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30 days of quit is great. But just cuz you passed the first exam doesn't mean your prepared to ace the final.
It took me over a year until I really felt quit. I needed a full season of triggers. Holidays, hunting, football, ballet, etc. At thirty days I was still reaching for my can a dozen times a day.
The program works, plenty of posters work night shifts, maybe explain to your quit group that YOUR "FIRST THING IN THE MORNING" starts at night. I'm sure they'll get it.
Secondly, A huge help to those of us that understand we are addicts, is helping others. Without a hand-up from Ready, Mule, Loot , 11x44, Hydro, Smokey G, Kdip, BBJ, Remshot, FranPro, and a busload of others I would have struggled badly. It is possible that this site saved my life. It is one reason we stick around, helping others helps us. Your attitude is going to keep you from both helping others and helping yourself.
Your lack of commitment is going to ultimately cause you to cave again. While that is just my opinion ( and I hope I'm wrong) You'll notice I have watched 10,000 plus quitters walk these halls.
Goo luck to you
sM