Withdrawal sux

[timetoquit92]

I'm so sorry for your loss man, you're in my prayers!

[SamCat!!!]

I am Sooo sorry to hear this 30!!! My Thoughts and Prayers are with you  your Family. I am Very Proud to Quit with you each day!!! Stay Strong my Friend!!!

[Greg5280]

Thanks again for the overwhelming support. I am deeply moved by it.

My sister-in-law (the wife of one of my other brothers) has been my brother's caregiver for the duration of the illness, which became a full time job for the last 3 months of his life. She wanted to do it, she is one very special lady. I owe her a huge debt of gratitude. She spent her time over the last 3 months granting his every wish, making him as comfortable as possible, cleaning, feeding, taking care of all of his medical needs, running out for ice cream to make milkshakes that she knew he would only take 1 sip of, She is truly physically and mentally exhausted at this point. Yesterday she told me this:

One night Keith decided that he wanted to sit up and watch movies downstairs like he used to. So she virtually carried him downstairs (at this point he didn't weigh much) and sat him up on the couch. The next morning she came back and he was asleep, Tv on, cigarette in the ashtray. Even in the midst of the terrible illness, big tobacco still had him hooked for "one more". That is why there is no "one more" for me- or for you.

There is nothing that will make me go back to active addiction. Is it "hard" to quit and stay that way? Yes, bit it is a whole lot easier than the journey my brother was forced to go on for the last year and a half of his life.

Stay Quit

30

Powerful !!

Proud to be quit with you !!

[Capt Kylos]

You and your family are in my prayers 30......

[30yraddict]

Thanks again for the overwhelming support. I am deeply moved by it.

My sister-in-law (the wife of one of my other brothers) has been my brother's caregiver for the duration of the illness, which became a full time job for the last 3 months of his life. She wanted to do it, she is one very special lady. I owe her a huge debt of gratitude. She spent her time over the last 3 months granting his every wish, making him as comfortable as possible, cleaning, feeding, taking care of all of his medical needs, running out for ice cream to make milkshakes that she knew he would only take 1 sip of, She is truly physically and mentally exhausted at this point. Yesterday she told me this:

One night Keith decided that he wanted to sit up and watch movies downstairs like he used to. So she virtually carried him downstairs (at this point he didn't weigh much) and sat him up on the couch. The next morning she came back and he was asleep, Tv on, cigarette in the ashtray. Even in the midst of the terrible illness, big tobacco still had him hooked for "one more". That is why there is no "one more" for me- or for you.

There is nothing that will make me go back to active addiction. Is it "hard" to quit and stay that way? Yes, bit it is a whole lot easier than the journey my brother was forced to go on for the last year and a half of his life.

Stay Quit

30

[Cornholio]

Dale-
A prayer for you and your dad it is. I also pray that our children don't get involved in nicotine or any drug for that matter. It's our responsibility to talk honestly to our kids, again, and again, and again. Pray for them, with them.

You're a quit monster. The biggest balls I know. How many others would cave in times like this? You are right to channel the anger to the tabacco fucks and the nic bitch.

Stay strong brother.

[DW3]

Godspeed to you and your family 30.

[csucomms1]

Dale,
I am very sorry to hear about your family's loss. I know that there are no words that can be used that will ease your grief or quell your anger. My family will keep you and your father in our prayers. Stay strong with your quit and know that we all quit with you each and every day. Stay strong.

[Mr Nice Guy]

30 (or Dale it appears your real name is,)

Firtst and foremost you are a freaking stud of quit. I know this because there is no place on this expansive site i have posted or chatted where you have not stepped foot. If Steve Miller is the gangster of love, you are the gangster of quit and I mean that.

I am so sorry for your loss. I know you will be ok because already you are telling people to not worry about you, but pray for your father. Thats some hoss shit right there.

But don't be all badass and hero-like. You reach out to everyone, so maybe it is hard for you to reach out. Dont be scared if you need. A real man is one who can reach out, and not think he loses his manhood.


You know what you need to do but let us know if we can help make that happen,.

-Quit with u today, Nice guy-52

[ToeTag]

Day 75

I just found out today that my 50 year old brother's throat cancer has come back with a vengeance.  He now has a trach. He has a tumor growing on his cardioid artery, which the doctors don't have any way to treat.  A max of 5 years is what they give him. 5 years lived more like a sentence than a life....Indeed a sad day for me.  He was a smoker for the last 36 years or so.  He was still smoking in Feb when I saw him, despite going through chemo and radiation.  Reminded me of watching my mother smoking and then strapping the oxygen to her nose.  The oxygen that she needed because of emphysema.  As loot said the other day Addiction is a motherfucker.  And while we are all responsible for ourselves, and nobody forces us to use nicotine, the fact is there is a pusher out there.  That pusher doesn't give a damn about the lives, the misery, the destroyed families. Doesn't care about widows, or orphans.  Doesn't care about cancer. Doesn't care about someone who will never be able to talk again. Doesn't care that I lost my mother when she was 54.  A slow death by asphyxiation.  Or that I will probably loose my brother by the time he is 54.  Doesn't care that he will have surgery after surgery.  Doesn't care that my father has to watch his son in so much misery just like he watched his wife of 35 years. It's enough to break even the strongest of men - and it has.

That pusher only cares to keep you addicted. So the pusher can make money. I am ANGRY.  I HATE THE PUSHER, There is no justice.  There is no revenge to be had except this:  The only thing I can do to get even is to stay quit. And help you do the same.

I'll be back here tomorrow.  And my mission has more resolve than it ever has.  God help big tobacco.

I just got the sad news that Hospice has been called in for my brother. It is going to be a sad Christmas...not much to say except I am filled with sorrow. He is now 51 and it is unlikely that he will see 52.

My brother makes the third person in my family that has been murdered by big tobacco

Grandfather- emphysema

Mother - emphysema

Brother- Throat Cancer

Stay Quit.

Rest in Peace Keith

1960-2011

He is in a better place. Stay quit friend. Heart felt thoughts.

Nic,

You truly are evil.

Prayers for grace for your bro and peace for you and your family.

Tragedy. Prayers for everyone this has affected.

Hang in their 30. The least we can do for your brother now is to spread the word about how bad this stuff is and keep saving lives on this site.

Quit with you today.

I'm so very sorry...I have no words.

Stay strong, 30, and we quit with you.

30, I honor your brother and you by quitting with you! My sincerest condolences to you and your family. My April brothers and I stand with you!

Wow, Dale. I'm so sorry for your loss. Stay strong and stay quit...

So sorry about this news.

A heartfelt thanks to all of you. I am truly touched by the outpouring of support. I would ask those you that are inclined toward prayer to add my father to your prayer lists. It is one of the hardest things for a father to be predeceased by his son. Thank you and God Bless You.

Dale

Dale I'm so sorry man. This is not in vain - so many of us will quit today in honor of you and your family. You are a good man and everyone is here for you during the tough time. Stay close 3

[30yraddict]

Day 75

I just found out today that my 50 year old brother's throat cancer has come back with a vengeance.  He now has a trach. He has a tumor growing on his cardioid artery, which the doctors don't have any way to treat.  A max of 5 years is what they give him. 5 years lived more like a sentence than a life....Indeed a sad day for me.  He was a smoker for the last 36 years or so.  He was still smoking in Feb when I saw him, despite going through chemo and radiation.  Reminded me of watching my mother smoking and then strapping the oxygen to her nose.  The oxygen that she needed because of emphysema.  As loot said the other day Addiction is a motherfucker.  And while we are all responsible for ourselves, and nobody forces us to use nicotine, the fact is there is a pusher out there.  That pusher doesn't give a damn about the lives, the misery, the destroyed families. Doesn't care about widows, or orphans.  Doesn't care about cancer. Doesn't care about someone who will never be able to talk again. Doesn't care that I lost my mother when she was 54.  A slow death by asphyxiation.  Or that I will probably loose my brother by the time he is 54.  Doesn't care that he will have surgery after surgery.  Doesn't care that my father has to watch his son in so much misery just like he watched his wife of 35 years. It's enough to break even the strongest of men - and it has.

That pusher only cares to keep you addicted. So the pusher can make money. I am ANGRY.  I HATE THE PUSHER, There is no justice.  There is no revenge to be had except this:  The only thing I can do to get even is to stay quit. And help you do the same.

I'll be back here tomorrow.  And my mission has more resolve than it ever has.  God help big tobacco.

I just got the sad news that Hospice has been called in for my brother. It is going to be a sad Christmas...not much to say except I am filled with sorrow. He is now 51 and it is unlikely that he will see 52.

My brother makes the third person in my family that has been murdered by big tobacco

Grandfather- emphysema

Mother - emphysema

Brother- Throat Cancer

Stay Quit.

Rest in Peace Keith

1960-2011

He is in a better place. Stay quit friend. Heart felt thoughts.

Nic,

You truly are evil.

Prayers for grace for your bro and peace for you and your family.

Tragedy. Prayers for everyone this has affected.

Hang in their 30. The least we can do for your brother now is to spread the word about how bad this stuff is and keep saving lives on this site.

Quit with you today.

I'm so very sorry...I have no words.

Stay strong, 30, and we quit with you.

30, I honor your brother and you by quitting with you! My sincerest condolences to you and your family. My April brothers and I stand with you!

Wow, Dale. I'm so sorry for your loss. Stay strong and stay quit...

So sorry about this news.

A heartfelt thanks to all of you. I am truly touched by the outpouring of support. I would ask those you that are inclined toward prayer to add my father to your prayer lists. It is one of the hardest things for a father to be predeceased by his son. Thank you and God Bless You.

Dale

[brotherofnomosko]

Day 75

I just found out today that my 50 year old brother's throat cancer has come back with a vengeance.  He now has a trach. He has a tumor growing on his cardioid artery, which the doctors don't have any way to treat.  A max of 5 years is what they give him. 5 years lived more like a sentence than a life....Indeed a sad day for me.  He was a smoker for the last 36 years or so.  He was still smoking in Feb when I saw him, despite going through chemo and radiation.  Reminded me of watching my mother smoking and then strapping the oxygen to her nose.  The oxygen that she needed because of emphysema.  As loot said the other day Addiction is a motherfucker.  And while we are all responsible for ourselves, and nobody forces us to use nicotine, the fact is there is a pusher out there.  That pusher doesn't give a damn about the lives, the misery, the destroyed families. Doesn't care about widows, or orphans.  Doesn't care about cancer. Doesn't care about someone who will never be able to talk again. Doesn't care that I lost my mother when she was 54.  A slow death by asphyxiation.  Or that I will probably loose my brother by the time he is 54.  Doesn't care that he will have surgery after surgery.  Doesn't care that my father has to watch his son in so much misery just like he watched his wife of 35 years. It's enough to break even the strongest of men - and it has.

That pusher only cares to keep you addicted. So the pusher can make money. I am ANGRY.  I HATE THE PUSHER, There is no justice.  There is no revenge to be had except this:  The only thing I can do to get even is to stay quit. And help you do the same.

I'll be back here tomorrow.  And my mission has more resolve than it ever has.  God help big tobacco.

Gold Bless 30. Prayers to you and yours.

X2

X3, i'm in on this crusade.

Prayers

I can't even put together words. My thoughts are with you.

[brotherofnomosko]

Day 75

I just found out today that my 50 year old brother's throat cancer has come back with a vengeance.  He now has a trach. He has a tumor growing on his cardioid artery, which the doctors don't have any way to treat.  A max of 5 years is what they give him. 5 years lived more like a sentence than a life....Indeed a sad day for me.  He was a smoker for the last 36 years or so.  He was still smoking in Feb when I saw him, despite going through chemo and radiation.  Reminded me of watching my mother smoking and then strapping the oxygen to her nose.  The oxygen that she needed because of emphysema.  As loot said the other day Addiction is a motherfucker.  And while we are all responsible for ourselves, and nobody forces us to use nicotine, the fact is there is a pusher out there.  That pusher doesn't give a damn about the lives, the misery, the destroyed families. Doesn't care about widows, or orphans.  Doesn't care about cancer. Doesn't care about someone who will never be able to talk again. Doesn't care that I lost my mother when she was 54.  A slow death by asphyxiation.  Or that I will probably loose my brother by the time he is 54.  Doesn't care that he will have surgery after surgery.  Doesn't care that my father has to watch his son in so much misery just like he watched his wife of 35 years. It's enough to break even the strongest of men - and it has.

That pusher only cares to keep you addicted. So the pusher can make money. I am ANGRY.  I HATE THE PUSHER, There is no justice.  There is no revenge to be had except this:  The only thing I can do to get even is to stay quit. And help you do the same.

I'll be back here tomorrow.  And my mission has more resolve than it ever has.  God help big tobacco.

I just got the sad news that Hospice has been called in for my brother. It is going to be a sad Christmas...not much to say except I am filled with sorrow. He is now 51 and it is unlikely that he will see 52.

My brother makes the third person in my family that has been murdered by big tobacco

Grandfather- emphysema

Mother - emphysema

Brother- Throat Cancer

Stay Quit.

Rest in Peace Keith

1960-2011

He is in a better place. Stay quit friend. Heart felt thoughts.

Nic,

You truly are evil.

Prayers for grace for your bro and peace for you and your family.

Tragedy. Prayers for everyone this has affected.

Hang in their 30. The least we can do for your brother now is to spread the word about how bad this stuff is and keep saving lives on this site.

Quit with you today.

I'm so very sorry...I have no words.

Stay strong, 30, and we quit with you.

30, I honor your brother and you by quitting with you! My sincerest condolences to you and your family. My April brothers and I stand with you!

Wow, Dale. I'm so sorry for your loss. Stay strong and stay quit...

So sorry about this news.

[dchogs]

Day 75

I just found out today that my 50 year old brother's throat cancer has come back with a vengeance.  He now has a trach. He has a tumor growing on his cardioid artery, which the doctors don't have any way to treat.  A max of 5 years is what they give him. 5 years lived more like a sentence than a life....Indeed a sad day for me.  He was a smoker for the last 36 years or so.  He was still smoking in Feb when I saw him, despite going through chemo and radiation.  Reminded me of watching my mother smoking and then strapping the oxygen to her nose.  The oxygen that she needed because of emphysema.  As loot said the other day Addiction is a motherfucker.  And while we are all responsible for ourselves, and nobody forces us to use nicotine, the fact is there is a pusher out there.  That pusher doesn't give a damn about the lives, the misery, the destroyed families. Doesn't care about widows, or orphans.  Doesn't care about cancer. Doesn't care about someone who will never be able to talk again. Doesn't care that I lost my mother when she was 54.  A slow death by asphyxiation.  Or that I will probably loose my brother by the time he is 54.  Doesn't care that he will have surgery after surgery.  Doesn't care that my father has to watch his son in so much misery just like he watched his wife of 35 years. It's enough to break even the strongest of men - and it has.

That pusher only cares to keep you addicted. So the pusher can make money. I am ANGRY.  I HATE THE PUSHER, There is no justice.  There is no revenge to be had except this:  The only thing I can do to get even is to stay quit. And help you do the same.

I'll be back here tomorrow.  And my mission has more resolve than it ever has.  God help big tobacco.

I just got the sad news that Hospice has been called in for my brother. It is going to be a sad Christmas...not much to say except I am filled with sorrow. He is now 51 and it is unlikely that he will see 52.

My brother makes the third person in my family that has been murdered by big tobacco

Grandfather- emphysema

Mother - emphysema

Brother- Throat Cancer

Stay Quit.

Rest in Peace Keith

1960-2011

He is in a better place. Stay quit friend. Heart felt thoughts.

Nic,

You truly are evil.

Prayers for grace for your bro and peace for you and your family.

Tragedy. Prayers for everyone this has affected.

Hang in their 30. The least we can do for your brother now is to spread the word about how bad this stuff is and keep saving lives on this site.

Quit with you today.

I'm so very sorry...I have no words.

Stay strong, 30, and we quit with you.

30, I honor your brother and you by quitting with you! My sincerest condolences to you and your family. My April brothers and I stand with you!

Wow, Dale. I'm so sorry for your loss. Stay strong and stay quit...

[kd5fic]

Day 75

I just found out today that my 50 year old brother's throat cancer has come back with a vengeance.  He now has a trach. He has a tumor growing on his cardioid artery, which the doctors don't have any way to treat.  A max of 5 years is what they give him. 5 years lived more like a sentence than a life....Indeed a sad day for me.  He was a smoker for the last 36 years or so.  He was still smoking in Feb when I saw him, despite going through chemo and radiation.  Reminded me of watching my mother smoking and then strapping the oxygen to her nose.  The oxygen that she needed because of emphysema.  As loot said the other day Addiction is a motherfucker.  And while we are all responsible for ourselves, and nobody forces us to use nicotine, the fact is there is a pusher out there.  That pusher doesn't give a damn about the lives, the misery, the destroyed families. Doesn't care about widows, or orphans.  Doesn't care about cancer. Doesn't care about someone who will never be able to talk again. Doesn't care that I lost my mother when she was 54.  A slow death by asphyxiation.  Or that I will probably loose my brother by the time he is 54.  Doesn't care that he will have surgery after surgery.  Doesn't care that my father has to watch his son in so much misery just like he watched his wife of 35 years. It's enough to break even the strongest of men - and it has.

That pusher only cares to keep you addicted. So the pusher can make money. I am ANGRY.  I HATE THE PUSHER, There is no justice.  There is no revenge to be had except this:  The only thing I can do to get even is to stay quit. And help you do the same.

I'll be back here tomorrow.  And my mission has more resolve than it ever has.  God help big tobacco.

I just got the sad news that Hospice has been called in for my brother. It is going to be a sad Christmas...not much to say except I am filled with sorrow. He is now 51 and it is unlikely that he will see 52.

My brother makes the third person in my family that has been murdered by big tobacco

Grandfather- emphysema

Mother - emphysema

Brother- Throat Cancer

Stay Quit.

Rest in Peace Keith

1960-2011

He is in a better place. Stay quit friend. Heart felt thoughts.

Nic,

You truly are evil.

Prayers for grace for your bro and peace for you and your family.

Tragedy. Prayers for everyone this has affected.

Hang in their 30. The least we can do for your brother now is to spread the word about how bad this stuff is and keep saving lives on this site.

Quit with you today.

I'm so very sorry...I have no words.

Stay strong, 30, and we quit with you.

30, I honor your brother and you by quitting with you! My sincerest condolences to you and your family. My April brothers and I stand with you!