Day 56
Wow, quitting nic is about so much more than just nicotine. I'm learning things about myself......some things I like, other things I need to work on.
For the last 15+ years, I would hide behind my addiction. If I was stressed/mad/disappointed/scared, I would put a dip in and "get over" it. All I really did was avoid the feeling....I didn't really work through it. That's sad!
I think part of my "ups downs" lately are two-fold -
Ups
1) when I think about my quit the strength I've shown to myself...
2) when I think about my family the stuff they have put up with ( they still love me)...
3) freedom from nicotine....
4) allowing myself to feel again....don't know if that's the right way to say it, but whatever!
Downs
1) money, time, effort wasted on this addiction....
2) mad at myself for getting myself into this addiction....
3) mad at myself for not quitting sooner......
I was always taught that I couldn't change the past. Here's to moving forward forgiving myself for the past......
I quit with you today!