Quitter, Second Award

[KingNothing]

Charge, I just read through your intro and I wanted to say it did a lot for my quit today. I am only on day 6, but I still get that fleeting thought that says, "you've already got this kicked" you can do this on your own and have one every once in awhile just to keep you level. Your story has really reminded me of why that just isn't possible.

I can vividly remember trying to quit in the past and telling myself I could only have one when wife was out of town, long road trip, etc., only to end up dipping the same amount I used to without even realizing it. Thanks again for posting your struggles, it has helped my quit.

[Charge]

I thought I was gonna quit after I got married. Then I thought i was gonna quit after my first kid. Then I thought I was gonna quit after my first deployment. Then I thought I was gonna quit when I hit Major.

It's getting ridiculous. I picture myself in 20 years as a 55-year old CEO in a sharp suit and a nice car, and this mental image does not include an ugly tin and a nasty spitoon. Which means that, at some point in the next 20 years, I need to become the master of this addiction.

I remember my sense of freedom after my last quit (that ended in a lapse/relapse about 9 months later). No more ninjitsu, no more being tied down by that damn bottle, no more hitting the convenience store for "a pack of gum", no more hiding out in the shitter for hours to get the fix. I want that freedom back, and this Day 3 suck is the price I'm willing to pay for it.

[Diesel2112]

Dave, why do you want to quit?

Don't tell us what you think we want to hear.

Be 100% honest and from the heart.

[Charge]

So, did you answer the 3 questions in your new group as well as April 2014?

Ah, just found the questions in question.

What I did wrong: I got cocky (I know, NO SHIT, right?). I didn't grasp the principle of a lifetime addict, so I discovered the lapse/relapse syndrome the hard way.

What I could have done differently: I could have admitted to myself that I was, indeed, still addicted to nicotine. Maybe I knew, maybe I didn't, but I set out to prove that I was no longer an addict. Wrong move, asshole.

What I'll do differently this time: Posting roll call, and checking in with my fellow quitters to keep me accountable for my actions. This won't end on Day 100, 1000, or even 10,000. I'll mentor junior quitters and keep them accountable, just as they are keeping me accountable. I'll recruit new quitters from my workplace, and we'll supervise each other in person.

[Thumblewort]

Making merging easy should be my middle name.

[Thumblewort]

Can we get a mod to merge his intros please? Only one intro per quitter Charge.

So, did you answer the 3 questions in your new group as well as April 2014?

[pab1964]

Posted roll. w00t!

You guys ever try the Grinds pouches? Heavily flavored coffee in a familiar-sized pouch. Also happens to come in a round tin, which I have mixed feelings about. Pretty tasty, though, and I can still pretend to be a ninja if I wanted to.

By the way, I quit today. I think I'll probably do it again tomorrow.

Great job now I'm ball's to the wall supporting your ass! I use baccoff, nicotine free mint leaves. Damn proud to be quit with you today!

[Charge]

Posted roll. w00t!

You guys ever try the Grinds pouches? Heavily flavored coffee in a familiar-sized pouch. Also happens to come in a round tin, which I have mixed feelings about. Pretty tasty, though, and I can still pretend to be a ninja if I wanted to.

By the way, I quit today. I think I'll probably do it again tomorrow.

[pab1964]

3 questions? Self-complete level? You guys are waaaay above my intellect.

And who the hell put a subtitle on my post, labeling me the world's cockiest quitter? Surely, there has been a Texan that has been through this forum prior to my arrival. No way in hell I'm cockier than a Texan.

Dammit, this craving sucks. Thanks for the help today. I'll quit with you some more tomorrow. I'm going to take a cold shower and go to bed.

Sorry charge about the 3 questions you never posted roll. Do the shit right this time, POST ROLL!

[quark]

I showed my buddies at work how my addiction was broken, so I threw in a lipper to show that I was strong enough not to get re-addicted.

I am sure that all of us know alcoholics that have achieved sobriety through the resources of AA, only to be told several years later that they are not really addicts and that they now have the inner strength, which was all that was lacking, to control their drinking. So instilled with new-found inner strength they started drinking again and royally fucked up their lives. You will never be able to control your nicotine addiction as long as you are using. It is all or nothing. You are an addict when you are using. You are an addict when you are not using. You control your addiction when you are not using. You are a slave when you are using. You know all of this . Let it sink in deeply this time.

[Macamania]

Welcome to the group Charge. That's a good intro. It reminds me of shit I've done in the past. Good analogy between the nic bitch and the real one. I think we have all faced down the bitch that we knew was our demise, but hung in there anyway. Can't deny the bitch is crazy and destructive as hell, but can't deny she knows how to make you hum like a bee. I hate to hear the wife isn't supportive. There are a bunch of assholes here to help. Our group has a groupme, you might PM Old Dog about it. PM me if I can do anything.

[Charge]

3 questions? Self-complete level? You guys are waaaay above my intellect.

And who the hell put a subtitle on my post, labeling me the world's cockiest quitter? Surely, there has been a Texan that has been through this forum prior to my arrival. No way in hell I'm cockier than a Texan.

Dammit, this craving sucks. Thanks for the help today. I'll quit with you some more tomorrow. I'm going to take a cold shower and go to bed.

[Crispy]

I love the self-compete level. It can be a powerful tool in sport psychology. We're here for you as well whenever needed. Best!

[pab1964]

Corbin -
You're absolutely right: I can't do it on my own. I learned that lesson the hard way. That's why I'm back here, using the same profile, confessing to my wrongdoings. I take full ownership of the arrogance that makes me who I am, and use that competitiveness (against my old self more than any of you) to make tomorrow more successful than today.

Remember one thing mr.cancer don't give a damn how arrogant you are or cocky ,put that in your lip and dip it! You know before you get too comfy you got 3 questions to answer. Get it done.

[Charge]

Corbin -
You're absolutely right: I can't do it on my own. I learned that lesson the hard way. That's why I'm back here, using the same profile, confessing to my wrongdoings. I take full ownership of the arrogance that makes me who I am, and use that competitiveness (against my old self more than any of you) to make tomorrow more successful than today.