Day 124.
Feeling a little bit better this morning. Mind storm is calmer. Hopefully it. Continues. Still no enjoyment in anything but that should return in time.
Glad to be quit with you all.
I promise not to dip today.
MN/2,728 with you on this rainy Friday. Happy to hear things are better than yesterday.
Keith0617 1835 ODAAT
worktowin 3,746. Fall is upon us. Cooling down here in the Midwest. Looking forward to the weekend. Quit with you, man. One foot in front of the other. The wins are stacking up.
Just went through a couple hours of intense vertigo along with some anxiety. It’s calming again but now I feel a little shell shocked. Also left me with a bad headache. It’s crazy how this healing process works.
I went through Benzodiazepine withdrawal that lasted nearly 4 years. I went into what is called Protracted Withdrawal. It was hell on earth and actually it was worse than nicotine withdrawal. Unfortunately because I was so relieved that it was over and also thinking that I would never have to go through any kind of withdrawal again I was really blindsided by nicotine withdrawal. I didn’t know there was even such a thing because my last few stops back in the 90s and 2005 had no withdrawal at all. It feels similar to benzodiazepine withdrawal but the anxiety isn’t quite as strong and minus the seizures. I had 3 of them during early benzo withdrawal. Not downplaying nicotine withdrawal, it’s bad and it sucks. Glad to be quit with you all.
ODAAT.