cold turkey?

[traumagnet]

Day 30---1 month. 1 month ago i was sitting having supper with my 8 year old son at BW's and i remember looking at him and i almost started crying right there. You see my first time around here on KTC i told him all about my addiction. He had seen me dip his whole life and even caught me smoking a few times...but i don't think he ever understood what it was or what it was all about. Anyhow, i told about how it kills you and its very hard to quit but Dad was trying one day at a time. So fast forward to a month ago..we'd ordered our wings and i was having a beer when i looked at him...i was craving like a motherfucker and my only thought was how much i would have let him down if he knew that dad had caved. I was ashamed...anyhow...i was going through my phone and i still had Jake's number and Eddie's number. Eddie had sent me a text right around the time that Jake had caved and i never responded because well i was probably dipping when he sent me that text and i was very shameful. Anyhow, i decided to text Jake just to see how he was doing and he let me know his story...he had just hit the HOF for the second time. The one text i remember sending was, that i felt trapped...that was the best word to describe my addiction. I was told what i knew, that i would get my balls busted but i needed to come back...so i did. And 1 month later i know i'm quit for 30 days straight. I know i won't use nicotine today because i said i wouldn't. I'll worry about tomorrow when i get there but I am quit today and have been for 30 in a row! I feel better then i did the first time around, i have so much energy and no where really to direct it (selling cars doesn't burn a lot of calories). So i come on here...bitch at those that are jackasses and try to support those that want/need it. I know now, there is no finish line. There is just today. And today, is a good day because i am quit.

I think... now... you get it.

That's what makes the difference.

Rock on brutha...

yep it appears that you are getting that change in mindset that you need to help you win this fight against addiction. There is a turning point its different for everyone but when you hit it you know it. That's not to say that there wont be struggle instead of sharp edges they will be blunted. rock on JayD have a good weekend hope the ether/ruffie bunny doesn't catch you sleeping....hahaha

[AppleJack]

Day 30---1 month. 1 month ago i was sitting having supper with my 8 year old son at BW's and i remember looking at him and i almost started crying right there. You see my first time around here on KTC i told him all about my addiction. He had seen me dip his whole life and even caught me smoking a few times...but i don't think he ever understood what it was or what it was all about. Anyhow, i told about how it kills you and its very hard to quit but Dad was trying one day at a time. So fast forward to a month ago..we'd ordered our wings and i was having a beer when i looked at him...i was craving like a motherfucker and my only thought was how much i would have let him down if he knew that dad had caved. I was ashamed...anyhow...i was going through my phone and i still had Jake's number and Eddie's number. Eddie had sent me a text right around the time that Jake had caved and i never responded because well i was probably dipping when he sent me that text and i was very shameful. Anyhow, i decided to text Jake just to see how he was doing and he let me know his story...he had just hit the HOF for the second time. The one text i remember sending was, that i felt trapped...that was the best word to describe my addiction. I was told what i knew, that i would get my balls busted but i needed to come back...so i did. And 1 month later i know i'm quit for 30 days straight. I know i won't use nicotine today because i said i wouldn't. I'll worry about tomorrow when i get there but I am quit today and have been for 30 in a row! I feel better then i did the first time around, i have so much energy and no where really to direct it (selling cars doesn't burn a lot of calories). So i come on here...bitch at those that are jackasses and try to support those that want/need it. I know now, there is no finish line. There is just today. And today, is a good day because i am quit.

I think... now... you get it.

That's what makes the difference.

Rock on brutha...

[jayd41]

Day 30---1 month. 1 month ago i was sitting having supper with my 8 year old son at BW's and i remember looking at him and i almost started crying right there. You see my first time around here on KTC i told him all about my addiction. He had seen me dip his whole life and even caught me smoking a few times...but i don't think he ever understood what it was or what it was all about. Anyhow, i told about how it kills you and its very hard to quit but Dad was trying one day at a time. So fast forward to a month ago..we'd ordered our wings and i was having a beer when i looked at him...i was craving like a motherfucker and my only thought was how much i would have let him down if he knew that dad had caved. I was ashamed...anyhow...i was going through my phone and i still had Jake's number and Eddie's number. Eddie had sent me a text right around the time that Jake had caved and i never responded because well i was probably dipping when he sent me that text and i was very shameful. Anyhow, i decided to text Jake just to see how he was doing and he let me know his story...he had just hit the HOF for the second time. The one text i remember sending was, that i felt trapped...that was the best word to describe my addiction. I was told what i knew, that i would get my balls busted but i needed to come back...so i did. And 1 month later i know i'm quit for 30 days straight. I know i won't use nicotine today because i said i wouldn't. I'll worry about tomorrow when i get there but I am quit today and have been for 30 in a row! I feel better then i did the first time around, i have so much energy and no where really to direct it (selling cars doesn't burn a lot of calories). So i come on here...bitch at those that are jackasses and try to support those that want/need it. I know now, there is no finish line. There is just today. And today, is a good day because i am quit.

[Erussell]

So I'm normally pretty good about this stuff...birthdays, significant holidays what not...but I slipped today, and I'll blame the site being fucking weird today...but my quit today...my world today, is Boston Strong....1 year ago I watched safely from my little car dealership in horror at what was unfolding...felt sick. Nothing can compare to the pain and suffering that you all went through and as blasphemous as this might sound, is not even our quits can compare...the only thing we can do is hope to live up to you all that showed what true strength was/is. It makes my quit stronger and my pride as an American higher than ever...I might be in a tiny Midwestern town but I will echo what our American hero David Ortiz said..."THIS IS OUR FUCKING CITY!"...you Boston, will always be apart of this hillbilly from the Midwest....cheers

You sent me a text with your promise both days bro,,,, your good.

[jayd41]

So I'm normally pretty good about this stuff...birthdays, significant holidays what not...but I slipped today, and I'll blame the site being fucking weird today...but my quit today...my world today, is Boston Strong....1 year ago I watched safely from my little car dealership in horror at what was unfolding...felt sick. Nothing can compare to the pain and suffering that you all went through and as blasphemous as this might sound, is not even our quits can compare...the only thing we can do is hope to live up to you all that showed what true strength was/is. It makes my quit stronger and my pride as an American higher than ever...I might be in a tiny Midwestern town but I will echo what our American hero David Ortiz said..."THIS IS OUR FUCKING CITY!"...you Boston, will always be apart of this hillbilly from the Midwest....cheers

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

so i made it my goal to be 100% poster...i have texted in on days that i couldn't get to a computer and i can't tell you how much i appreciate the fellas that have posted for me...that being said..since the site was down on Sunday and Monday does my 100% get an * next to it? I know one thing..i posted today so i know i won't use any form of nicotine today. That is my promise. One day at a time

I personally think everyone should get credit for posting the past 2 days. Especially if you at least texted someone.

Make sure you stay 100% jayd.

[jayd41]

so i made it my goal to be 100% poster...i have texted in on days that i couldn't get to a computer and i can't tell you how much i appreciate the fellas that have posted for me...that being said..since the site was down on Sunday and Monday does my 100% get an * next to it? I know one thing..i posted today so i know i won't use any form of nicotine today. That is my promise. One day at a time

[jayd41]

What I wouldn't give to be able to go back and have just one of my children never see me with a dip in.

Don't fuck with this Jay. Seriously, dude.

Congratulations.

I hear ya LT...my daughter who's 6 used to always ask why i put "yucky" in my mouth...and my oldest son used to walk around spitting when he was like 2...pretty heartbreaking to think of that...but they won't ever see me do it again and hopefully the memory of dad doing it will fade...i don't know if it's good bad or whatever but my youngest has never seen dad chew and won't and this new one won't ever have to have a dad with nicotine in his system...thats fulfilling right there!

[LeonardThompson]

What I wouldn't give to be able to go back and have just one of my children never see me with a dip in.

Don't fuck with this Jay. Seriously, dude.

Congratulations.

[jayd41]

So completely proud to QLF with you every day man. Thanks for all the support and you know I'm in your corner.

bronc you are going to go down as a legend of quit...keep it up

[jayd41]

So here's the deal KTC family...there is about the be a new addition to my actual family! Thats right, i knocked up mrs. jayd41 again...That makes two for us and 4 for me all together.  We are 10 weeks in confirmed today and that would mean that puts the due date right around the first of November.  So why am i telling you all this...well partly to brag...i'm a proud papa.  And the other is to tell you that there are many excuses to dip...excuses and reasons are two different things....i had every excuse in the book and i normally rationalized those excuses to continue to abuse nicotine.  And although i am overly excited to be a dad again i can tell you that this would have been another excuse to continue using for another 26-30 weeks...all of the other parents on this site can attest that being a parent while being the most fulfilling thing you can do, can also be the most stressful thing to do...especially to prepare for! Spouses get hormonal and you are wrong if you say the sky is blue some days...nerves are frayed just a bit especially as the end of the pregnancy gets near...and last time around we got to throw in colic baby with asthma which was just super!  Anyhow...all of that is many excuses to cave and go back to dipping and/or smoking...but for today, that little peanut growing inside my wonderful wife...is my reason to stay quit...tomorrow i'll get back to quitting for me.  There is always an EXCUSE to use, there is never a REASON.  There is never an EXCUSE to quit...but only a REASON.  if that makes any sense.

That's awesome, man. Congrats!

Congratulations jayd!!!

Keep it in your pants....... Congrats bro. This child will never see you with a dip in. Good thought huh?

hahaha....i will NOT keep it in my pants...well at least with my wife...other places i will...and thanks! It will be fun going through it all completely nic free!

Congratulations jayd41!
Life is gooder without the poison...ODAAT and NAFAR

i really like the word gooder....i believe i'll be adding that to my vocab...

Congrats Dude, my youngest just turned 11. I miss those days.

hey thanks steelers! Yeah we're pretty excited about it...funny how fast time goes when there are little ones involved...i have an 8 year old and a 6 year and it is just amazing to me that they are that old.

Congrats to you and yours, Jay.

Love the positive vibe in your thread these days jayd! Lots of good comes from quitting.

thanks work! i am a lot happier these days...

[bronc]

So completely proud to QLF with you every day man. Thanks for all the support and you know I'm in your corner.

[worktowin]

So here's the deal KTC family...there is about the be a new addition to my actual family! Thats right, i knocked up mrs. jayd41 again...That makes two for us and 4 for me all together.  We are 10 weeks in confirmed today and that would mean that puts the due date right around the first of November.  So why am i telling you all this...well partly to brag...i'm a proud papa.  And the other is to tell you that there are many excuses to dip...excuses and reasons are two different things....i had every excuse in the book and i normally rationalized those excuses to continue to abuse nicotine.  And although i am overly excited to be a dad again i can tell you that this would have been another excuse to continue using for another 26-30 weeks...all of the other parents on this site can attest that being a parent while being the most fulfilling thing you can do, can also be the most stressful thing to do...especially to prepare for! Spouses get hormonal and you are wrong if you say the sky is blue some days...nerves are frayed just a bit especially as the end of the pregnancy gets near...and last time around we got to throw in colic baby with asthma which was just super!  Anyhow...all of that is many excuses to cave and go back to dipping and/or smoking...but for today, that little peanut growing inside my wonderful wife...is my reason to stay quit...tomorrow i'll get back to quitting for me.  There is always an EXCUSE to use, there is never a REASON.  There is never an EXCUSE to quit...but only a REASON.  if that makes any sense.

That's awesome, man. Congrats!

Congratulations jayd!!!

Keep it in your pants....... Congrats bro. This child will never see you with a dip in. Good thought huh?

hahaha....i will NOT keep it in my pants...well at least with my wife...other places i will...and thanks! It will be fun going through it all completely nic free!

Congratulations jayd41!
Life is gooder without the poison...ODAAT and NAFAR

i really like the word gooder....i believe i'll be adding that to my vocab...

Congrats Dude, my youngest just turned 11. I miss those days.

hey thanks steelers! Yeah we're pretty excited about it...funny how fast time goes when there are little ones involved...i have an 8 year old and a 6 year and it is just amazing to me that they are that old.

Congrats to you and yours, Jay.

Love the positive vibe in your thread these days jayd! Lots of good comes from quitting.

[slinger]

So here's the deal KTC family...there is about the be a new addition to my actual family! Thats right, i knocked up mrs. jayd41 again...That makes two for us and 4 for me all together.  We are 10 weeks in confirmed today and that would mean that puts the due date right around the first of November.  So why am i telling you all this...well partly to brag...i'm a proud papa.  And the other is to tell you that there are many excuses to dip...excuses and reasons are two different things....i had every excuse in the book and i normally rationalized those excuses to continue to abuse nicotine.  And although i am overly excited to be a dad again i can tell you that this would have been another excuse to continue using for another 26-30 weeks...all of the other parents on this site can attest that being a parent while being the most fulfilling thing you can do, can also be the most stressful thing to do...especially to prepare for! Spouses get hormonal and you are wrong if you say the sky is blue some days...nerves are frayed just a bit especially as the end of the pregnancy gets near...and last time around we got to throw in colic baby with asthma which was just super!  Anyhow...all of that is many excuses to cave and go back to dipping and/or smoking...but for today, that little peanut growing inside my wonderful wife...is my reason to stay quit...tomorrow i'll get back to quitting for me.  There is always an EXCUSE to use, there is never a REASON.  There is never an EXCUSE to quit...but only a REASON.  if that makes any sense.

That's awesome, man. Congrats!

Congratulations jayd!!!

Keep it in your pants....... Congrats bro. This child will never see you with a dip in. Good thought huh?

hahaha....i will NOT keep it in my pants...well at least with my wife...other places i will...and thanks! It will be fun going through it all completely nic free!

Congratulations jayd41!
Life is gooder without the poison...ODAAT and NAFAR

i really like the word gooder....i believe i'll be adding that to my vocab...

Congrats Dude, my youngest just turned 11. I miss those days.

hey thanks steelers! Yeah we're pretty excited about it...funny how fast time goes when there are little ones involved...i have an 8 year old and a 6 year and it is just amazing to me that they are that old.

Congrats to you and yours, Jay.

[jayd41]

So here's the deal KTC family...there is about the be a new addition to my actual family! Thats right, i knocked up mrs. jayd41 again...That makes two for us and 4 for me all together.  We are 10 weeks in confirmed today and that would mean that puts the due date right around the first of November.  So why am i telling you all this...well partly to brag...i'm a proud papa.  And the other is to tell you that there are many excuses to dip...excuses and reasons are two different things....i had every excuse in the book and i normally rationalized those excuses to continue to abuse nicotine.  And although i am overly excited to be a dad again i can tell you that this would have been another excuse to continue using for another 26-30 weeks...all of the other parents on this site can attest that being a parent while being the most fulfilling thing you can do, can also be the most stressful thing to do...especially to prepare for! Spouses get hormonal and you are wrong if you say the sky is blue some days...nerves are frayed just a bit especially as the end of the pregnancy gets near...and last time around we got to throw in colic baby with asthma which was just super!  Anyhow...all of that is many excuses to cave and go back to dipping and/or smoking...but for today, that little peanut growing inside my wonderful wife...is my reason to stay quit...tomorrow i'll get back to quitting for me.  There is always an EXCUSE to use, there is never a REASON.  There is never an EXCUSE to quit...but only a REASON.  if that makes any sense.

That's awesome, man. Congrats!

Congratulations jayd!!!

Keep it in your pants....... Congrats bro. This child will never see you with a dip in. Good thought huh?

hahaha....i will NOT keep it in my pants...well at least with my wife...other places i will...and thanks! It will be fun going through it all completely nic free!

Congratulations jayd41!
Life is gooder without the poison...ODAAT and NAFAR

i really like the word gooder....i believe i'll be adding that to my vocab...

Congrats Dude, my youngest just turned 11. I miss those days.

hey thanks steelers! Yeah we're pretty excited about it...funny how fast time goes when there are little ones involved...i have an 8 year old and a 6 year and it is just amazing to me that they are that old.