Hidden habit

[Stranger999]

Day 365

Last night I read a story to my kids about some amazing, heroic rescues. Later, I started reflecting on the efforts...the sacrifices some humans will make to save others, without question. Whether it is many or one, often or rare, whether it is seen or unseen, loudly, quietly, quickly, arduously, however. All are so valuable. This place, this community, and the REAL people behind these screens- save lives...and improve lives...if we choose to allow it.

Humbled. I wish I could start over with the knowledge I’ve gained this year. Knowledge about myself, others and about life in general.  Easy? Definitely not. Regrets?...for sure, but...gotta move forward and appreciate regrets as proof of growth. Worth it? YES!

This experience has improved my life in ways I never could have imagined at this time last year. When I joined, I had two people in my life who knew about my battle with addiction. This year has given me the confidence to open up to friends and family. That was extremely hard at first, I felt so guilty about it, but it has actually healed relationships I didn’t even realize were lacking. This year I get to celebrate with my family and friends! I can’t even express how huge that is for me.
I came here to quit nicotine, but I have to admit- it’s deeper than I realized.
Quitting works one day at a time and so does living.

Congrats @ankape !!!  One year is an amazing feat.  Keep slaying the bitch.

Love this post.  Congrats ankape!   

[BluManChew]

Day 365

Last night I read a story to my kids about some amazing, heroic rescues. Later, I started reflecting on the efforts...the sacrifices some humans will make to save others, without question. Whether it is many or one, often or rare, whether it is seen or unseen, loudly, quietly, quickly, arduously, however. All are so valuable. This place, this community, and the REAL people behind these screens- save lives...and improve lives...if we choose to allow it.

Humbled. I wish I could start over with the knowledge I’ve gained this year. Knowledge about myself, others and about life in general.  Easy? Definitely not. Regrets?...for sure, but...gotta move forward and appreciate regrets as proof of growth. Worth it? YES!

This experience has improved my life in ways I never could have imagined at this time last year. When I joined, I had two people in my life who knew about my battle with addiction. This year has given me the confidence to open up to friends and family. That was extremely hard at first, I felt so guilty about it, but it has actually healed relationships I didn’t even realize were lacking. This year I get to celebrate with my family and friends! I can’t even express how huge that is for me.
I came here to quit nicotine, but I have to admit- it’s deeper than I realized.
Quitting works one day at a time and so does living.

Congrats @ankape !!!  One year is an amazing feat.  Keep slaying the bitch.

[ankape]

Day 365

Last night I read a story to my kids about some amazing, heroic rescues. Later, I started reflecting on the efforts...the sacrifices some humans will make to save others, without question. Whether it is many or one, often or rare, whether it is seen or unseen, loudly, quietly, quickly, arduously, however. All are so valuable. This place, this community, and the REAL people behind these screens- save lives...and improve lives...if we choose to allow it.

Humbled. I wish I could start over with the knowledge I’ve gained this year. Knowledge about myself, others and about life in general.  Easy? Definitely not. Regrets?...for sure, but...gotta move forward and appreciate regrets as proof of growth. Worth it? YES!

This experience has improved my life in ways I never could have imagined at this time last year. When I joined, I had two people in my life who knew about my battle with addiction. This year has given me the confidence to open up to friends and family. That was extremely hard at first, I felt so guilty about it, but it has actually healed relationships I didn’t even realize were lacking. This year I get to celebrate with my family and friends! I can’t even express how huge that is for me.
I came here to quit nicotine, but I have to admit- it’s deeper than I realized.
Quitting works one day at a time and so does living.

[EXBEARHAG]

Congrats on hitting 300 days quit. Keep ping you and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you.

Lovin the 300 for you Ankape. Success breeds success - you're the fuel in the gas tank of quit for so many. Keep on quittin!

KAPER is the real deal!!!!!  Congratulations on the new floor and keep doing what you do here - KTC would NOT be the same without you!!!

Congratulations on 300!!  I agree with FLLip you are the real deal!!  Keep it up lady!

Way to power through Miss Ankape!!

Woop woop way to go Ankape. Thats inspiring just seeing you win. Soon have 200 under my belt and everyday its gets easier. Keep up the fight as more people are watching then you think.

Congrats on 300!  Huge milestone!  PTQWYT

BMC 1,048

Congrats girl.  Hold the line!!

[BluManChew]

Congrats on hitting 300 days quit. Keep ping you and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you.

Lovin the 300 for you Ankape. Success breeds success - you're the fuel in the gas tank of quit for so many. Keep on quittin!

KAPER is the real deal!!!!!  Congratulations on the new floor and keep doing what you do here - KTC would NOT be the same without you!!!

Congratulations on 300!!  I agree with FLLip you are the real deal!!  Keep it up lady!

Way to power through Miss Ankape!!

Woop woop way to go Ankape. Thats inspiring just seeing you win. Soon have 200 under my belt and everyday its gets easier. Keep up the fight as more people are watching then you think.

Congrats on 300!  Huge milestone!  PTQWYT

BMC 1,048

[Thefranks5]

Congrats on hitting 300 days quit. Keep ping you and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you.

Lovin the 300 for you Ankape. Success breeds success - you're the fuel in the gas tank of quit for so many. Keep on quittin!

KAPER is the real deal!!!!!  Congratulations on the new floor and keep doing what you do here - KTC would NOT be the same without you!!!

Congratulations on 300!!  I agree with FLLip you are the real deal!!  Keep it up lady!

Way to power through Miss Ankape!!

Woop woop way to go Ankape. Thats inspiring just seeing you win. Soon have 200 under my belt and everyday its gets easier. Keep up the fight as more people are watching then you think.

[ChickDip]

Congrats on hitting 300 days quit. Keep ping you and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you.

Lovin the 300 for you Ankape. Success breeds success - you're the fuel in the gas tank of quit for so many. Keep on quittin!

KAPER is the real deal!!!!!  Congratulations on the new floor and keep doing what you do here - KTC would NOT be the same without you!!!

Congratulations on 300!!  I agree with FLLip you are the real deal!!  Keep it up lady!

Way to power through Miss Ankape!!

[Falcon67]

Congrats on hitting 300 days quit. Keep ping you and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you.

Lovin the 300 for you Ankape. Success breeds success - you're the fuel in the gas tank of quit for so many. Keep on quittin!

KAPER is the real deal!!!!!  Congratulations on the new floor and keep doing what you do here - KTC would NOT be the same without you!!!

Congratulations on 300!!  I agree with FLLip you are the real deal!!  Keep it up lady!

[FLLipOut]

Congrats on hitting 300 days quit. Keep ping you and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you.

Lovin the 300 for you Ankape. Success breeds success - you're the fuel in the gas tank of quit for so many. Keep on quittin!

KAPER is the real deal!!!!!  Congratulations on the new floor and keep doing what you do here - KTC would NOT be the same without you!!! 

[Athan]

Congrats on hitting 300 days quit. Keep ping you and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you.

Lovin the 300 for you Ankape. Success breeds success - you're the fuel in the gas tank of quit for so many. Keep on quittin!

[Keith0617]

Congrats on hitting 300 days quit. Keep ping you and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you.

[oldschool]

Day 280
Thinking back to that day when I first read Tom and Jenny Kern’s story. Wow. I am forever grateful for the strength of the Kern family to share this story. I’d hopped on the internet looking for some motivation and, man, I found it. I was scared, sad, mad and just totally done with this addiction. Ready to do whatever it took to quit for good, I signed up. Ok, before I found this site, I would search the internet for things like how rare cancer is and statistics on how nicotine in itself really isn’t so bad...yeah, maybe I could use the tobacco-free stuff (aka waste $5 a can to keep the addiction lit until I inevitably went back to tobacco)... right? anything...damn, I worked really, really hard at justifying my addiction. Then, I read Jenny Kern‘s words, “it doesn’t matter how rare cancer is if you’re the one who gets it.” Done. I instantly saw my kids and family and the pain that would come with that for them. I was done. Then, I hung around...people kept saying, “you have to quit for you and only you.” Well...I just didn’t get that. My mind went, “Do we ever really do anything in life for just ourselves?” I don’t know...Well, recently I had this…”moment”, I guess. I pulled up to a stop sign across from a C-store and there, as I looked across, I felt like my mind was so different than it had ever been before. I truly didn’t want it. Not at all. Hard to explain. Different. Not because of my fear of cancer. Not because it is expensive. Not because it stains my teeth or any of the hundred other reasons I could list off to talk myself out of it...this time I was just content. I didn’t want to waste another moment of my life on it. I quit for me. I quit for this life and people that I love. I quit today- simply for, if nothing more, the quality of today.

Damn. I read this and thought Holy Crap that's my story. Thanks @ankape you put it in words better than I ever could.

Stay Strong

Keep doing what you are doing and let those days add up. We keep hearing it but it is a different story when you can feel your quit is really getting better.

Damn, your words ALWAYS reinforce my fortitude...as strong or as pathetic as it may be at the time.  I don't know if I'm quite there yet but I'm somewhere in the middle which is a vast improvement over where I was 385 days ago. 

PTBQWYT my friend

You rock, girl. 

@FLLipOut  the Kaper @ankape is one strong badass quitter... so great to feel the strength in the quit!

[FLLipOut]

Day 280
Thinking back to that day when I first read Tom and Jenny Kern’s story. Wow. I am forever grateful for the strength of the Kern family to share this story. I’d hopped on the internet looking for some motivation and, man, I found it. I was scared, sad, mad and just totally done with this addiction. Ready to do whatever it took to quit for good, I signed up. Ok, before I found this site, I would search the internet for things like how rare cancer is and statistics on how nicotine in itself really isn’t so bad...yeah, maybe I could use the tobacco-free stuff (aka waste $5 a can to keep the addiction lit until I inevitably went back to tobacco)... right? anything...damn, I worked really, really hard at justifying my addiction. Then, I read Jenny Kern‘s words, “it doesn’t matter how rare cancer is if you’re the one who gets it.” Done. I instantly saw my kids and family and the pain that would come with that for them. I was done. Then, I hung around...people kept saying, “you have to quit for you and only you.” Well...I just didn’t get that. My mind went, “Do we ever really do anything in life for just ourselves?” I don’t know...Well, recently I had this…”moment”, I guess. I pulled up to a stop sign across from a C-store and there, as I looked across, I felt like my mind was so different than it had ever been before. I truly didn’t want it. Not at all. Hard to explain. Different. Not because of my fear of cancer. Not because it is expensive. Not because it stains my teeth or any of the hundred other reasons I could list off to talk myself out of it...this time I was just content. I didn’t want to waste another moment of my life on it. I quit for me. I quit for this life and people that I love. I quit today- simply for, if nothing more, the quality of today.

Damn. I read this and thought Holy Crap that's my story. Thanks @ankape you put it in words better than I ever could.

Stay Strong

Keep doing what you are doing and let those days add up. We keep hearing it but it is a different story when you can feel your quit is really getting better.

Damn, your words ALWAYS reinforce my fortitude...as strong or as pathetic as it may be at the time.  I don't know if I'm quite there yet but I'm somewhere in the middle which is a vast improvement over where I was 385 days ago. 

PTBQWYT my friend

You rock, girl. 

[EXBEARHAG]

Day 280
Thinking back to that day when I first read Tom and Jenny Kern’s story. Wow. I am forever grateful for the strength of the Kern family to share this story. I’d hopped on the internet looking for some motivation and, man, I found it. I was scared, sad, mad and just totally done with this addiction. Ready to do whatever it took to quit for good, I signed up. Ok, before I found this site, I would search the internet for things like how rare cancer is and statistics on how nicotine in itself really isn’t so bad...yeah, maybe I could use the tobacco-free stuff (aka waste $5 a can to keep the addiction lit until I inevitably went back to tobacco)... right? anything...damn, I worked really, really hard at justifying my addiction. Then, I read Jenny Kern‘s words, “it doesn’t matter how rare cancer is if you’re the one who gets it.” Done. I instantly saw my kids and family and the pain that would come with that for them. I was done. Then, I hung around...people kept saying, “you have to quit for you and only you.” Well...I just didn’t get that. My mind went, “Do we ever really do anything in life for just ourselves?” I don’t know...Well, recently I had this…”moment”, I guess. I pulled up to a stop sign across from a C-store and there, as I looked across, I felt like my mind was so different than it had ever been before. I truly didn’t want it. Not at all. Hard to explain. Different. Not because of my fear of cancer. Not because it is expensive. Not because it stains my teeth or any of the hundred other reasons I could list off to talk myself out of it...this time I was just content. I didn’t want to waste another moment of my life on it. I quit for me. I quit for this life and people that I love. I quit today- simply for, if nothing more, the quality of today.

Damn. I read this and thought Holy Crap that's my story. Thanks @ankape you put it in words better than I ever could.

Stay Strong

Keep doing what you are doing and let those days add up. We keep hearing it but it is a different story when you can feel your quit is really getting better.

Damn, your words ALWAYS reinforce my fortitude...as strong or as pathetic as it may be at the time.  I don't know if I'm quite there yet but I'm somewhere in the middle which is a vast improvement over where I was 385 days ago. 

PTBQWYT my friend

[Keith0617]

Day 280
Thinking back to that day when I first read Tom and Jenny Kern’s story. Wow. I am forever grateful for the strength of the Kern family to share this story. I’d hopped on the internet looking for some motivation and, man, I found it. I was scared, sad, mad and just totally done with this addiction. Ready to do whatever it took to quit for good, I signed up. Ok, before I found this site, I would search the internet for things like how rare cancer is and statistics on how nicotine in itself really isn’t so bad...yeah, maybe I could use the tobacco-free stuff (aka waste $5 a can to keep the addiction lit until I inevitably went back to tobacco)... right? anything...damn, I worked really, really hard at justifying my addiction. Then, I read Jenny Kern‘s words, “it doesn’t matter how rare cancer is if you’re the one who gets it.” Done. I instantly saw my kids and family and the pain that would come with that for them. I was done. Then, I hung around...people kept saying, “you have to quit for you and only you.” Well...I just didn’t get that. My mind went, “Do we ever really do anything in life for just ourselves?” I don’t know...Well, recently I had this…”moment”, I guess. I pulled up to a stop sign across from a C-store and there, as I looked across, I felt like my mind was so different than it had ever been before. I truly didn’t want it. Not at all. Hard to explain. Different. Not because of my fear of cancer. Not because it is expensive. Not because it stains my teeth or any of the hundred other reasons I could list off to talk myself out of it...this time I was just content. I didn’t want to waste another moment of my life on it. I quit for me. I quit for this life and people that I love. I quit today- simply for, if nothing more, the quality of today.

Damn. I read this and thought Holy Crap that's my story. Thanks @ankape you put it in words better than I ever could.

Stay Strong

Keep doing what you are doing and let those days add up. We keep hearing it but it is a different story when you can feel your quit is really getting better.