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Today I see the addict on the grill. He's far away but I can feel him. I got a big run in today and now I'm having my big quit. I struggle. Its not just nicotine but other things as well but its just being an addict. Accepting that each day I have to get up and set the table right. Get up and say I won't use today. I'm a huge proponent of the power of words. Choosing the right ones, really scrutinizing how you express yourself. Whether its thoughts or interacting with folks in real life or here, words frame reality. So when I get up and say I quit today, I'm framing my reality. Same as when I say I won't drink today. Or I'm going to run 20 miles. I'm defining my world. I'm organizing what is important and making it my reality. I'm starting to think about this as "making my own prophecy". When I think about what a prophecy is, it has aspects of things that should be in this world, things that could be in this world, things you can't be certain will happen, and I'm not sure if they are necessarily good or bad. The way I make my prophecy is to get up and quit today. Set the table for today. See those things in front of me and someday when the clock is running out, those same things will be sitting on the table right where I put them. Just as I did all those days before.
