Wow, I have not added this in over 30 days. A lot has happened to me in that time and I will update everyone who is interested.
Today makes day 61, wow, pretty good stuff. I tell you it has not been easy, but it has not been overly hard to control for that matter either.
The good news, I don't think about chew every waking minute. I am able to everything I did with a big fat lipper in, I had serious wonders about this since, I have chewed since I was a wee lad.
In the 40's I had a bad time, the fog was back, was craving like crazy, tunred to my quit buddy Yogi, and we just cussed at each other all day long, and got through it.
I have to say Wade, has been a great person for me, just send random texts a few times a week, Thanks Wade, they are appreciated, and it's nice to be QLF, with you.
So the week of the 19th, was total shit. I was a volunteer bartender for our chamber of commerce Pizza Festival. Serving beer while listening to good band major crave....got through it. That same evening in our over 21 and over area, a security guard let a minor in. That minor was given a wristband, and he was served a beer by me. Said minor was also a decoy for the ABC, and I was cited and released with a misdemeanor. I took my booking photo right at the event! Security guard says he was really sorry and he was distracted. Anyway, never been arrested or charged with anything, and now I get this as a volunteer??? Needless to say it was a major crave, but she did not win. Also, my attorney is being paid for by the event, and he is confident we will never hit trial, as I followed the rules.
I travel a lot for work. I did time my quit close to my slowest time of the year. Well my travel is now starting to get it's legs behind it and my first trip was the week of the 22nd. I was afraid to fly, hours with nothing to do, and since I usually get upgraded and in first class you get everything you want that was always a non-stop chew fest for me. I did not even have a crave on the plane, small victory. Most of my trip through Chicago area and WI, was uneventful and I made sure to have both fake and my support group ready.
Best part of the trip, was getting to have dinner with a fellow bad ass quitter, Evil-Won. We shared a meal and a few beers and it was nice to put a face to the name. It was as much fun as I could have had without going full Ghey. But serious Evil, was one of the first to reach out and provide a phone number. I have used that shit as well on more than occasion. He is the one I trust the most with my quit, I know when I tell him to post for me he will. Thanks, Evil 'worship' Return trip was about as uneventful.
While, I have been around people that chew, I still have not allowed myself access to my best friend or my dad. They both chew, and when around them drinking is involved and I am not sure despite the fact both of them know I am quit, they would not hand me a can if I asked. So, at 61 days I have not seen either of them, right now my quit is more important than face time with my dad or my BFF.
I have managed to get through 61 days, without a product that I used for over 20 years. I am pretty amazed at that. KTC, and the folks here is why. While most of you are just screen names and avatars, I don't want to let you down. I could cave today and my wife would not say a thing to me. BUt I know if I did that every hard ass mother fucker in here would be on my shit. So, for me it's you. Its you guys and gals that post up everyday. Its the guys who text me after a few days MIA ducattirider. Thanks, to everyone, Ill be here today, and I'll post again tomorrow. As always, if you reach out, I will be here for you, I am QLF with you all.
