Day 5

[Radman]

Firstly, Mario Lopez has amazing dimples.

:huh: :huh: Uh, Smokey... a bit off-topic, ain't ya?

[sensei]

Day 504 - Integrity

"Adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character; honesty."

You either have it or you don't, there is no grey area.

When I got it, I nurtured it, loved it, embraced it. I cannot be quit without it, neither can you.

Firstly, Mario Lopez has amazing dimples. Nextly, did integrity solidify your quit or did quit solidify your integrity? Finally, that is all.

Definitely both :D

[Smokeyg]

Day 504 - Integrity

"Adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character; honesty."

You either have it or you don't, there is no grey area.

When I got it, I nurtured it, loved it, embraced it. I cannot be quit without it, neither can you.

Firstly, Mario Lopez has amazing dimples. Nextly, did integrity solidify your quit or did quit solidify your integrity? Finally, that is all.

[sensei]

Day 504 - Integrity

"Adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character; honesty."

You either have it or you don't, there is no grey area.

When I got it, I nurtured it, loved it, embraced it. I cannot be quit without it, neither can you.

[loot]

half comma ROCK!

[Souliman]

Nice quitting sensei. congrats.

[sensei]

'chew2' 500 'chew2'

saying no, on the daily

[sensei]

10 Reasons I won't dip today

1. My Daughter will think it's gross
2. My wife thinks it's gross
3. I think it's gross
4. I will die sooner
5. It looks stupid
6. It makes my breath stink
7. It rots my teeth
8. I won't have to lie
9. It's a waste of money
10. It's fucking stupid.

[sensei]

496 - Attrition

We had another guy cave in our group today. As time passes less and less people in our group are posting roll consistently. We started with over 100, went to the hall in May 2010 with 54 people, last week we had about 5-7 guys posting daily roll and maybe another 5 who post weekly. The rest are AWOL.... Who knows if they are quit or dipping.

I'm not one to tell another guy how they should quit, or what their level of commitment should be. If they can stay quit on their own and they are confident in that ability then I can see why they choose that route. It appears to be the easiest, and it is human nature to take the easiest route. They are mistaken.

For me, I base my actions on results. In my life and my business, I don't try to reinvent anything. I model successful people. That is the quickest and easiest way to the desired result. So I do the same thing in my quit. I model people who are successful and the successful people around here do 1 thing; They post roll every day.

I'm afraid that this trend will continue in our group and by attrition the nic bitch patiently waits and takes everyone who does not actively post roll.

This quit is too important to me. I'm not ready to take a chance and I will not be consumed by attrition. Instead I will make small commitments every day instead of making a huge commitment every once in a while. My motto today is "inch by inch, life's a cinch. Yard by yard, live is hard".

None for me today, guaranteed.

[kneedragger]

Day 489 - Dreaming

1 year 4 months and 3 days.

I had a dip dream on Monday night. The first 10 seconds of waking are terrible, I vividly feel the failure of caving until is realize that it was a dream. Then the rest of the day I can feel that failure in the back of my mind.... It fucking sucks.

The positive is that it keeps me conscious of my quit, besides a little dip dream my quit is in full flow right now, It feels effortless today. It really is amazing how some weeks I am battling for my life and others I am flowing with ease. When things are effortless, the challenge for me is to say aware and vigilant. I know this addiction is tenacious and so I will not miss the opportunity to post roll daily. It keeps my finger on the pulse of my quit and It reconnects me to my purpose.

With over a year of perspective I can see the waves or layers to my quit. with every funk I pull through I feel stronger and more confident. But the confidence comes with a price. It forces me to stay conscious of my quit.

In reality I would like nothing more than to forget all about quitting, forget to post roll, forget about dip, tobacco, nicotine, and addiction. I would love to have the entire memory erased and just be "normal." But that isn't possible...Maybe someday, but not today.

Today I am thinking about my quit, focusing on my goal, my purpose, and my plan of action. today I posted roll, today I am quit and It feels fucking good.

Thanks for this, Sensei. I thought I could be "normal" once. It was after my last quit. I don't know how long I had been quit for, but I was well past the HOF. I let my guard down, and lost that all important vigilance you speak of. I had to suck it up and post Day 1 all over again. I wouldn't wish that experience on my worst enemy.

That was 87 days ago. I won't make the same mistake twice. Thanks for setting the standard.

[30yraddict]

Lots of wisdom right there...thanks, Sensei.

[sensei]

Day 489 - Dreaming

1 year 4 months and 3 days.

I had a dip dream on Monday night. The first 10 seconds of waking are terrible, I vividly feel the failure of caving until is realize that it was a dream. Then the rest of the day I can feel that failure in the back of my mind.... It fucking sucks.

The positive is that it keeps me conscious of my quit, besides a little dip dream my quit is in full flow right now, It feels effortless today. It really is amazing how some weeks I am battling for my life and others I am flowing with ease. When things are effortless, the challenge for me is to say aware and vigilant. I know this addiction is tenacious and so I will not miss the opportunity to post roll daily. It keeps my finger on the pulse of my quit and It reconnects me to my purpose.

With over a year of perspective I can see the waves or layers to my quit. with every funk I pull through I feel stronger and more confident. But the confidence comes with a price. It forces me to stay conscious of my quit.

In reality I would like nothing more than to forget all about quitting, forget to post roll, forget about dip, tobacco, nicotine, and addiction. I would love to have the entire memory erased and just be "normal." But that isn't possible...Maybe someday, but not today.

Today I am thinking about my quit, focusing on my goal, my purpose, and my plan of action. today I posted roll, today I am quit and It feels fucking good.

[dchogs]

this is just what i needed today. too much fog to really work effectively, but not too much for a nice read. this thread should be mandatory reading for anyone quitting. maybe it should just be mandatory reading period.

sensei, thanks for taking the time to journal your quit here. this is going to be my funk-buster.

[mule]

Day 468

I went fishing on Saturday with my friend Steve. Steve is responsible for my nickname Sensei. You see, back in 9th grade I was the first in my group of friends to start dipping and years later we were all together (dipping of course) and the conversation started about who was the first to start.... I'm ashamed of that now, but it serves me well as leverage on my quit.

Steve is still dipping, in fact ALL of that group of friends are still dipping. My point is, while we were fishing, he was dipping. I'm thinking to myself "Man he's still doing that shit" and as he leans over to spit I say to him "I haven't had a dip since February 5th 2010". He says really? holy shit, how did you do it? I smile and tell him "you wouldn't believe me if I told you." He replies "If it will help me quit, I'll believe it." So the next half hour I explain KTC and how it works.... I'm hoping he shows up and commits, but just like taking the first dip, it's his choice.

I found that encouraging Steve to quit and explaining the process really helped me feel even stronger in my own quit. In fact, I used to think there was NO WAY I could ever go fishing with out a dip, I mean I really thought it would be impossible and I would have to quit fishing too.

I can say with confidence that fishing is even more fun WITHOUT dip, in fact to my utter astonishment, fish can still be caught WITHOUT a dip... un-frickin-believable but entirely true.

p.s. the 460's funk is lifting, and I'm feeling frisky again.

Great job sensei. You used to be the sensei of spit, You are now a Sensei of quit!

oh Loo-oooooT......LLLLLLLOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTT!!!!!!


We need another set of choir robes.


Mule
Deacon in the Church of LooT

[30yraddict]

Day 468

I went fishing on Saturday with my friend Steve. Steve is responsible for my nickname Sensei. You see, back in 9th grade I was the first in my group of friends to start dipping and years later we were all together (dipping of course) and the conversation started about who was the first to start.... I'm ashamed of that now, but it serves me well as leverage on my quit.

Steve is still dipping, in fact ALL of that group of friends are still dipping. My point is, while we were fishing, he was dipping. I'm thinking to myself "Man he's still doing that shit" and as he leans over to spit I say to him "I haven't had a dip since February 5th 2010". He says really? holy shit, how did you do it? I smile and tell him "you wouldn't believe me if I told you." He replies "If it will help me quit, I'll believe it." So the next half hour I explain KTC and how it works.... I'm hoping he shows up and commits, but just like taking the first dip, it's his choice.

I found that encouraging Steve to quit and explaining the process really helped me feel even stronger in my own quit. In fact, I used to think there was NO WAY I could ever go fishing with out a dip, I mean I really thought it would be impossible and I would have to quit fishing too.

I can say with confidence that fishing is even more fun WITHOUT dip, in fact to my utter astonishment, fish can still be caught WITHOUT a dip... un-frickin-believable but entirely true.

p.s. the 460's funk is lifting, and I'm feeling frisky again.

Great job sensei. You used to be the sensei of spit, You are now a Sensei of quit!