free even while working with some dudes who were getting after it pretty heavy. A friend of mine came to visit in February and I smoked a bit of a cigarette with him. Nothing happened. I didn't really think about it, but soon after I started getting the idea that I wanted to have a dip. Just peripheral thoughts; little bugs in my ear. Somehow that shit took hold and started to grow and I was having some serious mental bouts with the obsession to dip again. I started a small business during this time and took on some great new clients. I realized that one of the property managers I was working for had a dip in and I asked him what he was gnawing on. He was surprised at me calling him out, but then I knew that if i wanted one that's where I could go. It was only a matter of time. I finally asked him for a dip. And of course I told myself that I could stick to just one. That if I just bummed one off of him that I'd be okay. Well the one day turned into two and two into three and now I'm back in the fold of fucking dipping daily! Snuck up on me. I've continued to be that annoying dude to ask for a dip and so my pride has kept me from having more than one a day, but the truth is that shit has got me again. I'm just as addicted as ever and still have that peculiar mental twist that tells me I can have just one. I've fallen victim to this bullshit way of thinking many times before. So here I am starting over again. I was lucky enough to have a dudes number in my phone from doing this thing before and I texted and asked for help. He told me to get back on KTC, post roll, and answer some questions here. I don't want to live a slave to the can and cut short this awesome life I've been given. So I'm looking for help fellas. Thanks. Tony Bedell aka Gorilla1

Gorilla - I say this with the upmost support and goodwill: The first half of your post is dripping with ignorance and justification; I can give specific examples if you're too blind to see it. Repeat after me: "I, gorilla1, never quit. My so called pride is truly cowardice. I know jack shit about how to quit and I am willing to engage in this community by offering support and actively listening to the advice of others. I will seek out wisdom by investing time reading the words of wisdom and older quit groups. I, gorilla1, haven't learned a fucking thing. But, I'm ready."

good luck sailor.

Luck?

[Smokeyg]

Last October I was able to quit dipping one day at a time through the help of this site. I was lazy at best about posting roll call and getting in touch with people. I fell off the site after about 2 months. Life was better. I didn't have any more cravings. I was feeling healthy again. I could taste! Anyway, I stayed on through the winter dip free even while working with some dudes who were getting after it pretty heavy. A friend of mine came to visit in February and I smoked a bit of a cigarette with him. Nothing happened. I didn't really think about it, but soon after I started getting the idea that I wanted to have a dip. Just peripheral thoughts; little bugs in my ear. Somehow that shit took hold and started to grow and I was having some serious mental bouts with the obsession to dip again. I started a small business during this time and took on some great new clients. I realized that one of the property managers I was working for had a dip in and I asked him what he was gnawing on. He was surprised at me calling him out, but then I knew that if i wanted one that's where I could go. It was only a matter of time. I finally asked him for a dip. And of course I told myself that I could stick to just one. That if I just bummed one off of him that I'd be okay. Well the one day turned into two and two into three and now I'm back in the fold of fucking dipping daily! Snuck up on me. I've continued to be that annoying dude to ask for a dip and so my pride has kept me from having more than one a day, but the truth is that shit has got me again. I'm just as addicted as ever and still have that peculiar mental twist that tells me I can have just one. I've fallen victim to this bullshit way of thinking many times before. So here I am starting over again. I was lucky enough to have a dudes number in my phone from doing this thing before and I texted and asked for help. He told me to get back on KTC, post roll, and answer some questions here. I don't want to live a slave to the can and cut short this awesome life I've been given. So I'm looking for help fellas. Thanks. Tony Bedell aka Gorilla1

Gorilla - I say this with the upmost support and goodwill: The first half of your post is dripping with ignorance and justification; I can give specific examples if you're too blind to see it. Repeat after me: "I, gorilla1, never quit. My so called pride is truly cowardice. I know jack shit about how to quit and I am willing to engage in this community by offering support and actively listening to the advice of others. I will seek out wisdom by investing time reading the words of wisdom and older quit groups. I, gorilla1, haven't learned a fucking thing. But, I'm ready."

good luck sailor.

[Wt57]

Quitting nicotine is the hardest thing I've ever done and it has been made easy by doing it the KTC way. (1 day at a time). I'm not strong enough to battle the bitch alone. My 1 year anniversary of HOF is just a few days away and I'm still a at-risk-addict. I don't know if I'll ever be able to rely on my promise to myself. That doesn't matter now because I quit 1 day at a time with my promise to my July 2012 family! Your recognition that you were a half assed poster is good as long as you commit to changing that. You need to commit to your new group to post 100% at least to HOF and better yet 1 year. Get lots of #'s and get to know other quitters that are on a similar time frame as you. You can do this if you want it bad enough and like diesel said let those balls grow. You have my number don't be afraid to use it. This stupid addict knows all the excuses and stupid reasons to cave. The difference now for me is I'm beginning to recognize how foolish I was for 40+ years and I'm laughing at the occasional whispers of my addicted mind. Get with it and earn our respect and support.

[Diesel2112]

You didn't learn DICK last time, at least you didn't follow through on any of it. Why should we believe this time will be different?

You gonna grow a set of balls or what?

If not, there's a bad ass marine who found a "better" site where they'd suckle your nards when you cave.

Perhaps you would be better off there?

Seriously dude. Man the fuck up.

I don't care if Snyder from "One day at a Time" is dipping. That's the weakest excuse I ever heard.

Your "pride" has kept you from having more than one a day?

No dude. You're pride done gone flew out the window the minute you went lone wolf and ended up puffing on that lung dart. The second you put your lips around that heater you opened the door for the nic bitch and she walked right in.

Her stank ass has owned your nuts ever since.

You were smart enough to come crawling back to get your sack back but will you be smart enough to actually do it this time?

Only time will tell. But you certainly don't deserve the benefit of the doubt.

Post up let's see if you cant get your scrotum back. Nothing pains me more then seeing a eunuch roaming the halls of ktc.

[Mjollnir]

One is too many, a thousand aren't enough.

What happened?

Why did it happen?

What are you going to do different?

[gorilla1]

Last October I was able to quit dipping one day at a time through the help of this site. I was lazy at best about posting roll call and getting in touch with people. I fell off the site after about 2 months. Life was better. I didn't have any more cravings. I was feeling healthy again. I could taste! Anyway, I stayed on through the winter dip free even while working with some dudes who were getting after it pretty heavy. A friend of mine came to visit in February and I smoked a bit of a cigarette with him. Nothing happened. I didn't really think about it, but soon after I started getting the idea that I wanted to have a dip. Just peripheral thoughts; little bugs in my ear. Somehow that shit took hold and started to grow and I was having some serious mental bouts with the obsession to dip again. I started a small business during this time and took on some great new clients. I realized that one of the property managers I was working for had a dip in and I asked him what he was gnawing on. He was surprised at me calling him out, but then I knew that if i wanted one that's where I could go. It was only a matter of time. I finally asked him for a dip. And of course I told myself that I could stick to just one. That if I just bummed one off of him that I'd be okay. Well the one day turned into two and two into three and now I'm back in the fold of fucking dipping daily! Snuck up on me. I've continued to be that annoying dude to ask for a dip and so my pride has kept me from having more than one a day, but the truth is that shit has got me again. I'm just as addicted as ever and still have that peculiar mental twist that tells me I can have just one. I've fallen victim to this bullshit way of thinking many times before. So here I am starting over again. I was lucky enough to have a dudes number in my phone from doing this thing before and I texted and asked for help. He told me to get back on KTC, post roll, and answer some questions here. I don't want to live a slave to the can and cut short this awesome life I've been given. So I'm looking for help fellas. Thanks. Tony Bedell aka Gorilla1

[Scowick65]

I read your post today and it reminded me of a post that Scowick65 who has been quit for 600+ days wrote. It makes sense to what you are going thru. Sorry for stealin it Sco but I didnt know how else to get it in a post for him to read.



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Diffusing the Nic BitchÂ’s narrative
You will likely hear whispers from the Nic Bitch. The Nic Bitch is ONLY effective if you do not understand HER. Knowledge crushes HER.

Realize the whispers in your head are not “you”. It is your addiction speaking - the nic bitch. She will disguise herself as “you” because she understands “you” are the decision maker, not her. The only way she gets her hit of nicotine is if she can convince “you”, it is a great idea to plan, obtain, and ingest nicotine. She has no choices available to her.

ONLY YOU HAVE THE POWER OF CHOICE.

The nic bitch must fool you to get nicotine. Therefore, she is cunning. Her whispers will sound like “you”. She will create the illusion that it is your voice speaking. She will exploit. She knows your weaknesses. So, think about your weaknesses and recognize them. She knows if you like to celebrate with nic, drink with nic, drive, mow, relieve stress…whatever. In summary, she is an addiction cloaked as a person.

Next time she whispers, you will understand it is the nic bitch and not you that came up with whatever hair-brained scheme that just floated through your mind. Some stupid internal conversation. Talk back to her and diffuse her narrative. “Yea, bitch, I just heard you. I know it is you and not me that wants nicotine today. I made a promise not to use nicotine today, so fuck you.” Then punch her in the face.

Me, I like to laugh at her. Ridicule is a very effective weapon.

This post has been edited by Scowick65 on Oct 17, 2012, 3:27 pm

She is full of lies. As you hone your quit skills she becomes weak. Focus on 1 day at a time.

[jhaenel23]

I read your post today and it reminded me of a post that Scowick65 who has been quit for 600+ days wrote. It makes sense to what you are going thru. Sorry for stealin it Sco but I didnt know how else to get it in a post for him to read.



677

Diffusing the Nic BitchÂ’s narrative
You will likely hear whispers from the Nic Bitch. The Nic Bitch is ONLY effective if you do not understand HER. Knowledge crushes HER.

Realize the whispers in your head are not “you”. It is your addiction speaking - the nic bitch. She will disguise herself as “you” because she understands “you” are the decision maker, not her. The only way she gets her hit of nicotine is if she can convince “you”, it is a great idea to plan, obtain, and ingest nicotine. She has no choices available to her.

ONLY YOU HAVE THE POWER OF CHOICE.

The nic bitch must fool you to get nicotine. Therefore, she is cunning. Her whispers will sound like “you”. She will create the illusion that it is your voice speaking. She will exploit. She knows your weaknesses. So, think about your weaknesses and recognize them. She knows if you like to celebrate with nic, drink with nic, drive, mow, relieve stress…whatever. In summary, she is an addiction cloaked as a person.

Next time she whispers, you will understand it is the nic bitch and not you that came up with whatever hair-brained scheme that just floated through your mind. Some stupid internal conversation. Talk back to her and diffuse her narrative. “Yea, bitch, I just heard you. I know it is you and not me that wants nicotine today. I made a promise not to use nicotine today, so fuck you.” Then punch her in the face.

Me, I like to laugh at her. Ridicule is a very effective weapon.

This post has been edited by Scowick65 on Oct 17, 2012, 3:27 pm

[eastmarion]

Hey Gorilla,

Way to go man. I'm in your quit group. PM me if you need anything. You're doing awesome.

Eastmarion

[Souliman]

Good shit right there. Welcome brother.

[epayne]

Fuck yea tony. Keep your quit strong and your licorice root close. Don't get comfortable. The bitch alternates physicality with mind games in an effort to break you down completely. Buckle down and bring your A-game.

[gorilla1]

Alright guys I'm pushing along through and am now at Day 9, thanks to the help I'm getting here. Posting RC really does help :) My cynicism kept me away from this site for a while after I found it, but now I seem to be here quite a bit. Looking shit up, reading and trying to find some direction.

So far its been okay and the physical hasn't held me in a state of constant torment like it has many times before, but the mental game won't quit. It's very subtle and quiet and kinda nice whispering to me about having just one. Especially now when I'm trying to write and get some creative stuff done. It keeps telling me that this is the time that I need it and to just have one. I've been chewing licorice root all day and have it wadded up in my gums just sucking on it.

I don't wanna cave and am here to introduce myself. I'm Tony and I'm quit today.