My good cave

[kana]

I have revised this introduction to myself today my 140th day of freedom.  I will not tell you that it has been easy, It hasn�t.  I won�t tell you that I have struggled everyday, I haven�t somedays have been easy others real bitches.  I will tell you that the friendships that I have made here online will last a life time.  The support that I have had and felt here is irreplaceable.  Reaching out a helping hand to other addicts is also a very rewarding experience and takes one�s mind off their own struggle. 
I'm Wade I'm 55 yrs. old, been married for 32 yrs., have 1 adult daughter and 2 grandkids, I farm in Idaho, have been addicted to Nicotine for almost 40 yrs.  I can't count the times that I have attempted to quit.  My Nicotine use was always ninja style, my wife caught me but no one else knew that I dipped.  My life has been a miserable life of seclusion because I couldn't dip around others. Why?  I grew up and have always been an active Mormon and my religion strictly prohibits the use of tobacco and alcohol.  I just withdrew into my own little world with the whore.  I honestly had given up hope of ever quitting; I hated what I had become so bad that I decided to give it one last shot.  If it didn't happen I was prepared to just end everything (check out of life).  I have dealt with depression all of my adult life and I always thought that the nicotine helped me deal with that.  Not so it only contributed to the depression. After 140 days I have to say that my depression and anxiety have been very much under control.   I had worked up a grand plan to quit, had put the plan into action and had a quit date planned.  When I was searching for any other help that might make my quit successful I stumbled on to KTC, I joined on Mar. 28 and started reading for 2 nights I never slept, just read. My quit date was April 11 our 32 wedding anniversary.  On April 1 at 1:30 am I sat by the toilet and cried like a baby as I dumped 3 full cans of copensnuff down the can.  Somehow that night I knew that My QUIT was good it was for me, I hadn't even talked to my wife about trying to quit, she wouldn't have believed me any way.  Now she is part of my quit.
Every morning I post my roll and promise everyone here that I will remain nic free, I also hold my lovely wife's hand and promise her that I will not use it that day.  Now she asks me what day it is, how I'm feeling and if she can help.  Before my tobacco use was taboo, off limits to talk about I didn't want to face the fact that I was an addict.
I have tried to share my story with each newbie as soon as they join and quit so most of you that quit since about April 15 have seen most of this but I have updated it to keep up with the changing times.  I will continue to drop this intro into each newbies inbox along with the offer to trade #s with them.

You fugger....you made me tear up....just a bit though 'winker'

Proud of you WT.

Keep paying it forward - it will keep your quit rock solid. (As I am sure you already know.)


Proud to be quit with you,

Dale

I am proud to be quit with you man. You were one of the first guys to welcome me to this site and I will never forget it. I post roll every morning because old timers like yourself keep me in check. Keep going strong because you got a lot of quitters behind you as well. Proud to be quit with you WT for another day.

Kstamp

You inspire us all, especially me. thanks for all you do my friend!

[kstampfly]

I have revised this introduction to myself today my 140th day of freedom.  I will not tell you that it has been easy, It hasn�t.  I won�t tell you that I have struggled everyday, I haven�t somedays have been easy others real bitches.  I will tell you that the friendships that I have made here online will last a life time.  The support that I have had and felt here is irreplaceable.  Reaching out a helping hand to other addicts is also a very rewarding experience and takes one�s mind off their own struggle. 
I'm Wade I'm 55 yrs. old, been married for 32 yrs., have 1 adult daughter and 2 grandkids, I farm in Idaho, have been addicted to Nicotine for almost 40 yrs.  I can't count the times that I have attempted to quit.  My Nicotine use was always ninja style, my wife caught me but no one else knew that I dipped.  My life has been a miserable life of seclusion because I couldn't dip around others. Why?  I grew up and have always been an active Mormon and my religion strictly prohibits the use of tobacco and alcohol.  I just withdrew into my own little world with the whore.  I honestly had given up hope of ever quitting; I hated what I had become so bad that I decided to give it one last shot.  If it didn't happen I was prepared to just end everything (check out of life).  I have dealt with depression all of my adult life and I always thought that the nicotine helped me deal with that.  Not so it only contributed to the depression. After 140 days I have to say that my depression and anxiety have been very much under control.   I had worked up a grand plan to quit, had put the plan into action and had a quit date planned.  When I was searching for any other help that might make my quit successful I stumbled on to KTC, I joined on Mar. 28 and started reading for 2 nights I never slept, just read. My quit date was April 11 our 32 wedding anniversary.  On April 1 at 1:30 am I sat by the toilet and cried like a baby as I dumped 3 full cans of copensnuff down the can.  Somehow that night I knew that My QUIT was good it was for me, I hadn't even talked to my wife about trying to quit, she wouldn't have believed me any way.  Now she is part of my quit.
Every morning I post my roll and promise everyone here that I will remain nic free, I also hold my lovely wife's hand and promise her that I will not use it that day.  Now she asks me what day it is, how I'm feeling and if she can help.  Before my tobacco use was taboo, off limits to talk about I didn't want to face the fact that I was an addict.
I have tried to share my story with each newbie as soon as they join and quit so most of you that quit since about April 15 have seen most of this but I have updated it to keep up with the changing times.  I will continue to drop this intro into each newbies inbox along with the offer to trade #s with them.

You fugger....you made me tear up....just a bit though 'winker'

Proud of you WT.

Keep paying it forward - it will keep your quit rock solid. (As I am sure you already know.)


Proud to be quit with you,

Dale

I am proud to be quit with you man. You were one of the first guys to welcome me to this site and I will never forget it. I post roll every morning because old timers like yourself keep me in check. Keep going strong because you got a lot of quitters behind you as well. Proud to be quit with you WT for another day.

Kstamp

[30yraddict]

I have revised this introduction to myself today my 140th day of freedom. I will not tell you that it has been easy, It hasn�t. I won�t tell you that I have struggled everyday, I haven�t somedays have been easy others real bitches. I will tell you that the friendships that I have made here online will last a life time. The support that I have had and felt here is irreplaceable. Reaching out a helping hand to other addicts is also a very rewarding experience and takes one�s mind off their own struggle.
I'm Wade I'm 55 yrs. old, been married for 32 yrs., have 1 adult daughter and 2 grandkids, I farm in Idaho, have been addicted to Nicotine for almost 40 yrs. I can't count the times that I have attempted to quit. My Nicotine use was always ninja style, my wife caught me but no one else knew that I dipped. My life has been a miserable life of seclusion because I couldn't dip around others. Why? I grew up and have always been an active Mormon and my religion strictly prohibits the use of tobacco and alcohol. I just withdrew into my own little world with the whore. I honestly had given up hope of ever quitting; I hated what I had become so bad that I decided to give it one last shot. If it didn't happen I was prepared to just end everything (check out of life). I have dealt with depression all of my adult life and I always thought that the nicotine helped me deal with that. Not so it only contributed to the depression. After 140 days I have to say that my depression and anxiety have been very much under control. I had worked up a grand plan to quit, had put the plan into action and had a quit date planned. When I was searching for any other help that might make my quit successful I stumbled on to KTC, I joined on Mar. 28 and started reading for 2 nights I never slept, just read. My quit date was April 11 our 32 wedding anniversary. On April 1 at 1:30 am I sat by the toilet and cried like a baby as I dumped 3 full cans of copensnuff down the can. Somehow that night I knew that My QUIT was good it was for me, I hadn't even talked to my wife about trying to quit, she wouldn't have believed me any way. Now she is part of my quit.
Every morning I post my roll and promise everyone here that I will remain nic free, I also hold my lovely wife's hand and promise her that I will not use it that day. Now she asks me what day it is, how I'm feeling and if she can help. Before my tobacco use was taboo, off limits to talk about I didn't want to face the fact that I was an addict.
I have tried to share my story with each newbie as soon as they join and quit so most of you that quit since about April 15 have seen most of this but I have updated it to keep up with the changing times. I will continue to drop this intro into each newbies inbox along with the offer to trade #s with them.

You fugger....you made me tear up....just a bit though 'winker'

Proud of you WT.

Keep paying it forward - it will keep your quit rock solid. (As I am sure you already know.)


Proud to be quit with you,

Dale

[Roamcountry]

I have revised this introduction to myself today my 140th day of freedom. I will not tell you that it has been easy, It hasnÂ’t. I wonÂ’t tell you that I have struggled everyday, I havenÂ’t somedays have been easy others real bitches. I will tell you that the friendships that I have made here online will last a life time. The support that I have had and felt here is irreplaceable. Reaching out a helping hand to other addicts is also a very rewarding experience and takes oneÂ’s mind off their own struggle.
I'm Wade I'm 55 yrs. old, been married for 32 yrs., have 1 adult daughter and 2 grandkids, I farm in Idaho, have been addicted to Nicotine for almost 40 yrs. I can't count the times that I have attempted to quit. My Nicotine use was always ninja style, my wife caught me but no one else knew that I dipped. My life has been a miserable life of seclusion because I couldn't dip around others. Why? I grew up and have always been an active Mormon and my religion strictly prohibits the use of tobacco and alcohol. I just withdrew into my own little world with the whore. I honestly had given up hope of ever quitting; I hated what I had become so bad that I decided to give it one last shot. If it didn't happen I was prepared to just end everything (check out of life). I have dealt with depression all of my adult life and I always thought that the nicotine helped me deal with that. Not so it only contributed to the depression. After 140 days I have to say that my depression and anxiety have been very much under control. I had worked up a grand plan to quit, had put the plan into action and had a quit date planned. When I was searching for any other help that might make my quit successful I stumbled on to KTC, I joined on Mar. 28 and started reading for 2 nights I never slept, just read. My quit date was April 11 our 32 wedding anniversary. On April 1 at 1:30 am I sat by the toilet and cried like a baby as I dumped 3 full cans of copensnuff down the can. Somehow that night I knew that My QUIT was good it was for me, I hadn't even talked to my wife about trying to quit, she wouldn't have believed me any way. Now she is part of my quit.
Every morning I post my roll and promise everyone here that I will remain nic free, I also hold my lovely wife's hand and promise her that I will not use it that day. Now she asks me what day it is, how I'm feeling and if she can help. Before my tobacco use was taboo, off limits to talk about I didn't want to face the fact that I was an addict.
I have tried to share my story with each newbie as soon as they join and quit so most of you that quit since about April 15 have seen most of this but I have updated it to keep up with the changing times. I will continue to drop this intro into each newbies inbox along with the offer to trade #s with them.

You fugger....you made me tear up....just a bit though 'winker'

[Mthomas3824]

Wade, you continue to inspire me in my quit. Isn't it great to have the support of a loving spouse as you make your way on this journey?

For almost 30 years my wife and I played a little game - I hid my habit as best I could and she pretended not to notice. Now that I'm nic free - the wall that tobacco placed between us has been removed and my quit has brought us closer.

Thanks for sharing and, as always, I quit with you.

Me too. I realized after reading your post and swede....the tobacco wall is down and my relationships...especially with my wife and kids it so much better.

Kicking nicotine to the curb is worth the struggle. It is a struggle some days but most days for me....the nic bitch is a joke. I can't believe the power I gave her. I am dumbfounded that she ruled over me.

Anyone reading this post....if you are struggling. Fight through it and only worry about today. We are all addicts and get it.

However, I promise you, the life tobacco free beats any buzz it offers. Keep your money, Keep your happiness, claim your freedom and never ever go back to nicotine!

[Big Swede]

Wade, you continue to inspire me in my quit. Isn't it great to have the support of a loving spouse as you make your way on this journey?

For almost 30 years my wife and I played a little game - I hid my habit as best I could and she pretended not to notice. Now that I'm nic free - the wall that tobacco placed between us has been removed and my quit has brought us closer.

Thanks for sharing and, as always, I quit with you.

[Diesel2112]

I have revised this introduction to myself today my 140th day of freedom. I will not tell you that it has been easy, It hasnÂ’t. I wonÂ’t tell you that I have struggled everyday, I havenÂ’t somedays have been easy others real bitches. I will tell you that the friendships that I have made here online will last a life time. The support that I have had and felt here is irreplaceable. Reaching out a helping hand to other addicts is also a very rewarding experience and takes oneÂ’s mind off their own struggle.
I'm Wade I'm 55 yrs. old, been married for 32 yrs., have 1 adult daughter and 2 grandkids, I farm in Idaho, have been addicted to Nicotine for almost 40 yrs. I can't count the times that I have attempted to quit. My Nicotine use was always ninja style, my wife caught me but no one else knew that I dipped. My life has been a miserable life of seclusion because I couldn't dip around others. Why? I grew up and have always been an active Mormon and my religion strictly prohibits the use of tobacco and alcohol. I just withdrew into my own little world with the whore. I honestly had given up hope of ever quitting; I hated what I had become so bad that I decided to give it one last shot. If it didn't happen I was prepared to just end everything (check out of life). I have dealt with depression all of my adult life and I always thought that the nicotine helped me deal with that. Not so it only contributed to the depression. After 140 days I have to say that my depression and anxiety have been very much under control. I had worked up a grand plan to quit, had put the plan into action and had a quit date planned. When I was searching for any other help that might make my quit successful I stumbled on to KTC, I joined on Mar. 28 and started reading for 2 nights I never slept, just read. My quit date was April 11 our 32 wedding anniversary. On April 1 at 1:30 am I sat by the toilet and cried like a baby as I dumped 3 full cans of copensnuff down the can. Somehow that night I knew that My QUIT was good it was for me, I hadn't even talked to my wife about trying to quit, she wouldn't have believed me any way. Now she is part of my quit.
Every morning I post my roll and promise everyone here that I will remain nic free, I also hold my lovely wife's hand and promise her that I will not use it that day. Now she asks me what day it is, how I'm feeling and if she can help. Before my tobacco use was taboo, off limits to talk about I didn't want to face the fact that I was an addict.
I have tried to share my story with each newbie as soon as they join and quit so most of you that quit since about April 15 have seen most of this but I have updated it to keep up with the changing times. I will continue to drop this intro into each newbies inbox along with the offer to trade #s with them.

Keep up the great quit, WT. You've helped me out greatly as I struggled with my quit. I thank you for that. You're a great man and I admire how your quit is constantly evolving. Proud to be quit with you!

[Bigdave]

I have revised this introduction to myself today my 140th day of freedom. I will not tell you that it has been easy, It hasnÂ’t. I wonÂ’t tell you that I have struggled everyday, I havenÂ’t somedays have been easy others real bitches. I will tell you that the friendships that I have made here online will last a life time. The support that I have had and felt here is irreplaceable. Reaching out a helping hand to other addicts is also a very rewarding experience and takes oneÂ’s mind off their own struggle.
I'm Wade I'm 55 yrs. old, been married for 32 yrs., have 1 adult daughter and 2 grandkids, I farm in Idaho, have been addicted to Nicotine for almost 40 yrs. I can't count the times that I have attempted to quit. My Nicotine use was always ninja style, my wife caught me but no one else knew that I dipped. My life has been a miserable life of seclusion because I couldn't dip around others. Why? I grew up and have always been an active Mormon and my religion strictly prohibits the use of tobacco and alcohol. I just withdrew into my own little world with the whore. I honestly had given up hope of ever quitting; I hated what I had become so bad that I decided to give it one last shot. If it didn't happen I was prepared to just end everything (check out of life). I have dealt with depression all of my adult life and I always thought that the nicotine helped me deal with that. Not so it only contributed to the depression. After 140 days I have to say that my depression and anxiety have been very much under control. I had worked up a grand plan to quit, had put the plan into action and had a quit date planned. When I was searching for any other help that might make my quit successful I stumbled on to KTC, I joined on Mar. 28 and started reading for 2 nights I never slept, just read. My quit date was April 11 our 32 wedding anniversary. On April 1 at 1:30 am I sat by the toilet and cried like a baby as I dumped 3 full cans of copensnuff down the can. Somehow that night I knew that My QUIT was good it was for me, I hadn't even talked to my wife about trying to quit, she wouldn't have believed me any way. Now she is part of my quit.
Every morning I post my roll and promise everyone here that I will remain nic free, I also hold my lovely wife's hand and promise her that I will not use it that day. Now she asks me what day it is, how I'm feeling and if she can help. Before my tobacco use was taboo, off limits to talk about I didn't want to face the fact that I was an addict.
I have tried to share my story with each newbie as soon as they join and quit so most of you that quit since about April 15 have seen most of this but I have updated it to keep up with the changing times. I will continue to drop this intro into each newbies inbox along with the offer to trade #s with them.

Good stuff WT..proud to be quit with you. How many acres do you own/farm?

[Wt57]

I have revised this introduction to myself today my 140th day of freedom. I will not tell you that it has been easy, It hasnÂ’t. I wonÂ’t tell you that I have struggled everyday, I havenÂ’t somedays have been easy others real bitches. I will tell you that the friendships that I have made here online will last a life time. The support that I have had and felt here is irreplaceable. Reaching out a helping hand to other addicts is also a very rewarding experience and takes oneÂ’s mind off their own struggle.
I'm Wade I'm 55 yrs. old, been married for 32 yrs., have 1 adult daughter and 2 grandkids, I farm in Idaho, have been addicted to Nicotine for almost 40 yrs. I can't count the times that I have attempted to quit. My Nicotine use was always ninja style, my wife caught me but no one else knew that I dipped. My life has been a miserable life of seclusion because I couldn't dip around others. Why? I grew up and have always been an active Mormon and my religion strictly prohibits the use of tobacco and alcohol. I just withdrew into my own little world with the whore. I honestly had given up hope of ever quitting; I hated what I had become so bad that I decided to give it one last shot. If it didn't happen I was prepared to just end everything (check out of life). I have dealt with depression all of my adult life and I always thought that the nicotine helped me deal with that. Not so it only contributed to the depression. After 140 days I have to say that my depression and anxiety have been very much under control. I had worked up a grand plan to quit, had put the plan into action and had a quit date planned. When I was searching for any other help that might make my quit successful I stumbled on to KTC, I joined on Mar. 28 and started reading for 2 nights I never slept, just read. My quit date was April 11 our 32 wedding anniversary. On April 1 at 1:30 am I sat by the toilet and cried like a baby as I dumped 3 full cans of copensnuff down the can. Somehow that night I knew that My QUIT was good it was for me, I hadn't even talked to my wife about trying to quit, she wouldn't have believed me any way. Now she is part of my quit.
Every morning I post my roll and promise everyone here that I will remain nic free, I also hold my lovely wife's hand and promise her that I will not use it that day. Now she asks me what day it is, how I'm feeling and if she can help. Before my tobacco use was taboo, off limits to talk about I didn't want to face the fact that I was an addict.
I have tried to share my story with each newbie as soon as they join and quit so most of you that quit since about April 15 have seen most of this but I have updated it to keep up with the changing times. I will continue to drop this intro into each newbies inbox along with the offer to trade #s with them.

[TSNUS]

WHY QUIT.


My motivation to quit has been completely unrelated to the fear of cancer.  I’ve lived a life of very deep depression and used the chew as a way to cope with life, I thought.  Not so: my addiction has proved to do just the opposite it has made me even more depressed because I always tried to hide it from my family and friends.  Yes I’ve been a ninja dipper for almost 40 yrs.  Over the past 3 weeks I have found that I am finally free of my secret life and open to talk about my addiction with you and my family.  My depression is leaving me each day a little at a time as I quit each day.
I feel a profound obligation to do anything that I can to help younger addicts quit while they are still young.  I don’t want to see anyone be as stupid as I have been!  I don’t care what your motivation is if you have quit stay quit with me!!  If you are reading this and haven’t quit,  throw that shit away and run to post your quit NOW.  There are always reasons to wait until tomorrow, but tomorrow never comes it just move on to the next tomorrow. I know this better than anyone I've had over 13,000 tomorrows.  But now I've had 22 todays, I dont want to look back or ahead all that is important to me right now is TODAY and I QUIT AGAIN!!!!

WT thanks for sharing your story with us, it hits really close to home for me and helped me with my quit.

Thanks a million and we stand quit right beside you!

[Souliman]

Predator and Prey

A predator is one that preys on the weak, vulnerable or unexpecting. Today I was observing coyotes searching for mice. Other times I've seen wolves surrounding elk or deer. What does this have to do with DIP?
Big tabacco and the nic bitch are PREDATORS! Most of us were prey captured in a weak and vulnerable time in our lives we were caught off guard and had no idea what the final outcome of that first dip would be.
Once captured our predator toyed with us. We were lead to believe we were safe, our lives weren't in danger and that we could get up and walk away at anytime. Then the day came we tried! The predator allowed us to get a short distance away and then jerked us back into her grip and control! (who has watched a cat play with a mouse) that is how I feel my relationship with the predatory nic bitch has been.
Experiences I've had lately have made me realize eventhough I'm quit and quite a ways from the evil bitch I am not out of her reach! I see her lurking and watching me. I know where she is and where I am. My goal is to keep extending the distance between us until I have her far enough away that I feel somewhat safe. In the meantime I will keep my eye on the cover and protection I've been building. (contacts, daily promises and the confidence I feel in winning daily battles)
I look forward to the day that our roles reverse and I'm no longer the prey but the predator and I'm stronger than nicotine! I see we are circling each other and neither knows who is the stronger! Alone I'm still the prey but with you we can join forces and out wit and overcome our addiction to nicotine. There is no reason any of us 1 day or 2000 days should have to see if we are the predator yet we have our own pack that has the strength in numbers! Just as a group of animals fighting their prey if one goes it on his own or let's his guard down the predator will see the weakness and be ready to pounce!
If we put our backs together and look out for each other this WAR is won! Our individual victories are shared and we become a vicious nicotine predator.

Right on. Yes. That's the fucking enemy man. Fight. Plan. Protect.

I quit with you today bro.

[Wt57]

Predator and Prey

A predator is one that preys on the weak, vulnerable or unexpecting. Today I was observing coyotes searching for mice. Other times I've seen wolves surrounding elk or deer. What does this have to do with DIP?
Big tabacco and the nic bitch are PREDATORS! Most of us were prey captured in a weak and vulnerable time in our lives we were caught off guard and had no idea what the final outcome of that first dip would be.
Once captured our predator toyed with us. We were lead to believe we were safe, our lives weren't in danger and that we could get up and walk away at anytime. Then the day came we tried! The predator allowed us to get a short distance away and then jerked us back into her grip and control! (who has watched a cat play with a mouse) that is how I feel my relationship with the predatory nic bitch has been.
Experiences I've had lately have made me realize eventhough I'm quit and quite a ways from the evil bitch I am not out of her reach! I see her lurking and watching me. I know where she is and where I am. My goal is to keep extending the distance between us until I have her far enough away that I feel somewhat safe. In the meantime I will keep my eye on the cover and protection I've been building. (contacts, daily promises and the confidence I feel in winning daily battles)
I look forward to the day that our roles reverse and I'm no longer the prey but the predator and I'm stronger than nicotine! I see we are circling each other and neither knows who is the stronger! Alone I'm still the prey but with you we can join forces and out wit and overcome our addiction to nicotine. There is no reason any of us 1 day or 2000 days should have to see if we are the predator yet we have our own pack that has the strength in numbers! Just as a group of animals fighting their prey if one goes it on his own or let's his guard down the predator will see the weakness and be ready to pounce!
If we put our backs together and look out for each other this WAR is won! Our individual victories are shared and we become a vicious nicotine predator.

[Diesel2112]

Friends it has been almost 2 weeks since I changed my quit plan. I have been in a real healing process and adjustment to myself. Quitting is a much deeper process than just quiting nicotine. I have known for a long time how addicted I was to nicotine and how my addiction effected my life in so many ways.
In reality
I didn't have a clue! Every aspect of my life was controlled by my addiction. I have been a slave for nearly 40 yrs.
I avoided making friends or being around people because I would have to share time with them, that could be devoted to nicotine. So I find I really don't have friends.
I avoided my church family because my religion (LDS) doesn't tolerate alcohol or tobacco use. And my embarrassment of getting caught or to admit I wasn't living my own beliefs was more than I could face.
I've avoided family in favor of the bitch! And find that I have not developed those lasting relationships with close family members.
And on and on and on!!! You can fill the list with your own life experience.

Well the point of my post is to tell everyone how much I appreciate your support and that I'm again making adjustments to my quit to include offering more support to you like I did in the past. I realize that I need to reach out and offer help if I expect you to be there for me. I will try to avoid controversial comments that have no real positive effect on quitting. I will continue to point out areas where we do or say stupid things that should be obvious. I expect your support to continue only as I support you.

You da man WT!!! You helped me out a TON when I was really struggling. Anytime u need me, I'm here for you bro! I enjoy beating down the nic bitch with you daily!!!!

[Roamcountry]

Friends it has been almost 2 weeks since I changed my quit plan.  I have been in a real healing process and adjustment to myself.  Quitting is a much deeper process than just quiting nicotine.  I have known for a long time how addicted I was to nicotine and how my addiction effected my life in so many ways.
In reality
I didn't have a clue!  Every aspect of my life was controlled by my addiction.  I have been a slave for nearly 40 yrs.
I avoided making friends or being around people because I would have to share time with them, that could be devoted to nicotine. So I find I really don't have friends.
I avoided my church family because my religion (LDS)  doesn't tolerate alcohol or tobacco use.  And my embarrassment of getting caught or to admit I wasn't living my own beliefs was more than I could face.
I've avoided family in favor of the bitch! And find that I have not developed those lasting relationships with close family members.
And on and on and on!!!  You can fill the list with your own life experience.

Well the point of my post is to tell everyone how much I appreciate your support and that I'm again making adjustments to my quit to include offering more support to you like I did in the past.  I realize that I need to reach out and offer help if I expect you to be there for me.  I will try to avoid controversial comments that have no real positive effect on quitting. I will continue to point out areas where we do or say stupid things that should be obvious. I expect your support to continue only as I support you.

'Kiss'

[Wt57]

Friends it has been almost 2 weeks since I changed my quit plan. I have been in a real healing process and adjustment to myself. Quitting is a much deeper process than just quiting nicotine. I have known for a long time how addicted I was to nicotine and how my addiction effected my life in so many ways.
In reality
I didn't have a clue! Every aspect of my life was controlled by my addiction. I have been a slave for nearly 40 yrs.
I avoided making friends or being around people because I would have to share time with them, that could be devoted to nicotine. So I find I really don't have friends.
I avoided my church family because my religion (LDS) doesn't tolerate alcohol or tobacco use. And my embarrassment of getting caught or to admit I wasn't living my own beliefs was more than I could face.
I've avoided family in favor of the bitch! And find that I have not developed those lasting relationships with close family members.
And on and on and on!!! You can fill the list with your own life experience.

Well the point of my post is to tell everyone how much I appreciate your support and that I'm again making adjustments to my quit to include offering more support to you like I did in the past. I realize that I need to reach out and offer help if I expect you to be there for me. I will try to avoid controversial comments that have no real positive effect on quitting. I will continue to point out areas where we do or say stupid things that should be obvious. I expect your support to continue only as I support you.