I am so scared

[Frazzled]

Wow. Thanks everyone. Those are some intense replies. I know it's not the way people recommend here, but I am planning my quit for this coming Tuesday. Excuses, excuses, I know. But I want to get through all this Halloween stuff with the kids NOT being an angry, irritable witch. On Tuesday all my children will be in school and I can deal with the first awful day alone. I told my husband my plan and he is planning to quit too, wants to be quit a couple days ahead of me so at least one of us is a bit more out of the woods before the other starts. Oh boy. Oh boy, oh boy. Not looking forward to it, but I am too.

Tuesday?

Tuesday never comes.

Quit now. There is so much power in NOW! Take your life NOW! Fuck Halloween! You dipping is not going to make Hallow-fucking-ween ANY fucking easier!

What a bunch of shit!

Your husband wants to Quit with you? Is he signed up here? Sounds like he's ready to go, and you're dragging your addicted heels for no real fucking reason.

You Quit NOW, you will be on Day 6 on Tuesday! The Nic will be out of your system completely by Tuesday, but you gotta flush your shit NOW!

...not that I have an opinion on it or anything...

Nolaq speaks the truth, and I was doing the same thing as you 1762 days ago - I wanted to keep with nicotine lozenges instead of pouches, but I had a plan to keep doing that for a few days and then quitting.

The reality is you are still feeding your addiction, and if you don't take control of it RIGHT NOW, you may never get around to it.

You have the tools you need.
You have support pouring in for you here.
You CAN DO THIS.
The time is now.

No matter how hard it gets, you will have people rallying around you on this site. We've seen this done countless times, and we have helped countless people. Let us help you as well.

Let's roll...

[Nolaq]

Wow. Thanks everyone. Those are some intense replies. I know it's not the way people recommend here, but I am planning my quit for this coming Tuesday. Excuses, excuses, I know. But I want to get through all this Halloween stuff with the kids NOT being an angry, irritable witch. On Tuesday all my children will be in school and I can deal with the first awful day alone. I told my husband my plan and he is planning to quit too, wants to be quit a couple days ahead of me so at least one of us is a bit more out of the woods before the other starts. Oh boy. Oh boy, oh boy. Not looking forward to it, but I am too.

Tuesday?

Tuesday never comes.

Quit now. There is so much power in NOW! Take your life NOW! Fuck Halloween! You dipping is not going to make Hallow-fucking-ween ANY fucking easier!

What a bunch of shit!

Your husband wants to Quit with you? Is he signed up here? Sounds like he's ready to go, and you're dragging your addicted heels for no real fucking reason.

You Quit NOW, you will be on Day 6 on Tuesday! The Nic will be out of your system completely by Tuesday, but you gotta flush your shit NOW!

...not that I have an opinion on it or anything...

[agirlsickofgrizz]

Wow. Thanks everyone. Those are some intense replies. I know it's not the way people recommend here, but I am planning my quit for this coming Tuesday. Excuses, excuses, I know. But I want to get through all this Halloween stuff with the kids NOT being an angry, irritable witch. On Tuesday all my children will be in school and I can deal with the first awful day alone. I told my husband my plan and he is planning to quit too, wants to be quit a couple days ahead of me so at least one of us is a bit more out of the woods before the other starts. Oh boy. Oh boy, oh boy. Not looking forward to it, but I am too.

[Macamania]

Your introduction describes every last one of us. But let's get to it.

Rage and the family: immediately come here and rant, call us assholes, whatever, it's temporary

Crazy irritability and anxiety: EXERCISE!!!! It can be done, just commit to some routine

Weight gain/control: Don't replace dip with food. Use gum, seeds, fake dip, whatever you need to get past the irritability and wanting to eat.

Your life will be different. Bathroom habits change, sleeping changes (for me several times). Recognize these changes and adapt.

bottom line is right now the nicotine has control of you and your life. If you want to regain control follow the above instructions. Anyone here will tell you the same thing.

PS, my Aunt had mouth cancer from cigarettes, that shit is real, you should worry about it as long as you dip/smoke.

[leeron]

Exercise and drinking lots of water will help with weight gain and the nic rage. I quit today, that's it, nothing more. Just decide and DO. We will help once you jump in. Post roll!!!

Read my signature line below my post - PLEASE.

[ChickDip]

Check you PM again. Keep up the convo. Check out the links and get started on your quit. You can do it!

[KingNothing]

Commit to this and start posting roll. It will change your life, and from personal experience, I can tell you it will change your relationship with your kids. You do not want to be lying in a hospital bed three or four years from now with tears in your eyes saying goodbye to those kids for the last time. You want to see them grow up into responsible men and/or women. You probably want to see them go to college, get jobs, get married, have their own kids. If you continue down the dark path that we all once trod, you a flirting with the very real possibility you will not be there for them.

You may or may not know this, but cancer is not the #1 killer of women. Heart disease is. Did you know that dip raises your blood pressure and greatly increases your chance of heart disease?

Put the big girl pants on today and do this for YOU. Do this so you can prove to yourself you a stronger than a can of poison. When you start to believe in yourself and rid yourself of this addiction, your family will reap the benefits.

Quit today. It's not always going to be easy, but it will be worth it, I promise you that.

[ChickDip]

http://www.killthecan.org/heres-how-you ... court-now/

good spot to start if you haven't flushed it down the toilet yet!

[BG]

Buckle down and do it. There's lots of good information in the above posts. It sucks. Sucks real bad those first few days. Then, it'll get better. Annnnd, it might suck again. But, it DOES get better. Freedom is waiting! Nice job on that first roll post. Don't worry about tomorrow or even 1 hour from now. One second, one hour, one day at a time, if that's what it takes.

[copingwithoutcopen]

... fear is an emotional response induced by a perceived threat, which causes a change in brain and organ function, as well as in behavior. Fear can lead us to hide, to run away, or to freeze in our shoes. Fear may arise from a confrontation or from avoiding a threat, or it may come in the form of a discovery.

At some point, the fear of a shortened life span, motherless children and financial hardship need to outweigh your fear of being without the can. When that happens, we can help. We can help because we've all been there. I think I described it as feeling like I was on the edge of a cliff, blind folded with voices from below telling me to jump.

Now, I'm one of those voices. When you turn that corner, you'll jump in and post roll. You wont let anything get in the way of making your promise and you wont go back on your word. The first few days are tough but clearly not impossible.

Time to jump 'jj'

[AppleJack]

I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.

How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.

But gosh darn it I am petrified.

Wow.

I think I actually wrote that a few years ago. Not even kidding. This addiction becomes so intertwined with life that you associate all the good with it. Man, that's just evil and wrong. We get the scary... truly. Sis, I chewed for 25 years and knocked out 2 cans a day. Towards the end, because of a job loss, it was literally taking food off my family table so I could feed my beast. We get selfish. We get anxiety. We get all that crap that got screwed around because of nicotine.

Here's the thing... you CAN do this. We are proof. Get involved here and stay involved. You need to heal and you need to rewire. It's gonna take some time. No way around it. In order to accomplish this... you need to concentrate on it, and it alone. Don't worry about the weight... you CAN lose it again. Don't worry about your moods... bring it to us because we can handle it. Anxiety?... well, that's an individual journey with many different answers. I dealt with it big time too. I don't know if this helps but, there's something about winning daily against your addiction that can ease the anxiety. The realization that in quitting... you're being a total badass and you CAN handle anything. Granted... that's just a small slice of advice. There are threads on this site dealing specifically with anxiety and depression. There are some awesome guys with awesome insight to take advantage of. It's all yours for the using IF... you get, and stay, involved. Its the price of admission here... it's the price for real freedom... it's VERY worth it.

[syndrome]

I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.

How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.

But gosh darn it I am petrified.

Look here, we were all scared! That's the addict in you at work! Go to Feb 16 group post roll and let us help you. We're all addicts just like you and I promise you, we can do this together with the rest of my brothers and sister's on here. First step post roll and the support will come pouring in. I quit with you today! Pm me for my number if you want to. Much more advice to follow but we want you on roll , that's the most important key to success here!

Hi, glad you are here and reaching out. That will be key to you staying quit. The fight will be real. You will give up things to stay alive and not get cancer.
The weight gain that you may or may not experience is secondary. Id rather gain weight than lose my health or life, which you can lose both.
The rage should be shown on this site or in texts to supporters, not your family.
That's why you need to be here.
Go into the Live Chat for instant help and support. Also do what pab said and post roll in your quit group. Its your promise not to use nic in any form.
I'm with you. -Chick

first, head on over to the wellcome center here and under stand roll call.
seckind, head over to the feb 16 groop you will find in quit groops on the bottom haff here

now lets see if we can add some other help.

wait gain - you will see we reckamend drinkin lots a water here any ways. that helps when your loosin wait to.
tricks - the oral fixashun is a big thing. folks use seeds or fake dips or gum or my faverite - atomick fire balls. quittin any a those is eezy. fitin thru the fog and suck is the battel you need to fite. and we are here to help. also stay out a places ware you buy dip for the next week.
all that other stuff - thats why you wnat to quit. use it to power your quit. speshully these next few days.

swap digits with quiterers. most are happy to share. use chat. use this page. use your quit groop page. rage here. we can take it. hell we love it.

[KennyZ]

You've made the best decision by coming to KTC. There is a ton of help available to you and you only have to make a promise not to use nicotine for 24 hours at a time. The freedom you'll gain is worth the short term pain. You deserve to be quit. If you need anything, just reach out.

[ChickDip]

I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.

How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.

But gosh darn it I am petrified.

Look here, we were all scared! That's the addict in you at work! Go to Feb 16 group post roll and let us help you. We're all addicts just like you and I promise you, we can do this together with the rest of my brothers and sister's on here. First step post roll and the support will come pouring in. I quit with you today! Pm me for my number if you want to. Much more advice to follow but we want you on roll , that's the most important key to success here!

Hi, glad you are here and reaching out. That will be key to you staying quit. The fight will be real. You will give up things to stay alive and not get cancer.
The weight gain that you may or may not experience is secondary. Id rather gain weight than lose my health or life, which you can lose both.
The rage should be shown on this site or in texts to supporters, not your family.
That's why you need to be here.
Go into the Live Chat for instant help and support. Also do what pab said and post roll in your quit group. Its your promise not to use nic in any form.
I'm with you. -Chick

[pab1964]

I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.

How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.

But gosh darn it I am petrified.

Look here, we were all scared! That's the addict in you at work! Go to Feb 16 group post roll and let us help you. We're all addicts just like you and I promise you, we can do this together with the rest of my brothers and sister's on here. First step post roll and the support will come pouring in. I quit with you today! Pm me for my number if you want to. Much more advice to follow but we want you on roll , that's the most important key to success here!