Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II

[redtrain14]

benny has his "GF" by the balls?

Interesting......

'Popcorn'

shit, I missed that. Are they boyfriends? Someone needs to get greg40 in here to verify.

TIFFS !!

'crackup' 'crackup'

Those punk rock dudes must be some crazy, into everything mofos.

[Greg5280]

benny has his "GF" by the balls?

Interesting......

'Popcorn'

shit, I missed that. Are they boyfriends? Someone needs to get greg40 in here to verify.

TIFFS !!

'crackup' 'crackup'

[Lochi21]

'qt' Day 4 has started.


the show was really good for me... I got to vent some frustrations and such, and I dipped my mint stuff instead on the way up to the show.. but on the way home for some reason i didn't even crave or anything. I think it was hitting the end of day 3 which i was dreading... I feel like its going to get a little easier each day.

thanks to you guys for the support, and rox, thanks for making an account on here, i think its cool that you care this much.

here's a question: when i go on tour and I only have access to the internet on my junky phone, how am I going to post roll?

benny

I agree. I thinks it's awesome you have someone who loves you enough to make an account here at KTC so she can support you. We all could use a lot more Roxy's in our life.

I like reading your stuff in here. I can tell it's heartfelt. Maybe it's because you are a song writer but you do a nice job sharing you experiences. I don't know if I could have done this so early in my quit.

It might feel like it's going to get easier but you are still in for some REALLY shitty days bro. They will hit you like a freight train. Especially because the day before was so easy. I hated 'THE VOID" man. It happened for me around Day 50. Missing the shit out of the associations I had built up. For me it was sports. I loved watch sports and dipping. When I quit, I began to hate sports because I couldn't dip anymore and there was a huge void in my life. It goes away and things do get easier.

I'm proud of you man. Keep up the fight. You are absolutely stronger than any addiction. I can tell you have the mental make-up to win this battle.

[chewie]

here's a question: when i go on tour and I only have access to the internet on my junky phone, how am I going to post roll?

Get a brother's number... call, text, passenger pigeon, smoke signals, etc.

Roll is PARAMOUNT to your success. Just as dipping was your habit, make posting your habit. By any means necessary.

[MikeA]

benny has his "GF" by the balls?

Interesting......

'Popcorn'

shit, I missed that. Are they boyfriends? Someone needs to get greg40 in here to verify.

[redtrain14]

benny has his "GF" by the balls?

Interesting......

'Popcorn'

[MikeA]

well first of all I am a vegetarian, so eating TOO MUCH is bad... 

I rode my bike about 12 miles today though, which is more than I normally would, and I think with all of the water I'm doing and the sweating I'm doing, my cravings are less than the last time I *tried* to quit, as opposed to quitting this time.

I am going to take a nap and then try to write some music and ride around sunset.  I have the next few weeks off from touring and only have to do some graphic design, so I gotta keep myself busy.

Its fucking hard to be around dippers though - yesterday and today - just listening to them talk or seeing them dip, but I keep summing it up with all of the dumb shit the addiction makes you do... like walking around the video store last night my buddy had a wad of dip in and couldn't respond to anything i said except with grunts and eyeballs of fire for his mouth was full of skoal mint spit...  it kinda reminded me of another good example of why i'm better off.  riding with my uncle today i felt bad he kept going on about how he is goign to quit drinking smoking and chewing all at once when he is 40, which is next may, and he went on about how our grandfather smoked 4 packs a day and it hurt to lose him at 11.

As much as there is an urge to chew, there is an urgency in me to be healthy.

I don't smoke.  I don't drink except on occasion.  I don't do other drugs.  I quit all of these things at the end of 2008, so I will be able to put I don't do nicotine on the list.

by the end of these 100 days I want to be able to ride my bike 20-40 miles in a trip.

I think if i pair not chewing with something like building my body, and i use my body and change my mindset at the same time about a few things, it will all flow easier.  any thoughts or advice?

and fuck getting fat again I am still chunky and I lost 100 pounds the last 2 years.  I refuse to get fat again, so I will do healthy things.



'Crazy'

You'll always be my love and my best friend, even if you do put on a couple pounds. we'll stay healthy together. try that daily log of food habits thing i told you about. i look forward to bike rides and dinner/sleep over with you on friday. besides quitting, i'm also very proud of you for giving up factory farmed meat and junk food. you're a good person and a smart guy. and you listen to my opinions and care about what i care about. your life honestly is pretty good right now, you've got good friends, and you've got me by the balls too, so try to push the cravings and such out of your mind. try to meditate tonight and get good sleep.

wish you were here.
(shortcake)

Just curious, are you two fucking?

[MikeA]

oops

[bennythekid]

'qt' Day 4 has started.


the show was really good for me... I got to vent some frustrations and such, and I dipped my mint stuff instead on the way up to the show.. but on the way home for some reason i didn't even crave or anything. I think it was hitting the end of day 3 which i was dreading... I feel like its going to get a little easier each day.

thanks to you guys for the support, and rox, thanks for making an account on here, i think its cool that you care this much.

here's a question: when i go on tour and I only have access to the internet on my junky phone, how am I going to post roll?

benny

[roxy:)))]

well first of all I am a vegetarian, so eating TOO MUCH is bad...

I rode my bike about 12 miles today though, which is more than I normally would, and I think with all of the water I'm doing and the sweating I'm doing, my cravings are less than the last time I *tried* to quit, as opposed to quitting this time.

I am going to take a nap and then try to write some music and ride around sunset. I have the next few weeks off from touring and only have to do some graphic design, so I gotta keep myself busy.

Its fucking hard to be around dippers though - yesterday and today - just listening to them talk or seeing them dip, but I keep summing it up with all of the dumb shit the addiction makes you do... like walking around the video store last night my buddy had a wad of dip in and couldn't respond to anything i said except with grunts and eyeballs of fire for his mouth was full of skoal mint spit... it kinda reminded me of another good example of why i'm better off. riding with my uncle today i felt bad he kept going on about how he is goign to quit drinking smoking and chewing all at once when he is 40, which is next may, and he went on about how our grandfather smoked 4 packs a day and it hurt to lose him at 11.

As much as there is an urge to chew, there is an urgency in me to be healthy.

I don't smoke. I don't drink except on occasion. I don't do other drugs. I quit all of these things at the end of 2008, so I will be able to put I don't do nicotine on the list.

by the end of these 100 days I want to be able to ride my bike 20-40 miles in a trip.

I think if i pair not chewing with something like building my body, and i use my body and change my mindset at the same time about a few things, it will all flow easier. any thoughts or advice?

and fuck getting fat again I am still chunky and I lost 100 pounds the last 2 years. I refuse to get fat again, so I will do healthy things.



'Crazy'

You'll always be my love and my best friend, even if you do put on a couple pounds. we'll stay healthy together. try that daily log of food habits thing i told you about. i look forward to bike rides and dinner/sleep over with you on friday. besides quitting, i'm also very proud of you for giving up factory farmed meat and junk food. you're a good person and a smart guy. and you listen to my opinions and care about what i care about. your life honestly is pretty good right now, you've got good friends, and you've got me by the balls too, so try to push the cravings and such out of your mind. try to meditate tonight and get good sleep.

wish you were here.
(shortcake)

[Skoal Monster]

Day 3 - on a roll.

'bang head'

I'm not going to lie, the evening last night and on into this morning have been a cloudy time.  I would have caved if it wasn't reading countless things on this site. 

I would have caved if I wasn't being blatantly honest to my friends about what I'm doing. 

I've been using mint leaf snuff its not as good but it makes you kinda feel satisfied... I think I may switch to sunflower seeds in a few days when my mouth isn't as sensitive..

Has anyone else had calcium stones from their tonsils from dipping?  my uncle gets them and I have them, but i noticed since i woke up a lot of them are coming out in little pieces.  I think its just part of the healing.

all of the ridges in my gums have finally went away overall, and the little canker sore that i was worried about is healing over...

I didn't realize how sore my tongue was til i quit, but I think its healing too.. I remember this process from the last time when i failed.. I feel like my mouth actually got more sore as it was healing.

Today is going to be a challenging day to me.  I'm going to be driving a lot, which is when I like to dip, but I am heading to a hardcore show to see Product of Waste, This is Hell, and Venia, and all my friends from town are going to be there, so I know they will have my back.  I just gotta maintain my positivity for them and for rox.

here we go.

Caving is not an option.

Enjoy.

Benny,

Think thru what your temptations and triggers are going to be and then figure out in advance how to deal with it. Watch the booze. There is NO acceptable reason for you to cave. Maybe you skip the show if it puts you at risk. Whats more important , your life or a show. just sayin

sm

[Ready]

Day 3 - on a roll.

'bang head'

I'm not going to lie, the evening last night and on into this morning have been a cloudy time. I would have caved if it wasn't reading countless things on this site.

I would have caved if I wasn't being blatantly honest to my friends about what I'm doing.

I've been using mint leaf snuff its not as good but it makes you kinda feel satisfied... I think I may switch to sunflower seeds in a few days when my mouth isn't as sensitive..

Has anyone else had calcium stones from their tonsils from dipping? my uncle gets them and I have them, but i noticed since i woke up a lot of them are coming out in little pieces. I think its just part of the healing.

all of the ridges in my gums have finally went away overall, and the little canker sore that i was worried about is healing over...

I didn't realize how sore my tongue was til i quit, but I think its healing too.. I remember this process from the last time when i failed.. I feel like my mouth actually got more sore as it was healing.

Today is going to be a challenging day to me. I'm going to be driving a lot, which is when I like to dip, but I am heading to a hardcore show to see Product of Waste, This is Hell, and Venia, and all my friends from town are going to be there, so I know they will have my back. I just gotta maintain my positivity for them and for rox.

here we go.

Caving is not an option.

Enjoy.

[bennythekid]

my band is called Renae. We tour the country. right now we're on a writing break... here's a link to our myspace, which is probably the easiest way to hear us, or you can find us on mediafire i'm sure. http://www.myspace.com/renaemusichttp://www.myspace.com/renaemusic

[RAZD611]

Day 3 - on a roll.

'bang head'

I'm not going to lie, the evening last night and on into this morning have been a cloudy time. I would have caved if it wasn't reading countless things on this site.

I would have caved if I wasn't being blatantly honest to my friends about what I'm doing.

I've been using mint leaf snuff its not as good but it makes you kinda feel satisfied... I think I may switch to sunflower seeds in a few days when my mouth isn't as sensitive..

Has anyone else had calcium stones from their tonsils from dipping? my uncle gets them and I have them, but i noticed since i woke up a lot of them are coming out in little pieces. I think its just part of the healing.

all of the ridges in my gums have finally went away overall, and the little canker sore that i was worried about is healing over...

I didn't realize how sore my tongue was til i quit, but I think its healing too.. I remember this process from the last time when i failed.. I feel like my mouth actually got more sore as it was healing.

Today is going to be a challenging day to me. I'm going to be driving a lot, which is when I like to dip, but I am heading to a hardcore show to see Product of Waste, This is Hell, and Venia, and all my friends from town are going to be there, so I know they will have my back. I just gotta maintain my positivity for them and for rox.

here we go.

Your mouth will go through a lot of changes. It will take a while. I am on day 303 and I still have rough places and pockets where dip used to sit, but it is getting better. Give it time and it shall for you too.

[RAZD611]

Give us a link to one of your songs and let us what you got.