Scared to death

[rdad]

Over. And over. And over. And over.

After 100 days, people cave for 1 reason. They stop posting roll. They either subconsciously want to cave, or subconsciously never wanted to quit. I don't get it. Who the fuck would ever want to relive that 100 days again? Not me!

We've all heard this a billion times. Post roll every day. Not posting is like hitting your head on a brick wall. Over. And over. And over. And over.

Hey Cindy, I'm glad you are back just like everyone else.... But this place is about tough love sometimes too. I'm glad you seem to be on the right path now, but i wanna make sure you know that posting roll every day is the only way you will ever win. No excuses going forward. You know how to win. Don't choose to lose. Losing, and not posting roll, sucks.

You either want to quit more than anything, or you don't. There is no place for half Ass Quitters here. Close the damn door.

[worktowin]

Over. And over. And over. And over.

After 100 days, people cave for 1 reason. They stop posting roll. They either subconsciously want to cave, or subconsciously never wanted to quit. I don't get it. Who the fuck would ever want to relive that 100 days again? Not me!

We've all heard this a billion times. Post roll every day. Not posting is like hitting your head on a brick wall. Over. And over. And over. And over.

Hey Cindy, I'm glad you are back just like everyone else.... But this place is about tough love sometimes too. I'm glad you seem to be on the right path now, but i wanna make sure you know that posting roll every day is the only way you will ever win. No excuses going forward. You know how to win. Don't choose to lose. Losing, and not posting roll, sucks.

[Cindy]

Cindy! Cindy! Cindy! (the crowd chants)


You can do it! You can do it all day long!... You can do it in your sleep!.... You can do it!

Quit like you never Quit before and do it now.

I am. Thank yall for your support

[Slick]

Cindy! Cindy! Cindy! (the crowd chants)


You can do it! You can do it all day long!... You can do it in your sleep!.... You can do it!

Quit like you never Quit before and do it now.

[pab1964]

Oh the stupid things we do. Before I found KTC I had stopped for 3 years. I got this licked. Dipping was not n my mind. I seemed to be able to walk away from it and never look back, until that one day. I was hunting with my BIL and he pulled out a can. I bummed one from him and that damn switch was flipped back on immediately. I actually felt like it snapped in my brain. Suddenly I had to run to the c-store and grab a few things. Yup, I never before realized I was an addict and always will be. I never knew that it would take just one and then I'm back to packing and pulling the trigger on a daily basis.

I too had stoppages that ended because I was depressed or I had an argument with the Mrs. Nicotine will never solve any problems, ever.

You've been around long enough to know that and to know when to use the tools provided here. Nobody likes a caver but what I dislike more is a caver that never returns. Just make sure you are 110% vested in your quit.

Hey Cindy welcome back! Dig both feet in, looks to me like you were welcomed back with open arms. Get in here get involved in your group, post support in other groups. Damn proud to be quitting with you and I have a daughter same age as you, so I got my eye on you. This is your quit, own it!

[Raider]

Oh the stupid things we do. Before I found KTC I had stopped for 3 years. I got this licked. Dipping was not n my mind. I seemed to be able to walk away from it and never look back, until that one day. I was hunting with my BIL and he pulled out a can. I bummed one from him and that damn switch was flipped back on immediately. I actually felt like it snapped in my brain. Suddenly I had to run to the c-store and grab a few things. Yup, I never before realized I was an addict and always will be. I never knew that it would take just one and then I'm back to packing and pulling the trigger on a daily basis.

I too had stoppages that ended because I was depressed or I had an argument with the Mrs. Nicotine will never solve any problems, ever.

You've been around long enough to know that and to know when to use the tools provided here. Nobody likes a caver but what I dislike more is a caver that never returns. Just make sure you are 110% vested in your quit.

[Cindy]

Thank y'all

[CavMan83]

Cindy. I apologize that I don't know you. Seen your name a few times. The fact that there are so many users of this site is one of the great indicators that this site is so powerful at helping folks find freedom. I can't imagine what your going through right now so I'll just say this. To cave is one thing, but to not roll over and just give up is completely another. You and I have been around here long enough to see long term quitters cave. It's s terrible thing. But to pick oneself up, dust them self off, own up to it, and get back to Quitting, that takes resolve and character. Also shows an unwavering hope for freedom. I know, there's that hard ass line of accountability in here, but I'm sure what your experiencing now is hard ass enough. You know the ropes and are back linked up with your fellow Quitters. Glad your back in here. Your where you should be. Proud to be Quit with you. And you can certainly hit me up any time for more accountability digits.

Gdubya

I agree. This site is an awesome tool that helps people stay quit. But we all need to do our part to quit every day. Every day is the key. When we slip we might fall. Build a net here so that someone catches you should you start to fall.

I quit with you today! Stranger999 - day 357

I quit with you today and support you as well as these other great people.

Cindy,

I hate that you made the same mistake so many many "reformed" quitters seem to not be able to get without repeating (myself included; just see my signature block). But I am glad you found a way to recover from your mistake instead of wallowing in it. Welcome back young lady! Jump on in with both feet. Remember how good making that promise and keeping it made you feel about yourself and your quit group. You can do this. You know that, and we know that! With you all the way!

[ChickDip]

Cindy. I apologize that I don't know you. Seen your name a few times. The fact that there are so many users of this site is one of the great indicators that this site is so powerful at helping folks find freedom. I can't imagine what your going through right now so I'll just say this. To cave is one thing, but to not roll over and just give up is completely another. You and I have been around here long enough to see long term quitters cave. It's s terrible thing. But to pick oneself up, dust them self off, own up to it, and get back to Quitting, that takes resolve and character. Also shows an unwavering hope for freedom. I know, there's that hard ass line of accountability in here, but I'm sure what your experiencing now is hard ass enough. You know the ropes and are back linked up with your fellow Quitters. Glad your back in here. Your where you should be. Proud to be Quit with you. And you can certainly hit me up any time for more accountability digits.

Gdubya

I agree. This site is an awesome tool that helps people stay quit. But we all need to do our part to quit every day. Every day is the key. When we slip we might fall. Build a net here so that someone catches you should you start to fall.

I quit with you today! Stranger999 - day 357

I quit with you today and support you as well as these other great people.

[Stranger999]

Cindy. I apologize that I don't know you. Seen your name a few times. The fact that there are so many users of this site is one of the great indicators that this site is so powerful at helping folks find freedom. I can't imagine what your going through right now so I'll just say this. To cave is one thing, but to not roll over and just give up is completely another. You and I have been around here long enough to see long term quitters cave. It's s terrible thing. But to pick oneself up, dust them self off, own up to it, and get back to Quitting, that takes resolve and character. Also shows an unwavering hope for freedom. I know, there's that hard ass line of accountability in here, but I'm sure what your experiencing now is hard ass enough. You know the ropes and are back linked up with your fellow Quitters. Glad your back in here. Your where you should be. Proud to be Quit with you. And you can certainly hit me up any time for more accountability digits.

Gdubya

I agree. This site is an awesome tool that helps people stay quit. But we all need to do our part to quit every day. Every day is the key. When we slip we might fall. Build a net here so that someone catches you should you start to fall.

I quit with you today! Stranger999 - day 357

[Gdubya]

Cindy. I apologize that I don't know you. Seen your name a few times. The fact that there are so many users of this site is one of the great indicators that this site is so powerful at helping folks find freedom. I can't imagine what your going through right now so I'll just say this. To cave is one thing, but to not roll over and just give up is completely another. You and I have been around here long enough to see long term quitters cave. It's s terrible thing. But to pick oneself up, dust them self off, own up to it, and get back to Quitting, that takes resolve and character. Also shows an unwavering hope for freedom. I know, there's that hard ass line of accountability in here, but I'm sure what your experiencing now is hard ass enough. You know the ropes and are back linked up with your fellow Quitters. Glad your back in here. Your where you should be. Proud to be Quit with you. And you can certainly hit me up any time for more accountability digits.

Gdubya

[Candoit]

I'm not the best communicator, but I will try.

you don't have to be you still have help from us ill help with anything. they need someone who has been here before and i think you go it!! you came back you admitted your mistakes and you started moving up and offering support time to help the group grow and become more involved.

Hurts Cindy to see you posting single digits again. All the struggle and success lost. I pray that you have learned from the past and have found the strength to make it.

[Backwoods901]

I'm not the best communicator, but I will try.

you don't have to be you still have help from us ill help with anything. they need someone who has been here before and i think you go it!! you came back you admitted your mistakes and you started moving up and offering support time to help the group grow and become more involved.

[Cindy]

I'm not the best communicator, but I will try.

[Backwoods901]

I caved. It was a good long while back. I don't know when exactly. I am now on day 4. I am posting this here so I can find it and so other people who think they can walk away and be fine, will maybe reconsider. If you think "the suck" sucked the first time, trust me when I tell you the second time is worse. And knowing what I am still facing in the weeks and months ahead. It is truly terrifying. Don't cave. Don't ever EVER think you can touch that shit again and be ok.

1. What happened? I was having a rough day and when I got in the truck, my husband had a can of snuff (after he himself had quit for over 120 days) I thought I could get a dip and go on without it. I was about to the point that I didn't care either way, I was depressed and upset.
2. Why did it happen? I had let my guard down. I had let my quit group down. I had been selfish and thought I didn't need these people, not thinking about whether or not they actually needed me, too. I thought I was strong enough to do it alone. I knew better, but at the moment I underestimated what "addiction" means, I either didn't realize or didn't believe it would really be just like starting over at day one, just from one tiny dip.
3. What will I do differently? I will post roll. I will stay active here. I will never assume I can do it alone. I will stay here and I will help other people, even if I don't feel that I need help myself, because that will keep me here and keep me quit.
I am sorry I left. I am sorry to myself that I caved after all that time. I have hated every day since I caved and was too scared to try again. I was so angry that I had thrown all that away and now faced down doing it all over again. Don't ever ever cave. Quit like fuck every damn day for the rest of your life. When you stop quitting hard, you'll forget how hard it was.

you put thought into your answers and you are an example for everyone in your group. they need a leader Cindy to take charge of it you are a prime candidate to take over and work November to success and make sure everyone is held accountable there.

So far NOV has had the Vets taking care of it and no one has stepped up you need to make NOV better then OCT and prove to everyone on this site that you are fully invested and you drank all the damn kool aid and want to make difference for everyone including yourself.


IM quit with you like i said and i sent ya PM.