Repetition of the same chant, the same incantations, the same affirmations leads to belief, and once that belief becomes a deep conviction, things begin to happen.
Why do I have to post roll everyday?
Quitting is not a decision. It's a journey. Early on in my quit, it was hard casting aside the habits and thoughts I held as a user. Part of me wondered if I could be happy without the weed in my life. Doubt has crept into my head on occasion since then, and during these moments wer when I truly appreciated the power of roll.
You see, quitting is easy at times. These are the days that we jump out of bed, post roll, and the thought of using is far off. Hell, it's very easy to cling to roll as a "trick" to keep you quit a few days. Quitting is always easy when you're inspired. It's those other times...
You know...when you've watched a few friends drop from roll, when you're going out with friends and the mood strikes you right, or when your whole life is collapsing around you. It's these times that you appreciate training long hours to be quit. It's these times that prepare you to dance on the stage.
I'm not as vocal as I've been in the past. I don't know if I ever will be. But as I've gone further into my quit, I realize that my posting roll is synonymous exercising my beliefs. It is the repetition of this practice that has led me to this very moment and allowed me to dance on this stage. And, accordingly, I have a deep conviction that it keeps me quit.
New quitters, it's ok to struggle. Ask for help. We're here to help and are more than willing. Badasses don't come here. Badasses are made here.
If you need me, I'll be here.