day zero - tired of the lies

[jayd41]

Day 36, went to chiropractor 2nd time for "stress shoulders" been wearing the fucking stress since pitching the dip. Finally feeling some of the tension leave.

feeling freer than i've felt in a decade.

thanks Ed, OF, jayd, Roman for helping in this venture.

you got it big dog

[nebraskadad58]

Day 36, went to chiropractor 2nd time for "stress shoulders" been wearing the fucking stress since pitching the dip. Finally feeling some of the tension leave.

feeling freer than i've felt in a decade.

thanks Ed, OF, jayd, Roman for helping in this venture.

[nebraskadad58]

Had a stogie dream this morning, big phat blunt stub in my mouth and a good billow of smoke around my face and someone comes in and busts me with it. Wake up in a cold fucking sweat.

Oh the fucking joy of it all.Ã,  it's only a dream, whew.. back to sleep.

You have some crazy dreams nba. lmao

gotta luv those dreams, i think it my brains way of telling me i am healing from the self inflicted injuries of the past.

[srans]

Had a stogie dream this morning, big phat blunt stub in my mouth and a good billow of smoke around my face and someone comes in and busts me with it. Wake up in a cold fucking sweat.

Oh the fucking joy of it all. it's only a dream, whew.. back to sleep.

You have some crazy dreams nba. lmao

[nebraskadad58]

Had a stogie dream this morning, big phat blunt stub in my mouth and a good billow of smoke around my face and someone comes in and busts me with it. Wake up in a cold fucking sweat.

Oh the fucking joy of it all. it's only a dream, whew.. back to sleep.

[Wade]

I've had several nic dreams in my 37 days of freedom and I have come to one conclusion: My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me.

This one is going on my wall.

I'm quit with you today nebraskadad, wastepanel, Lion Heart, and Mollies Master (whoever Mollie is...I'm intrigued...although it might be your dog)

[wastepanel]

24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stickÃ,  before i quit in 1989)..

Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains.Ã, Ã,  'bang head'

Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?

Hell I just had a nic dream last night about Timberwolf peach. Never in my past life would I have touched that stuff and in my dream I was ninja dipping it like it was going out of style.

I've had several nic dreams in my 37 days of freedom and I have come to one conclusion: My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me.

Stay strong. Everything is gonna be just fine.

This made me literally lol.

"My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me."

That's good stuff!

I never had one cave dream until I was 500 days quit. Then, one nearly knocked me on my ass.

Last week, I had 3 consecutive nights of them.

They suck, but they aren't real.

[LionHeartedGirl]

24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stickÃ,  before i quit in 1989)..

Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains.Ã,  'bang head'

Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?

Hell I just had a nic dream last night about Timberwolf peach. Never in my past life would I have touched that stuff and in my dream I was ninja dipping it like it was going out of style.

I've had several nic dreams in my 37 days of freedom and I have come to one conclusion: My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me.

Stay strong. Everything is gonna be just fine.

This made me literally lol.

"My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me."

That's good stuff!

[molliesmaster]

24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..

Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains. 'bang head'

Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?

Hell I just had a nic dream last night about Timberwolf peach. Never in my past life would I have touched that stuff and in my dream I was ninja dipping it like it was going out of style.

I've had several nic dreams in my 37 days of freedom and I have come to one conclusion: My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me.

Stay strong. Everything is gonna be just fine.

[nebraskadad58]

My better 1/2 has requested i give up the smokey mountain as well. guess i will respect that request since i lied my sorry ass off for the last 10 years about the nicotine crap. it's the least i can do to try and earn some respect back.

29 days and health anxiety causing me neck pains.

Went to chiropractor yesterday, fucking full of knots.
Went to GP today, he gave me a muscle relaxant and Zoloft for anxiety.
He wants me on Zoloft for 6 months to see if the anxiety abates.

I've been posting in roll, but been busy as hell and needed to vent the anxiety a bit again.

Fuck this nic bitch, i don't remember quitting booze, weed, cocaine or cigs being anything like this crap.

Embrace the SUCK.. I NEVER WANT THIS CRAP BACK!!

[cdmavs41]

I'm on day 298 and last week I had 3 dip dreams in one night.Ã,  I've had dreams with dip, cigs, and cigars in them.Ã,  So yes, dip dreams are very normal.Ã,  I like them in a strange way now, especially this far into my quit, because they vividly take me right back to day one and give me a glimpse of all the guilt that a cave would bring.

CD,

I know the dreaming is a pretty normal part of it all I quit boozing and drugging 27 yrs ago, and still have using dreams. One recently when Colorado legalized weed was so vivid, i woke up sweating and crying.


the waking anxiety bullshit is what has been kicking me in the nuts. I know prayer and time are the only fixes to these. but damn i want my serenity back.

The serenity will come, as I'm sure you've been told ad naseum already. I increased my caffeine intake a lot for the first 6 or 7 months of quitting, to substitute the stimulant. About six weeks ago, I took a month long break, and I have to say I started having dip dreams from the caffeine withdrawal. I hadn't had any cave dreams in a while before that. So it could be the conscious stress that is causing the dreams, not the other way around. Anyways, it gets a lot better. Hang in there dude!

[syndrome]

man its been a wile sinse i had a dip dream but they still happin at times. prolly the most remememberabul one was bout a month afore i got my comma. i rememember it cuz me and irenman07 were gonna be at a race and in my drieam i showed up with a full lipper. man i was pissed in my dream. i was pissed when i woke up. but you no what? i love the dip dreams makin me pissed cuz it makes my rezolve that much stronger. bitch. is. losin.

[jhaenel23]

I'm on day 298 and last week I had 3 dip dreams in one night.Ã,  I've had dreams with dip, cigs, and cigars in them.Ã,  So yes, dip dreams are very normal.Ã,  I like them in a strange way now, especially this far into my quit, because they vividly take me right back to day one and give me a glimpse of all the guilt that a cave would bring.

CD,

I know the dreaming is a pretty normal part of it all I quit boozing and drugging 27 yrs ago, and still have using dreams. One recently when Colorado legalized weed was so vivid, i woke up sweating and crying.


the waking anxiety bullshit is what has been kicking me in the nuts. I know prayer and time are the only fixes to these. but damn i want my serenity back.

I feel you bud! It is just the Nic Bitch taking shots at you when you are asleep. We poisoned ourselves for a long time. It is going to take time to unwrap all of that damage. Its normal and even though they suck, it is a sign of healing!! 221 days into my quit and i have them all of the time. The anxiety will lower the further you are removed from actually using. I do not even wake up from them much anymore. You are winning my man!!


Quit with you!!


J

[nebraskadad58]

I'm on day 298 and last week I had 3 dip dreams in one night. I've had dreams with dip, cigs, and cigars in them. So yes, dip dreams are very normal. I like them in a strange way now, especially this far into my quit, because they vividly take me right back to day one and give me a glimpse of all the guilt that a cave would bring.

CD,

I know the dreaming is a pretty normal part of it all I quit boozing and drugging 27 yrs ago, and still have using dreams. One recently when Colorado legalized weed was so vivid, i woke up sweating and crying.


the waking anxiety bullshit is what has been kicking me in the nuts. I know prayer and time are the only fixes to these. but damn i want my serenity back.

[cdmavs41]

I'm on day 298 and last week I had 3 dip dreams in one night. I've had dreams with dip, cigs, and cigars in them. So yes, dip dreams are very normal. I like them in a strange way now, especially this far into my quit, because they vividly take me right back to day one and give me a glimpse of all the guilt that a cave would bring.