Truth,,, this is why i'm 'bang head' with you.
A few days before I found ktc I decided I was going to TRY to quit. My new plan was to cut back to only two dips a day. What an idiot I was.
For three days I tortured myself. I would allow myself one dip in the morning and the next half way through the day. It was torture. It was not working. I remember having tears in my eyes when I was finally allowing those pinches. I was HOPING for a miracle. Later I found there is no hope or try in quit. That was my problem. I had to remove hope. There is only QUIT!!!
Do you know as soon as you put nicotine in any form you immediately FILL THE VOID that you've left from using smaller amounts. It doesn't matter how much you cut back,,, as soon as you use,,, it fills the void. You have done absolutely NO good. In other words,, you start the cycle over again as soon as you use. WAKE UP,, THINK ABOUT IT.
If you don't hear anything I've said,,, Which I doubt you have. I ask you to hear this.
The poison doesn't deserve your respect and admiration. That's what you are giving it. Right now you love the poison more than yourself, life and family. How about making a statement to the poison. Quit right effin now. How about slamming the door and adding bolt locks. If you do quit tomorrow,, I don't know if i'm going to even believe in your quit. You've said nothing to me that lets me know you reeeellllly want to quit. I don't think you have it in you to quit. Your still suckling with the poison right now, so that tells me all I need to know. MAKE THAT STATEMENT BROTHER!!!! Slam that door shut,, don't ease it shut,, SLAM IT!!!
I've given you to much of my time already. I don't know why!! Usually someone that is suckling with the poison does not get this much of my attention. Your getting attention from got2, me and others that you really don't deserve. Maybe it's because we see us in you. Maybe it's because we know you are using your brain to make decisions and we know your brain cannot be trusted. Maybe we are trying to get through to YOU!!!! The problem right now is YOUR not in charge,, the poison is. Reach deep my friend,, YOUR in there somewhere. Maybe Saturday the real YOU will suddenly emerge. Right now I think YOU might emerge, but YOU won't last. You've not proven anything to me and more importantly,,, YOURSELF!
Maybe, if your not listening, I haven't wasted my time and someone else right now sees this and wants to take there life back. Do it,, you won't be sorry. The poison wants to take everything from you,, it doesn't stop until your dead.