I can't Evil Won, I can't. If I start inching towards dipping I will go all the way. I'm good with what I'm doing. I'm strong enough to handle it and it is just better for me that way. Hard headed, I am.Â
mogul
Settle down chief.
I didn't use the fake because I couldn't find it when I first quit. None of the usual places (Walmart) near me carry it. I dipped as a ninja and tried quitting as a ninja, so I couldn't go and order it online and have it shipped to my house where a very nosey Mrs Evil would open it and then start asking questions.
It was weeks into quitting that I found a mom-n-pop shop that sold it. I bought like 6 cans. Different brands and flavors. Too sweet, too waxy, etc. I figured ok, I've made it this far without the fake stuff so I'm going to continue without it. BUT these pouches burn like crazy, taste good, and leave my mouth minty fresh for hours. I'll keep these "just in case".
Two weeks ago, near day 375, I was on a week long business trip. I went to a local store and right there on the counter was the Smokey Mountain display (didn't have any pouches left. They were over 300 days old so I pitched them). The Bitch was whispering pretty loudly that week, "boring in a hotel room for a week isn't it? One dip? 762 miles to drive? Who would know?". I bought that can and told her to STFU, stat! I went back to the hotel and shoved half a can of fake into my yapper. It's tasted pretty good, packed nicely, burned too, and made a lot of spit.
That's when I freaked out. Those 4 characteristics of dipping were still "enjoyable" but the big one was missing...nicotine. I could tell something was missing. I felt that a quality fake was so similar to the real stuff that it was going to be a "gateway" for me to find that missing piece of the puzzle...real dip.
You know those old black and white moives they showed in grammar school, with that creepy voice over guy, that showed Johnny giving in to peer pressure and taking a hit off of a marijuanna cigarette and the next weekend he's naked on PCP, impregnating chicks in a huge orgy, and then trying to crawl through the roof of a squad car while a strobe light is flashing and Inagodadavidia is cranked up?
That would be me. I am an addict. When I commit to something I take it to the extreme instantly if not sooner.
So, yeah, for me the quality looseleaf fake was bad for many reasons, but the pouches were so unlike what I used and liked that it was ok for me. Bottom line is we are individuls. What works for some will not work for others. If something works for you do it until it no longer works, and then switch to another quit tool. The more tools you have the better off you will be.
Damn, I went off on a tangent. Sorry about that. Send me a PM if I can help you in any way.