Hi everyone,
I'm new here and hope I'm posting in the right place. I've dipped Copenhagen on and off for about 5 - 6 years. I started the addiction mostly due to being around it constantly in college baseball and after from playing in a men's league. I've had several failed attempts to quit. My last one lasted about 9 months but went right back to the can after I learned I'd be going to Las Vegas for a conference (I'm a CPA). Was supposed to be a gift from the boss but I'm deathly afraid of air planes and figured if I'm going out, I'm going out happy. Boy was that a bad decision. For the next few months, up until last week, I've had about 3 or 4 dips a week (I know, not a ton), but I was so disappointed in myself for being so weak. I don't want to do this stuff anymore and I feel like I need support. My family and friends are always here to help, but after reading the posts from you all, I feel like it would be good to talk to good people who are also former dippers.
My biggest problem now is that I'm still playing baseball and EVERYONE dips. Although I can tell that I'm not addicted to nicotine anymore, I needed that oral fixation during the game that I've become so accustomed to. Through this website, I found Jake's Mint Chew. After a week or two of dipping Jake's, I've really grown to like it and even love the taste. Wintergreen and Blackberry were my first flavors and, I've got to say, they are really tasty. I even have a Blackberry Jake's in now as I'm writing this.
All that being said, I hope it isn't too late to quit and that the damage hasn't already been done. That's my greatest fear. I'm tired of being a slave to tobacco and no longer can accept doing it. I'm taking accountability for the last 5 - 6 years as being the worst decision I've ever made. But NO MORE. I will not chew tobacco ever again. I printed out the contract from the website and keep it in my wallet. I'm telling my teammates, who many are in high school, about this website and about Jake's. I'm ashamed that I've dipped in front of them for this many years. I feel like such a bad example and don't want them to see any tobacco in my mouth ever again.
Sorry if that was a little long winded, but I just wanted to introduce myself and get some stuff off my chest. It feels good to be able to admit all of this to you all and I'm really looking forward to speaking with all of you. I have a ball game tomorrow, and the only thing that I will be chewing is Jake's or chewing gum.