Menace, I would in a heart beat!!!! And yes it's probably minor but then again why gamble and roll the dice for just a few more dips when it can take a half a century or more of life!!!
yeah.....was getting to that after I got the multiple membership dealt with.....
you really have a lot of amends to make up for.....
i'll be honest....whether it is the case or not....I've always felt that at some point...there was "one more" that was one "too many".....and for me at least....would be the "catalyst".
again...just makes sense to me.....kind of like when playing Russian roulette.....at some point.....bang.
that said...and I don't mean to sound like an ass regarding your fears.....you need to quit....and not just "stop". Your word is shit on this site.....until you earn the respect and trust back that you squandered.....it is not an easy thing to quit....
your quit will be much harder.....due to your choices....and your failure.
what will you do different this time.....
or are you going to keep playing Russian roulette until........bang.
your call.....your choice....
it would really suck to have found this site.....seen so much success.....have the opportunity to quit successfully and be a part of something so much bigger than yourself or any one of us....and finally gain control of your addiction.....
only to squander that and give in....
and have that failure create a much bigger battle.....
I hope you are fine.....but remember this feeling.....
and stop playing quit.....