What with the holidays and all, I've been a slack ass about where I am.
Overall, I am proud of myself that I am quit still. 15 days. Never been that long in over two and a half decades....that is longer than some of you new quitters on here have been alive. Think about THAT shit. Anyway, for the most part it has all been good. I am beating the bitch's ass. My wife had a long come-to-Jesus meeting with me yesterday about my attitude with the kids...and she is almost certainly right about the shortness that I have exhibited with their behavior. But all in all that is just some anxiousness that I am now starting to recognize and be able to deal with before it gets the better of me. My wife told me yesterday that for the first time in as long as she can remember (we've been married since August of 1996 and started dating in 1992), it was great to not have to smell the dip when hugging, kissing, etc.
As for the down side, well...there hasn't been a down side. That doesn't mean that the insomnia hasn't sucked (because it has), and it doesn't mean that inability to get back to sleep after waking up hasn't sucked (because it has too), but both conditions are getting better. Those are down sides but I laugh at any symptoms or minor problems that cause me discomfort or inconvenience in my quit.
There are so many great people on this site that have helped me. Right now, I am a bad ass, mean mo-fo, quit monster and if you are in any way attempting to get in the way of my quit be prepared to get run-the-fuck-over...but considering that I've been a failure so many times in the past it would be a crime not to recognize all the the people on here who inspire me, support me, reach out to me, and help me continue day after day. Thank you to every one of you who are here. I, and my wife, truly thank you. If I tried to name you all I would undoubtedly leave some out.
Time to get back to being a QUIT ANIMAL!
PMac