Day 1 1/2

[Ronnie13]

Im doing what you have suggested and im reminding myself every minute thank you derk

[Derk40]

Much better, way to dig deep and reflect

It takes a lot for me to do something like that I don't like thinking about shit like that too much. But I knew it was something that I really had to do. I appreciate it pinched.

Save that, look at it often during your quit. Remember that right now your friend is up above smiling because if you live longer he lives longer in you.

I am damn proud of you brother, DAMN PROUD!

I'm pretty sure he is he was a hell of a fireman too me and him fought plenty of fire together and we would always have a dip afterwards I had a fire my last shift and when I didn't put in a dip afterwards it felt like he was looking at me at that moment with pride. Thank you pinched

The force is strong with this one. i see the fight coming out in you and your drive getting stronger. Hang in there and use whatever tool you need to, to help remind you why you quit and help you stay quit. We are all a team here and we push each other to make their drive to quit that much stronger.

So if someone pisses you off they are pushing you to increase your drive and use the anger as fuel for your drive. You no longer belong to the dark side so concentrate and increase your focus on the force and you will make it one day at a time.

Like the star wars references but yes every minute every hour feels better things are clearer and succeeding is my only option thanks

you learn quickly young padawan. take it every hour at a time if you need to and most of all remember this is YOUR QUIT not anyone else's yours. Take ownership of it like a new truck and do what you need to, to make it stronger.

Great Ronnie!! I'm glad u thought thru those 3 questions. I looked at your thread this morning and someone missed your response!!! I'd like to help you expand on nr 3 a bit. Post roll daily and first thing. It will solidify your promise to be quit today. Make sure you have a lot of alternatives at the ready... Gum, seeds, fake, etc. whatever it takes. If you need a burger... Go get it. A shake... Go get it. Anything to keep the poison out of your face.

How are you doing with phone numbers? Reaching out to fellow quitters in time of need is critical. But not waiting until the critical time and getting to know folks will strengthen your quit. PM me if you need a number.

Focus on this thing ODAAT. Do whatever it takes today!

You will face ups and downs in life. The goal is to break the chain of reverting to the poison can when times get tough. You can do it. You are here. You posted roll and you are quit today. You have thousands of quitters in your corner ready to help you! QLF today!

[Reaper]

awesome keep it up ronnie. you should also come jump in the live chat with some of the other members.

[Ronnie13]

I will and I know it is this is the major factor for me and it makes me feel more confident. Will do Reaper

[Reaper]

Much better, way to dig deep and reflect

It takes a lot for me to do something like that I don't like thinking about shit like that too much. But I knew it was something that I really had to do. I appreciate it pinched.

Save that, look at it often during your quit. Remember that right now your friend is up above smiling because if you live longer he lives longer in you.

I am damn proud of you brother, DAMN PROUD!

I'm pretty sure he is he was a hell of a fireman too me and him fought plenty of fire together and we would always have a dip afterwards I had a fire my last shift and when I didn't put in a dip afterwards it felt like he was looking at me at that moment with pride. Thank you pinched

The force is strong with this one. i see the fight coming out in you and your drive getting stronger. Hang in there and use whatever tool you need to, to help remind you why you quit and help you stay quit. We are all a team here and we push each other to make their drive to quit that much stronger.

So if someone pisses you off they are pushing you to increase your drive and use the anger as fuel for your drive. You no longer belong to the dark side so concentrate and increase your focus on the force and you will make it one day at a time.

Like the star wars references but yes every minute every hour feels better things are clearer and succeeding is my only option thanks

you learn quickly young padawan. take it every hour at a time if you need to and most of all remember this is YOUR QUIT not anyone else's yours. Take ownership of it like a new truck and do what you need to, to make it stronger.

[Ronnie13]

Much better, way to dig deep and reflect

It takes a lot for me to do something like that I don't like thinking about shit like that too much. But I knew it was something that I really had to do. I appreciate it pinched.

Save that, look at it often during your quit. Remember that right now your friend is up above smiling because if you live longer he lives longer in you.

I am damn proud of you brother, DAMN PROUD!

I'm pretty sure he is he was a hell of a fireman too me and him fought plenty of fire together and we would always have a dip afterwards I had a fire my last shift and when I didn't put in a dip afterwards it felt like he was looking at me at that moment with pride. Thank you pinched

The force is strong with this one. i see the fight coming out in you and your drive getting stronger. Hang in there and use whatever tool you need to, to help remind you why you quit and help you stay quit. We are all a team here and we push each other to make their drive to quit that much stronger.

So if someone pisses you off they are pushing you to increase your drive and use the anger as fuel for your drive. You no longer belong to the dark side so concentrate and increase your focus on the force and you will make it one day at a time.

Like the star wars references but yes every minute every hour feels better things are clearer and succeeding is my only option thanks

[Reaper]

Much better, way to dig deep and reflect

It takes a lot for me to do something like that I don't like thinking about shit like that too much. But I knew it was something that I really had to do. I appreciate it pinched.

Save that, look at it often during your quit. Remember that right now your friend is up above smiling because if you live longer he lives longer in you.

I am damn proud of you brother, DAMN PROUD!

I'm pretty sure he is he was a hell of a fireman too me and him fought plenty of fire together and we would always have a dip afterwards I had a fire my last shift and when I didn't put in a dip afterwards it felt like he was looking at me at that moment with pride. Thank you pinched

The force is strong with this one. i see the fight coming out in you and your drive getting stronger. Hang in there and use whatever tool you need to, to help remind you why you quit and help you stay quit. We are all a team here and we push each other to make their drive to quit that much stronger.

So if someone pisses you off they are pushing you to increase your drive and use the anger as fuel for your drive. You no longer belong to the dark side so concentrate and increase your focus on the force and you will make it one day at a time.

[Ronnie13]

Much better, way to dig deep and reflect

It takes a lot for me to do something like that I don't like thinking about shit like that too much. But I knew it was something that I really had to do. I appreciate it pinched.

Save that, look at it often during your quit. Remember that right now your friend is up above smiling because if you live longer he lives longer in you.

I am damn proud of you brother, DAMN PROUD!

I'm pretty sure he is he was a hell of a fireman too me and him fought plenty of fire together and we would always have a dip afterwards I had a fire my last shift and when I didn't put in a dip afterwards it felt like he was looking at me at that moment with pride. Thank you pinched

[Pinched]

Much better, way to dig deep and reflect

It takes a lot for me to do something like that I don't like thinking about shit like that too much. But I knew it was something that I really had to do. I appreciate it pinched.

Save that, look at it often during your quit. Remember that right now your friend is up above smiling because if you live longer he lives longer in you.

I am damn proud of you brother, DAMN PROUD!

[Ronnie13]

Much better, way to dig deep and reflect

It takes a lot for me to do something like that I don't like thinking about shit like that too much. But I knew it was something that I really had to do. I appreciate it pinched.

[Pinched]

Much better, way to dig deep and reflect

[Ronnie13]

Keep all your posts in your original thread that way you can go back and read it and you can capture your journey.

Good idea. I merged your two threads, Ronnie. Great decision to quit.

Okay and thank you

Hey Ronnie... glad your back. I am very sorry for your loss... that is just awful.

Having a hard time deciphering your 3 questions. You only made a couple of statements and then said your ready to start again. I am glad for that. Myabe it is somewhere else and I just cant find it.

So what are you going to do differently? Not sure I understand "all distractions have been replaced." Actually, I am 100% sure I don't understand.

You never really answered the other 2 either. All you said is your friend passed away and all distractions are replaced. I believe you need to put in some more thought to your 3 questions. In the end this is for you.

Are you serious about this, or are you going to be doing another day 1 by this weekend? Right now, I can't tell if you are serious about this. Are you?

The biggest difference is so far that I've told no one this time about my quit This way I'm the only one who knows and then I have the satisfaction in a couple of days to tell them about what I've done. The last time I really had no reason to start dipping again I really didn't. This time I just feel like it's not only time but that I actually want to. If you don't believe me or are doubtful that is to be expected but there really is nothing else I can tell you.

Umm, so did you answer the 3 questions. I would say no. If you have nothing better than that, than you are in trouble. Here they are again.

1. What happened? (what actually happened.... not my friend passed away.... walk yourself thru it. Did you walk into a C-store and a bunch of goons held you down until you dipped?)

2. Why did it happen? (you have been here quit, so why did this happen... did you not have a quit plan, did you not have numbers.... why did you cave? Did you even think of the commitment to stay quit?)

3. What are you going to do differently? (tell us what you will do differently that you didn;t do in the 2 questions above that will make you stay quit today.... what steps are you going to take)

I've put some thought into these questions and here is what happened
1. After my friend passed I his mother called me to inform me we had been buddies since we were small boys. When I found out he had passed I was on my third and a half day instead of handling things like a normal person or even not an addict I reacted by going to the gas station and without much thought I bought a can that me and him first started on. I got back out put the shit into my lip and remembered the times that we spent together. It hit me that instead of really remembering his life I'm shortening mine I think if he was still here he would've called me a dumbass for doing such a thing. At the end of the day I have no excuses why I did why I did.
2. As far as quit plan I didn't have one my goal was to tackle one day at a time and combat it that way. This time around I made a list of reasons why I need to quit and how I will combat triggers and craves.
3. My steps are this each day is a battle within myself that I want to win I'm competitive by nature so I'm turning it into a challenge and kind of a game if you have a fucked up sense of humor. I look at my family my girlfriend and my brothers at the firehouse and think that I will not let these people down who love and support me I will not give in on myself not now not ever. Fuck tobacco and where it has led me. The list is simple I will not let anybody or myself down I want to set the example that my brother fire firefighters my little cousins and my family and girlfriend to be proud of. I want to be the guy who has a family and can see them grow.

[Ronnie13]

Its been a productive day cravings hit me around the afternoon things seem to be going in slow motion. Other than the cravings ive kept myself busy enough that it hasnt been that bad.

Congrats on working through the cravings. I've had good luck with smokey mountain herbal snuff. Seeds work pretty well too. Proud to be quitting with you

Ive been chewing the hell out of seeds im trying to cut back though all of the salt burns my tongue. I have a few cans of hooch ive used it a few times ill check on smokey mtn tomorrow. Proud to be here and quit with yall.

[Punkin]

Its been a productive day cravings hit me around the afternoon things seem to be going in slow motion. Other than the cravings ive kept myself busy enough that it hasnt been that bad.

Congrats on working through the cravings. I've had good luck with smokey mountain herbal snuff. Seeds work pretty well too. Proud to be quitting with you

[Ronnie13]

Its been a productive day cravings hit me around the afternoon things seem to be going in slow motion. Other than the cravings ive kept myself busy enough that it hasnt been that bad.