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Re: I quit again
« Reply #745 on: January 23, 2024, 08:46:35 AM »
Day 226
I will not dip today.
Feel lost, empty, no purpose in life. Nicotine is truly evil how it hijacks your brain. Everything is good around me and all I feel is despair. My brain is screaming for a big bite but it’s not going to happen so I’m being punished. Kodiak should be banned. Quitting alcohol was a walk in the park compared to nicotine.
Fuck nicotine!!!!!!!!!

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #744 on: January 23, 2024, 06:51:01 AM »
Day 226
I will not dip today.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #743 on: January 22, 2024, 10:02:59 AM »
Worktowin 4,047. Today I’m thankful for the ability to work for me and my team to from home when the roads are icy AF (like they are right now), and of course for the great Chiefs football game last night. Steve I pray that you start finding some peace soon.
Day 225
Feel like shit. No dip for me today.
Thank you Michael.
MN/2,829 sorry for my absence. Older daughter was home from school sick last Friday. She gave it to me and I've been down for the count all weekend. Younger daughter now has it and is home from school today. So glad I don't have to ration my dip or make excuses to run out and feed my addiction. Never again for any reason.
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8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 | Comma 3x: 07.11.24 | 31st FL: 10.19.24 |

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #742 on: January 22, 2024, 09:56:50 AM »
Worktowin 4,047. Today I’m thankful for the ability to work for me and my team to from home when the roads are icy AF (like they are right now), and of course for the great Chiefs football game last night. Steve I pray that you start finding some peace soon.
Day 225
Feel like shit. No dip for me today.
Thank you Michael.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #741 on: January 22, 2024, 06:34:55 AM »
Worktowin 4,047. Today I’m thankful for the ability to work for me and my team to from home when the roads are icy AF (like they are right now), and of course for the great Chiefs football game last night. Steve I pray that you start finding some peace soon.
Day 225
Feel like shit. No dip for me today.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #740 on: January 22, 2024, 06:24:31 AM »
Worktowin 4,047. Today I’m thankful for the ability to work for me and my team to from home when the roads are icy AF (like they are right now), and of course for the great Chiefs football game last night. Steve I pray that you start finding some peace soon.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #739 on: January 21, 2024, 07:42:15 PM »
Day 224.
No dip today. Thanks to all for putting up with my whining.
1935 ODAAT. And you really think your wife has no clue? Wake up my friend.
Keith you really need to let that go. It’s my business and my business only. No she doesn’t have a clue and that’s the way it’s going to stay.
See you guys tomorrow.
Worktowin 4,046. Finished my employee reviews today. Cleaned out under the counters in my bathroom too. Hadn’t done that in years. Wow did I throw out a ton of shit. Watching the chiefs game now. Today I’m thankful that it’s warming up and I’ll be able to wash out my garage soon.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #738 on: January 21, 2024, 02:17:09 PM »
Day 224.
No dip today. Thanks to all for putting up with my whining.
1935 ODAAT. And you really think your wife has no clue? Wake up my friend.
Keith you really need to let that go. It’s my business and my business only. No she doesn’t have a clue and that’s the way it’s going to stay.
See you guys tomorrow.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #737 on: January 21, 2024, 12:25:04 PM »
Day 224.
No dip today. Thanks to all for putting up with my whining.
1935 ODAAT. And you really think your wife has no clue? Wake up my friend.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #736 on: January 21, 2024, 09:51:10 AM »
Day 224.
No dip today. Thanks to all for putting up with my whining.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #735 on: January 20, 2024, 12:09:57 PM »
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Day 223
Feeling a little better so far today. Yesterday was absolute brain chaos. Severe anxiety. Now I’m just flat with a little depression and some background anxiety. No interest in any hobbies or life in general but I’m still quit and that is what counts. I usually feel better in the evening as my cortisol levels drop for the night so that is what I’m looking forward to. Sleep is the great escape from the hell withdrawals put us through.
I’m still weighing the advice my therapist gave me about triggers. He somehow thinks that coming on here can trigger anxiety and that I need to get away from anything that has to do with dip. I personally feel that my anxiety doesn’t have anything to do with triggers. It’s because my brain is injured from nicotine addiction and it will heal in its own time weather triggered or not. Anyway if I decide to take a break I’m let you all know beforehand.
I will not dip today.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #734 on: January 20, 2024, 10:59:39 AM »
MN/2,827 ODAAT
Day 223
Feeling a little better so far today. Yesterday was absolute brain chaos. Severe anxiety. Now I’m just flat with a little depression and some background anxiety. No interest in any hobbies or life in general but I’m still quit and that is what counts. I usually feel better in the evening as my cortisol levels drop for the night so that is what I’m looking forward to. Sleep is the great escape from the hell withdrawals put us through.
I’m still weighing the advice my therapist gave me about triggers. He somehow thinks that coming on here can trigger anxiety and that I need to get away from anything that has to do with dip. I personally feel that my anxiety doesn’t have anything to do with triggers. It’s because my brain is injured from nicotine addiction and it will heal in its own time weather triggered or not. Anyway if I decide to take a break I’m let you all know beforehand.
I will not dip today.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #733 on: January 20, 2024, 10:18:12 AM »
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Quit: 04.25.16 | HOF: 08.02.16 | 2nd FL: 11.10.16 | 3rd FL: 02.18.17 | 4th FL: 05.29.17 | 5th FL: 09.06.17 | 6th FL: 12.15.17 | 7th FL: 03.25.18 |
8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 | Comma 3x: 07.11.24 | 31st FL: 10.19.24 |

"From Skoal to Skol!" My HOF Speech HERE!
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"Cave = losing an argument to a dead plant in a plastic can. You are smarter than a dead plant." - Candoit
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #732 on: January 19, 2024, 02:34:51 PM »
Day 222
Anxiety Anxiety Anxiety.
It just won’t stop. No dip today.
MN/2,826 Friday QUIT
My therapist said that I should take a break from KTC. Says that I need to move on from anything that reminds me of dip. What do you guys think?
worktwoin 4,044.  If you getting on here and typing your thoughts makes you wanna dip, I guess I'd probably take a break.  Has your therapist every dipped and successfully quit?  Just curious, because we can relate to what you are experiencing.  But I'm no mental health expert.  Just a nicotine addict that has a few years of success under my snazzy belt.  By the way, it was 40 degrees here yesterday and its like 4 here today.  That sucks.
Normally I would disagree. I think it's critical to remember where you've been to make sure you know where you are going. A resource like KTC, when utilized the way it was intended, builds relationships which blossoms into accountability and helps folks fight shoulder to shoulder against nicotine, weathering the storms arm in arm.

With your situation and your inability to utilize KTC in it's current active environment, I don't know if your therapist's advice has merit or not. Yes, you post each day here which is foundational but the deeper levels of brotherhood and accountability are missing since this forum has been an echo chamber since the move to Discord.

Typically when people say they are going to leave KTC because it's the only time they think of dip, the masses come out and light their ass up. Boiled down, it's addict speak. You are always going to be around things that trigger thoughts of nicotine or around people who use tobacco. So frankly, removing KTC won't be the earth shattering change that tips the balance IMO.
Quit: 04.25.16 | HOF: 08.02.16 | 2nd FL: 11.10.16 | 3rd FL: 02.18.17 | 4th FL: 05.29.17 | 5th FL: 09.06.17 | 6th FL: 12.15.17 | 7th FL: 03.25.18 |
8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 | Comma 3x: 07.11.24 | 31st FL: 10.19.24 |

"From Skoal to Skol!" My HOF Speech HERE!
"There is no victory without a battle."
"Cave = losing an argument to a dead plant in a plastic can. You are smarter than a dead plant." - Candoit
"The truth is the truth even if no one believes it, and a lie is a lie, even if everyone believes it." - Bishop Fulton J. Sheen

Feel like throwing in the towel? Sign the "Contract to Give Up" HERE
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #731 on: January 19, 2024, 02:33:23 PM »
Day 222
Anxiety Anxiety Anxiety.
It just won’t stop. No dip today.
MN/2,826 Friday QUIT
My therapist said that I should take a break from KTC. Says that I need to move on from anything that reminds me of dip. What do you guys think?
worktwoin 4,044.  If you getting on here and typing your thoughts makes you wanna dip, I guess I'd probably take a break.  Has your therapist every dipped and successfully quit?  Just curious, because we can relate to what you are experiencing.  But I'm no mental health expert.  Just a nicotine addict that has a few years of success under my snazzy belt.  By the way, it was 40 degrees here yesterday and its like 4 here today.  That sucks.