I am so scared

[77Midget]

I'll be looking for you on roll today.

[invader]

AHH! You did it!

'welcome'

Don't worry, as awful and crappy as you might feel now, there are a few things you should know:

1.) The anger and restlessness WILL go away. It's temporary. Keep fighting!
2.) Just take it one day at a time. If that's too much, take it one hour at a time. If that's too much, take it one minute at a time. You can do it!
3.) You are going to be so happy you did this. It may not seem like it now...but you'll see.

[veezer]

The first week is the hardest part....get past it and you are well on your way.

A few things to think about and/or do. Exercise as much as you can and drink alot of water. This will help you burn off alot of stress and get your mind on something else. It will also help you keep you from gaining weight. I worked out every day for an hour when I quit and it really helped.

Try to find something to tame the oral fixation monster. Everyone finds something different. Some use toothpicks, fireballs, mint candy, fake snuff. I found that beef jerky bites worked great for me. They are little chunks of compressed jerky that are about the size of a big dip. You can keep them in your cheek for quite a while and curb the urge.

As for the anger, you just have to try to keep calm and walk away. Exercise will help this too. Remember, if you dont quit there is a good chance you wont be around to bitch out anyone cause your face might fall off.

Make an appointment with your dentist that is about 30 days out. At that point you will want to have someone do a complete check of your mouth and it will relieve alot of anxiety that you will probably have. We all get torn up worrying and getting this done helps out more than you can know at this point. It also gives you a short goal to reach. As stated above you will have days where you are in the "fog" and days of anxiety and depression for no reason at all. It will come and go and is just your brain resetting itself.

Prepare for all kinds of weird things to happen to your mouth. Some get sores, sore throats, bleeding gums, etc. I was lucky and only got a few sores, but did have tongue issues. After about 1 week, my tongue felt like I burned it on hot coffee making it tingle and feel numb at times. I am on day 138 right now and it still comes and goes. It just goes to show you that it takes a long time for your body to get used to not being bathed in poison every day.

When you get the urge, turn it into something else.... Go for a run, drink a glass of water, eat some candy, turn on the radio and sing to yourself.....anything to get past the urge. After a week or so you will find yourself actually forgetting about getting that after dinner dip. It's hard to believe, but it will happen. I have days that I dont think about it at all and I dipped for 25 years.

QUIT ON and be strong!! AND POST EVERY DAY!!!!!

[Pinched]

Just took a killer bike ride and I feel the best I've felt all day. Though strangely enough I had two very strong cravings while riding, I think it's because my mind associates a "reward" after I get back to the house. Worried about sleeping tonight, but have some sleeping stuff in case. Can't wait for tonight at 9pm! 24 hours!

that right there is a huge victory!
I still get the flash in the head when I find something lost or do something that should get a reward... (oh, i'll get a dip)
But now, i will never, but that is still popping up in my mind. I welcome it though, cuz i am addicted to that crap and i want a reminder so i don't become complacent and slide away.

Keep it up girl.. second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day.

"What one man can do, another can do." (or chick)

Awesome work so far. Yes your brain will keep fucking with you looking for a "reward". Keep set in your head that the reward is life or the extra $ in your bank account. Physical activity helps tremendously as you have learned, do nto be afraid to drop into pushups or jumping jacks when a craving comes on. Anger may always be a side affect, I still have a hair trigger temper at certain times; deal with it or just keep yourself out of those circumstances; and remember that the best way to not let little things bother you is to say FUCK IT. You may soon start to feel sluggish or "foggy" that shit really sucks because you will feel braindead or just mentally numb. This is like an out of body experience.

On a side note cinnamon candies worked really well for me as a replacement. Taking the weight off later is easy so focus on the quit first, then build on that positive outcome. OK so the weight loss may not be EASY, but really one issue at a time. Having the bike to ride will help with that as well (duh).

This quitting stuff is not easy, but it is totally worth it. Choose life!

[ChickDip]

Just took a killer bike ride and I feel the best I've felt all day. Though strangely enough I had two very strong cravings while riding, I think it's because my mind associates a "reward" after I get back to the house. Worried about sleeping tonight, but have some sleeping stuff in case. Can't wait for tonight at 9pm! 24 hours!

that right there is a huge victory!
I still get the flash in the head when I find something lost or do something that should get a reward... (oh, i'll get a dip)
But now, i will never, but that is still popping up in my mind. I welcome it though, cuz i am addicted to that crap and i want a reminder so i don't become complacent and slide away.

Keep it up girl.. second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day.

"What one man can do, another can do." (or chick)

[agirlsickofgrizz]

Just took a killer bike ride and I feel the best I've felt all day. Though strangely enough I had two very strong cravings while riding, I think it's because my mind associates a "reward" after I get back to the house. Worried about sleeping tonight, but have some sleeping stuff in case. Can't wait for tonight at 9pm! 24 hours!

[pab1964]

Hey girl welcome to a little bit of hell! Hang in there , put them big girl panties on and smile at your kid every chance you can! Remember how you are feeling right now, you never want to go through this shit again, so everytime you get a crave you can say 'Finger' off nic! Thanks for proving me wrong. You came back, now get some numbers, use this site every second you can and if you have to chew on the coffee table to help curb the craves then by God do it! Damn proud of you! Quit on!

[ChickDip]

Oh yeah baby, sugar. Sugar is making me feel better. I religiously count calories, but not this day. Giving myself a day off. Just had 3 graham crackers with some homemade icing and my anger is considerably numbed.

Yes, exercise is amazing, I use it for endorphin's regularly, I am getting on my treadclimber soon.

Glad you made the decision to quit today! and it's going to be rough. That rage is uncontrollable and every LITTLE thing pisses you off.
TAke it to that pillow or go in the garage and scream.

Exercise , sweat, drink a lot of water and cranberry juice, don't walk by a bathroom without having to use it. Flush it out quicker.

That energy will get sapped eventually, and fatigue will set in, but sleep when you can , it's like a "free pass" from nic time.

I quit with you today!

[agirlsickofgrizz]

Oh yeah baby, sugar. Sugar is making me feel better. I religiously count calories, but not this day. Giving myself a day off. Just had 3 graham crackers with some homemade icing and my anger is considerably numbed.

Yes, exercise is amazing, I use it for endorphin's regularly, I am getting on my treadclimber soon.

[pete333]

Ok guys,I moved my quit date to today. WE did it, husband and I flushed our last can down the toilet last night. My last chew was 9pm last night. I posted roll this morning.
I am feeling very, very uncomfortable right now and feel like I might cry.
I keep getting cravings every few minutes since I woke up. It's like a rising panic, kind of like the dream where you look down and don't have any clothes on. Like a "OH NO, I forgot something really important!!" and then the realization.
Just trying not to get really pissed off at my 4 year old son today, fucking a he knows how to push my buttons.

GOOD JOB!!!! The next few days are the hardest and trust me they too shall pass. For the time being just focus on the now. This crave shall pass as well. Also please do not take it out on your children. They didnt make you start this addiction. When you feel yourself getting ready to explode or the start of a panic attack just sit down and concentrate on your breathing. Look up on Google or Youtube "belly breathing" for panic attacks.

You and your husband are badasses! This will be the best thing you have ever done for yourselves and your family. I promise that it will get better, and soon. While it is different for everyone, generally the first week blows. My peak was at about day 4-5. Then it has been an accelerating downhill since.

There is now no looking back. Y'all are quit. Now move forward. Hit the store today, if possible grab a bottle of water and walk there. Once you get there grab gum (lots) and several bags and flavors of sunflower seeds. Probably another bottle of water for the walk home. Spend lots of time here. That are thousands of threads and stories, which will all help keep y'all motivated.

You promised us all you are quit for today, now don't break that trust. We will worry about tomorrow when we all get up. You got this!

[77Midget]

What Macamania said ^^^^^^^ Get up and move! Also look into the breathing techniques. It really works to lower you stress and combat panic attacks. Give it a shot..........what do you have to lose.

Also in a few days you will look back and realize your kid wasn't being that bad. Your on edge in an all out battle against the bitch we call Nic. Don't let that hoe win! Im going to keep my eye on this thread and you today. We quit together!

[Macamania]

You MUST start exercising. You and hubby can walk or something together. I can't explain enough how much it helps. Increase your water intake. A lot is going to change: sleep patterns, moods, among other things. Exercise will help will this. Trust me!

[agirlsickofgrizz]

Ha. I am not normally a violent person, but I feel like I could have potential right now. If one of those sassy ghetto bitches got in my face right now, OH hell yes! I could so take her on right now.

[agirlsickofgrizz]

I KNEW it was gonna be like this. That's why my intro post is called "Im so scared" IT's exactly as shitty as I thought it would be. only 12.5 hours in and i am going nuts. I read about people saying they are tired. Not me, I am wired and I am pissed off and I am ready to snap. I am so angry. I am so moody. And it is taking EVERY SINGLE OUNCE OF STRENGTH in my body to not scream at my child when he is climbing on me and kneeing, and clawing and asking questions that don't make sense in a loud screamy voice and getting up in my FACE and YELLING and I am going TO LOSE IT.
SO I scream into my pillow and I want to cry this sucks.
On top of it all he has this loud hacky fucking awful cough that is persistent and on a pattern of exactly 10 hacky coughs every 5 minutes.

Yeah, I know this addiction is not my kids' fault. No I'm not taking out my anger on my kid. It's very tempting for this withdrawal rage to come out on the only target around but that just can't happen.

I am venting.
I feel like a monster, I don't feel like myself.

[KingNothing]

Just keep it out of your face today. That's all you need to do. Just for today. We'll work on tomorrow when it gets here. You've got this and we're right here to walk the walk with you.