Day 5
Still feel like shit, just bleh, got to sleep ok but woke up every 45 minutes......mouth feels weird and aches still. Exercising a lot and staying active to not focus on dipping. Future thinking is making me anxious, "how am I not going to dip watching football" or "how am I not going to dip in December for deer camp". Need to stay in the present, cuz my minds playing tricks on me.
Right on track...
I'd love to give you a rah rah speech about manning the fuck up and how any ass gasket can watch football without a mouth full of shit, but I can see that probably would not work here. I guess you're just gonna have to get through it buttercup. Will it be tough? Yep. Will it be as tough as you are thinking it will be? Probably not. Is it impossible and will you die? Ummm...fuck no.
Deer Camp...Not a hunter but I would imagine that's a tough one. Again, be sure to pack you nut sack for the trip and maybe some sunflower seeds or fake. This is gonna be a big trigger for you, but instead of wondering "How can I do it without dip", PREPARE yourself. Be ready for the suckiness and have the tools to battle it. For all the doubtful questions, instead of moaping in the anticipation of suck, try to embrace it and be ready for it. I know it's easy to say and hard to do, because I had similar questions myself when I quit. One thing I found was that many time the anticipation was worse than the event itself. Take this shit one day at a time and try to think more positively. Bumming yourself out before shit even goes down , is a waste of energy and just flat negative energy.
Unrelated question...Why do hunters feed deer all year only to shoot them when the calendar turns a certain date? I never got that one. Where's the sport in THAT?
Quit on...