« Reply #135 on: July 20, 2015, 12:37:00 PM »
363 days... The same forwards and backwards, a palindromeic number.
My life is almost palindromeic.
The stress, the same as a year ago.
The pressures from life, the same as a year ago.
The way I deal with the pressures and stress, not the same as a year ago.
I was under the false pretense that I needed to have nicotine in my system to cope and overcome those stressors.
I this last 363 days I have:
- Saved my marriage
- Lost control of my career
- Fought anxiety
- Developed tools and strategies to overcome
- Fought to keep my job
- Realized that it is a job and not who I am
- Began to regain control by no longer changing who I am fo the sake of others
- Resigned from my job
- Sued my former employer
- Won a 4 month paid vacation.
- Got blacklisted in education
- Realized that my children pay more than any job
- Dad is a better title than principal
- Concluded that one does not need 30 desks and 4 walls to be a teacher. Just an opportunity.
- Choose to start my own business
That choice brought back the stressors on the marriage. But I am 100% nicotine free, through out all of this. I haven't focused on a set amount of days, just get to tomorrow. Today is doable, beyond that is too much.
I quit for today.
Thanks for posting this Candoit. Some ring true already, others I look forward to experiencing. Good way to jump off this week. Quit with you today.
King
Keep killing it every day man.
Proud of you.

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