hullo

[B-loMatt]

32- feel like crap today. Don't know if it's a sinus infection or a real bad cold, but I can't breath out of my nose, and my mouth is dry as hell with a sore throat... I would still be throwin' in fatties if I was still a slave. Thank God I am quit.

[B-loMatt]

31- OK future self one more tidbit to think about: one months savings in real U.S. dollars $412.92! That is almost $5k a year shithead! NAFAR.

[B-loMatt]

End 30 start 31: One month... I can handle this with KTC and the tools I have aquired. Nic will be everpresent in my quit to one degree or another, and I am aware of the possibility that I might cave... I just know that if I can do anything for 1 day, and I have done it for 1 month, then I have no excuse to cave... I will continue to do what I have done for the last month day after day, and I will get the same results... Happy now, especialy when it sucks! Wait I used to say that about my wife.

[Scowick65]

Day 29: Good day some suck some craves, but I am staying productive and winning. Posting 2mro and repeating.

Keep it up!

[B-loMatt]

Day 29: Good day some suck some craves, but I am staying productive and winning. Posting 2mro and repeating.

[kkljinc]

End day 28: great day to be quit. I still have craves every day, but for the most part they are pathetic. Even the worst craves I have been having now are beaten in minutes. I have built my own little crave killing battle plan from the knowledge I gained from reading KTC.
1: crave hits
2: recognize it for what it is: lies from the nic bitch
3: get pissed and I mean a focused rage channeling all my frustration at letting myself be a slave, the bs way society lets tobbaco market itself and poison us, the fact that I have to deal with a stupid crave even though there is no way in hell I will ever put that garbage in my body again, and also all my fear at what damage I have done to myself from being a slave, and the fact that if I were to use again I would be killing myself slowly again! Basicaly all the dark side stuff. I am actively training myself to have all this happen in a fraction of a second as soon as I recognize the crave.
4: 9 times out of ten that is the end of the story; crave is gone as soon as it came, and I go about my life. Sometimes however...
5: 'The Suck'! O.k. so I beat down the crave, but now I feel depressed. I know that depression if left unchecked will weaken my resolve to stay quit, I mean what is the point of being quit if everything sucks?
6: recognize "THE SUCK' for what it is: 'the suck' is just another way the nic bitch lies to us.
7: 2nd part of what the suck is: getting the suck means I am WINNING! Nic is getting desperate 'cause her go to lies aren't working anymore so she is pulling out the stops. Also the suck means I am most likely reprogramming my brain, and I won't have the same trigger set me off or at least as bad in the future.
8: winning puts a smile on my face, an I know the suck wont last for long when I am doing a victory lap in my mind.

I don't know if this will help anyone else, but so far it is working for me. Obviously this is only my way of handling craves; the true strength of my quit comes from posting roll and promising not to use daily. If ever there comes a time when I need it I have steps 9 and 10 too:
9: txt or call my quit brothers to smack some sense into me.
10: slam desk drawer on my nuts!
This is not spinal tap mine doesn't go to 11... unless you count going to the emergency room.

Thats good. The suck is something appreciated later because you are so right on. It's winning. Love that.

Loved it matt. You got that brain working overtime on this quit. The overtime pay will be double. The more you put into it the better the pay. I'll quit with you anyday of the week.

Keep it up and keep it close.

[srans]

End day 28: great day to be quit. I still have craves every day, but for the most part they are pathetic. Even the worst craves I have been having now are beaten in minutes. I have built my own little crave killing battle plan from the knowledge I gained from reading KTC.
1: crave hits
2: recognize it for what it is: lies from the nic bitch
3: get pissed and I mean a focused rage channeling all my frustration at letting myself be a slave, the bs way society lets tobbaco market itself and poison us, the fact that I have to deal with a stupid crave even though there is no way in hell I will ever put that garbage in my body again, and also all my fear at what damage I have done to myself from being a slave, and the fact that if I were to use again I would be killing myself slowly again! Basicaly all the dark side stuff. I am actively training myself to have all this happen in a fraction of a second as soon as I recognize the crave.
4: 9 times out of ten that is the end of the story; crave is gone as soon as it came, and I go about my life. Sometimes however...
5: 'The Suck'! O.k. so I beat down the crave, but now I feel depressed. I know that depression if left unchecked will weaken my resolve to stay quit, I mean what is the point of being quit if everything sucks?
6: recognize "THE SUCK' for what it is: 'the suck' is just another way the nic bitch lies to us.
7: 2nd part of what the suck is: getting the suck means I am WINNING! Nic is getting desperate 'cause her go to lies aren't working anymore so she is pulling out the stops. Also the suck means I am most likely reprogramming my brain, and I won't have the same trigger set me off or at least as bad in the future.
8: winning puts a smile on my face, an I know the suck wont last for long when I am doing a victory lap in my mind.

I don't know if this will help anyone else, but so far it is working for me. Obviously this is only my way of handling craves; the true strength of my quit comes from posting roll and promising not to use daily. If ever there comes a time when I need it I have steps 9 and 10 too:
9: txt or call my quit brothers to smack some sense into me.
10: slam desk drawer on my nuts!
This is not spinal tap mine doesn't go to 11... unless you count going to the emergency room.

Thats good. The suck is something appreciated later because you are so right on. It's winning. Love that.

Loved it matt. You got that brain working overtime on this quit. The overtime pay will be double. The more you put into it the better the pay. I'll quit with you anyday of the week.

[Mthomas3824]

End day 28: great day to be quit. I still have craves every day, but for the most part they are pathetic. Even the worst craves I have been having now are beaten in minutes. I have built my own little crave killing battle plan from the knowledge I gained from reading KTC.
1: crave hits
2: recognize it for what it is: lies from the nic bitch
3: get pissed and I mean a focused rage channeling all my frustration at letting myself be a slave, the bs way society lets tobbaco market itself and poison us, the fact that I have to deal with a stupid crave even though there is no way in hell I will ever put that garbage in my body again, and also all my fear at what damage I have done to myself from being a slave, and the fact that if I were to use again I would be killing myself slowly again! Basicaly all the dark side stuff. I am actively training myself to have all this happen in a fraction of a second as soon as I recognize the crave.
4: 9 times out of ten that is the end of the story; crave is gone as soon as it came, and I go about my life. Sometimes however...
5: 'The Suck'! O.k. so I beat down the crave, but now I feel depressed. I know that depression if left unchecked will weaken my resolve to stay quit, I mean what is the point of being quit if everything sucks?
6: recognize "THE SUCK' for what it is: 'the suck' is just another way the nic bitch lies to us.
7: 2nd part of what the suck is: getting the suck means I am WINNING! Nic is getting desperate 'cause her go to lies aren't working anymore so she is pulling out the stops. Also the suck means I am most likely reprogramming my brain, and I won't have the same trigger set me off or at least as bad in the future.
8: winning puts a smile on my face, an I know the suck wont last for long when I am doing a victory lap in my mind.

I don't know if this will help anyone else, but so far it is working for me. Obviously this is only my way of handling craves; the true strength of my quit comes from posting roll and promising not to use daily. If ever there comes a time when I need it I have steps 9 and 10 too:
9: txt or call my quit brothers to smack some sense into me.
10: slam desk drawer on my nuts!
This is not spinal tap mine doesn't go to 11... unless you count going to the emergency room.

Thats good. The suck is something appreciated later because you are so right on. It's winning. Love that.

[B-loMatt]

End day 28: great day to be quit. I still have craves every day, but for the most part they are pathetic. Even the worst craves I have been having now are beaten in minutes. I have built my own little crave killing battle plan from the knowledge I gained from reading KTC.
1: crave hits
2: recognize it for what it is: lies from the nic bitch
3: get pissed and I mean a focused rage channeling all my frustration at letting myself be a slave, the bs way society lets tobbaco market itself and poison us, the fact that I have to deal with a stupid crave even though there is no way in hell I will ever put that garbage in my body again, and also all my fear at what damage I have done to myself from being a slave, and the fact that if I were to use again I would be killing myself slowly again! Basicaly all the dark side stuff. I am actively training myself to have all this happen in a fraction of a second as soon as I recognize the crave.
4: 9 times out of ten that is the end of the story; crave is gone as soon as it came, and I go about my life. Sometimes however...
5: 'The Suck'! O.k. so I beat down the crave, but now I feel depressed. I know that depression if left unchecked will weaken my resolve to stay quit, I mean what is the point of being quit if everything sucks?
6: recognize "THE SUCK' for what it is: 'the suck' is just another way the nic bitch lies to us.
7: 2nd part of what the suck is: getting the suck means I am WINNING! Nic is getting desperate 'cause her go to lies aren't working anymore so she is pulling out the stops. Also the suck means I am most likely reprogramming my brain, and I won't have the same trigger set me off or at least as bad in the future.
8: winning puts a smile on my face, an I know the suck wont last for long when I am doing a victory lap in my mind.

I don't know if this will help anyone else, but so far it is working for me. Obviously this is only my way of handling craves; the true strength of my quit comes from posting roll and promising not to use daily. If ever there comes a time when I need it I have steps 9 and 10 too:
9: txt or call my quit brothers to smack some sense into me.
10: slam desk drawer on my nuts!
This is not spinal tap mine doesn't go to 11... unless you count going to the emergency room.

[B-loMatt]

Day 28: Headin' to work in a minute, but just wanted to report smooth sailing from yesterday.

[srans]

End day 26: Thanks to srans I just read my thread from start to finish, and it confirmed my belief that I am just like all the other addicts here... The stories of others inspired me that I could walk the same path. I had a good day today, got the dog shit cleaned up and cut the lawn, had fun with my girls, and smacked the nic bitch down every time she showed here ugly face. Knowledge, anger, and seeds got me through another day. Tomorrow will be tough  as it will be the first time I hang out with my oldest and best friend. He is still dipping, and is the one I first tried tobacco with way back when b4 we hit puberty. He will most likely offer me one, but this time is different. Every other time I tried to quit I was alone, and did not have the knowledge base I do now. I know that I am an addict now and NAFAR is now my motto!

That's what I'm talking about. Keep it up Matt.

Everytime I read you posts brother you inspire me. Now your going from a young padawan to jedi. You Should be getting now to where being around friends that dip is bearable. Before long you'll be looking at them with pity. I see my friends that dip as slaves with hope. We are their hope brother. The more learned you become about quitting, the more of an inspiration you will become to your friends.

They need you brother,, they might not no it, but they do. Might as well add another +one. I'll be with you all day.

[Its_Got2Happen]

End day 26: Thanks to srans I just read my thread from start to finish, and it confirmed my belief that I am just like all the other addicts here... The stories of others inspired me that I could walk the same path. I had a good day today, got the dog shit cleaned up and cut the lawn, had fun with my girls, and smacked the nic bitch down every time she showed here ugly face. Knowledge, anger, and seeds got me through another day. Tomorrow will be tough as it will be the first time I hang out with my oldest and best friend. He is still dipping, and is the one I first tried tobacco with way back when b4 we hit puberty. He will most likely offer me one, but this time is different. Every other time I tried to quit I was alone, and did not have the knowledge base I do now. I know that I am an addict now and NAFAR is now my motto!

That's what I'm talking about. Keep it up Matt.

[B-loMatt]

End day 26: Thanks to srans I just read my thread from start to finish, and it confirmed my belief that I am just like all the other addicts here... The stories of others inspired me that I could walk the same path. I had a good day today, got the dog shit cleaned up and cut the lawn, had fun with my girls, and smacked the nic bitch down every time she showed here ugly face. Knowledge, anger, and seeds got me through another day. Tomorrow will be tough as it will be the first time I hang out with my oldest and best friend. He is still dipping, and is the one I first tried tobacco with way back when b4 we hit puberty. He will most likely offer me one, but this time is different. Every other time I tried to quit I was alone, and did not have the knowledge base I do now. I know that I am an addict now and NAFAR is now my motto!

[srans]

End day 25: fast 10 hours at work; actually found myself laughing at the pathetic craves that lasted less than seconds. Crave- recognize it for the pathetic lie it was- get pissed that I was a slave to this bullshit- honestly happy not to have to puta lip turd in... instant anger when I hear nics' wispers; 'fuck off I quit!'. Inspired today not so much by vets for a change; rather, by some bad asses less far along on their quits than I: Suckmydip for taking the plunge, JRizzle for keeping it optamistic, grizzly for powering through his first week, and gettinbreezy for the best come-back I have ever heard. I could be quit all by myself if I was stranded on an island that had no nic, but in the real world I can be quit with the help of my brothers and sisters on KTC!

Just looked through your intro matt. Pure quitting excellence. You have come a long ways in such a short time. If you haven't lately, read through it again. You used words like hope in the beginning. I don't see that no more brother. I see a man with the pure intention of staying quit. You went from someone unsure, but really wanting to be quit, to someone that is sure about his quit and knows what and how it's done. I'm glad to be quit right beside you brother.

[B-loMatt]

End day 25: fast 10 hours at work; actually found myself laughing at the pathetic craves that lasted less than seconds. Crave- recognize it for the pathetic lie it was- get pissed that I was a slave to this bullshit- honestly happy not to have to puta lip turd in... instant anger when I hear nics' wispers; 'fuck off I quit!'. Inspired today not so much by vets for a change; rather, by some bad asses less far along on their quits than I: Suckmydip for taking the plunge, JRizzle for keeping it optamistic, grizzly for powering through his first week, and gettinbreezy for the best come-back I have ever heard (see his intro tread about coaching his sons baseball team).
I could be quit all by myself if I was stranded on an island that had no nic, but in the real world I can be quit with the help of my brothers and sisters on KTC!