My good cave

[Wt57]

I had an experience today that I feel that I need to comment on: Last week I learned of a seminar that I could go to that would further some education requirements that I needed for a license that I currently hold. This class was about 3 hrs from home, and would be with a group of people that I knew would consist of a large percent of dippers. At first I thought of and entertained the thought of a planned cave. I thought of it for several days, and then I had a dip dream about the day.
Today was the day of the class. As today became closer I fantasised about a dip.
I had thoughts, that know one would know, etc. Then last night I realized that I would be letting myself down and that I would also be letting all my quit friends down as well.
I had to leave early this morning and I posted my promise to each of you that I would return still quit, I held my wife's hand and told her of the thoughts that I had had and I promised her that I would return quit. I knew that most of the travel time would be completely out of cell coverage and I wasn't sure if when I got to the class if there would be cell coverage or wifi. There was both, but didn't need them for my quit, even though I did make some contacts and reported to some of my quit buddies.
The whole experience turned into one of the most strengthening events of my quit. I got to the town early and filled with gas and got a pop; the cans behind the counter repulsed me. Part of our class was outside in a parking lot doing some hands on work. I stood by a teenage little prick that packed a tiny little pinch in his lip, that he bumped from a friend. He could hardly keep from gagging, and he continually spit at our feet. If he missed a spit you could see his face turn green. I kept thinking did I smell like this little prick all the time, it was gross.
Everything about today strengthened my quit. Then when I headed home I sent my wife a text that we got out early. She texted back "buckle your seat belt and stay quit". One of the best things about my quit is the relationship with my lovely wife who has put up with my bullshit dipping for 32 yrs.
Thanks to all of those that were with me today in my quit.
I DID RETURN WITH HONOR TODAY!!!

[Suck-It]

This past week has sucked!  I've been really down deep in a funk!  I've witnessed things on KTC that have bothered me.  My quit has been strong until Friday when I had a bad dip dream, followed by entertaining the bitch in a plan to cave. I remain faithful to my word, still quit.   For 58 days I have been drinking deep of the quit koolaid.  But now I realize that what some see as acceptable doesn't necessarily meet my criteria (that is fine, we are all different) I wouldn't want us to all be the same.  And my standards are mine, not yours and I would never push mine on you, or never consider myself better than another.   For my quit to work for me I need to do something different than I have been doing.  For me to honor my quit and my fellow quitters, I need to honor my beliefs and standards; that is my definition of integrity.  And I have been continually telling new quitters the importance of integrity, and then turning around and being a hypocrite.  Each day from this day forth I'm going to try harder to increase my integrity.  My new Motto will be: Quit With Integrity Now, QWIN!
I have no intentions to put anyone except myself down in this post.  I have been less than honest with myself, and I feel a need to be honest to make my quit have true integrity and lasting power.  Please accept my apology if I have offended anyone over the past 58 days, I would never intentionally do that.  I also wish to thank everyone for their support and strength that has gotten me this far.  I hope everyone will feel welcome to reach to me for help and in return I need your help when I'm weak (most of the time).  KTC has been and is truly the greatest blessing to come my way in a very long time.  I QWIN

Stay strong brother this ride is so similiar to a roller coaster its horrible!

The ups are great and the downs suck something awful, but I promise stay quit and regaining your freedom from the can is the one of the sweetest victories!!!

Stay focused and stay QUIT brother!

WT-

You may be experiencing a combination of things - the maturing of a quit - a number of blowouts on the site - conflict issues on the site you may not be in favor of, the dreaded 60 day funk -

Quit is highly personal but it can be greatly effected when foundatational arguements come into play

Rule 1 - Always protect your quit

Rule 2 - Fulfill your promise daily

Rule 3 - Positively impact the quit of another -

Rule 4- repeat tomorrow

Hey brother - you are doing great and have been. I agree with Cbird - protect and defend your quit. Do not worry about others, do not worry about or get involved in the drama if it effects you in a negative way. Defend and protect your quit. Post roll everyday, and help others who WANT to be helped. You can try all you want on some, there are some who don't want the help.

Hang in there brother, like I typed up earlier - I had a shitty day 76 - was on the edge but made it through. I felt great the next day because I did not cave, I beat it - but not ALONE. There are a few close to me that pulled me through. Find those few and lean on them heavy in times of need. There are a lot of damn good quitters on here but you need to find that few guys who will be there no matter what and are constantly looking out for you. You either already know who they are or need to keep searching for them but narrow it down and lean on those guys and help those guys.

You can do this and enjoy it but, you still have some serious battles in front of you. We all do. I plan to beat them with the support of this site, and with the help from my quit brothers. Continue to post and share cause that helps us all. It is important for you to know that there are battles ahead so you can be prepared for them - but by posting your struggles you are also preparing guys with less days than you to prepare for a possible funk in the 50's. You are helping others and maybe didn't mean to.

Keep up the great work and I QWIN with you today.

[cbird65]

This past week has sucked!  I've been really down deep in a funk!  I've witnessed things on KTC that have bothered me.  My quit has been strong until Friday when I had a bad dip dream, followed by entertaining the bitch in a plan to cave. I remain faithful to my word, still quit.  For 58 days I have been drinking deep of the quit koolaid.  But now I realize that what some see as acceptable doesn't necessarily meet my criteria (that is fine, we are all different) I wouldn't want us to all be the same.  And my standards are mine, not yours and I would never push mine on you, or never consider myself better than another.  For my quit to work for me I need to do something different than I have been doing.  For me to honor my quit and my fellow quitters, I need to honor my beliefs and standards; that is my definition of integrity.  And I have been continually telling new quitters the importance of integrity, and then turning around and being a hypocrite.  Each day from this day forth I'm going to try harder to increase my integrity.  My new Motto will be: Quit With Integrity Now, QWIN!
I have no intentions to put anyone except myself down in this post.  I have been less than honest with myself, and I feel a need to be honest to make my quit have true integrity and lasting power.  Please accept my apology if I have offended anyone over the past 58 days, I would never intentionally do that.  I also wish to thank everyone for their support and strength that has gotten me this far.  I hope everyone will feel welcome to reach to me for help and in return I need your help when I'm weak (most of the time).  KTC has been and is truly the greatest blessing to come my way in a very long time.  I QWIN

Stay strong brother this ride is so similiar to a roller coaster its horrible!

The ups are great and the downs suck something awful, but I promise stay quit and regaining your freedom from the can is the one of the sweetest victories!!!

Stay focused and stay QUIT brother!

WT-

You may be experiencing a combination of things - the maturing of a quit - a number of blowouts on the site - conflict issues on the site you may not be in favor of, the dreaded 60 day funk -

Quit is highly personal but it can be greatly effected when foundatational arguements come into play

Rule 1 - Always protect your quit

Rule 2 - Fulfill your promise daily

Rule 3 - Positively impact the quit of another -

Rule 4- repeat tomorrow

[Grizzly25]

This past week has sucked! I've been really down deep in a funk! I've witnessed things on KTC that have bothered me. My quit has been strong until Friday when I had a bad dip dream, followed by entertaining the bitch in a plan to cave. I remain faithful to my word, still quit. For 58 days I have been drinking deep of the quit koolaid. But now I realize that what some see as acceptable doesn't necessarily meet my criteria (that is fine, we are all different) I wouldn't want us to all be the same. And my standards are mine, not yours and I would never push mine on you, or never consider myself better than another. For my quit to work for me I need to do something different than I have been doing. For me to honor my quit and my fellow quitters, I need to honor my beliefs and standards; that is my definition of integrity. And I have been continually telling new quitters the importance of integrity, and then turning around and being a hypocrite. Each day from this day forth I'm going to try harder to increase my integrity. My new Motto will be: Quit With Integrity Now, QWIN!
I have no intentions to put anyone except myself down in this post. I have been less than honest with myself, and I feel a need to be honest to make my quit have true integrity and lasting power. Please accept my apology if I have offended anyone over the past 58 days, I would never intentionally do that. I also wish to thank everyone for their support and strength that has gotten me this far. I hope everyone will feel welcome to reach to me for help and in return I need your help when I'm weak (most of the time). KTC has been and is truly the greatest blessing to come my way in a very long time. I QWIN

Stay strong brother this ride is so similiar to a roller coaster its horrible!

The ups are great and the downs suck something awful, but I promise stay quit and regaining your freedom from the can is the one of the sweetest victories!!!

Stay focused and stay QUIT brother!

[Wt57]

This past week has sucked! I've been really down deep in a funk! I've witnessed things on KTC that have bothered me. My quit has been strong until Friday when I had a bad dip dream, followed by entertaining the bitch in a plan to cave. I remain faithful to my word, still quit. For 58 days I have been drinking deep of the quit koolaid. But now I realize that what some see as acceptable doesn't necessarily meet my criteria (that is fine, we are all different) I wouldn't want us to all be the same. And my standards are mine, not yours and I would never push mine on you, or never consider myself better than another. For my quit to work for me I need to do something different than I have been doing. For me to honor my quit and my fellow quitters, I need to honor my beliefs and standards; that is my definition of integrity. And I have been continually telling new quitters the importance of integrity, and then turning around and being a hypocrite. Each day from this day forth I'm going to try harder to increase my integrity. My new Motto will be: Quit With Integrity Now, QWIN!
I have no intentions to put anyone except myself down in this post. I have been less than honest with myself, and I feel a need to be honest to make my quit have true integrity and lasting power. Please accept my apology if I have offended anyone over the past 58 days, I would never intentionally do that. I also wish to thank everyone for their support and strength that has gotten me this far. I hope everyone will feel welcome to reach to me for help and in return I need your help when I'm weak (most of the time). KTC has been and is truly the greatest blessing to come my way in a very long time. I QWIN

[Grizzly25]

Hang in there WT - the funks suck but they do pass. I think around day 76 I had a major what the fuck, who cares kinda day - the worst day yet. But, I woke up on Friday and felt great. It had passed. I know I would have felt like shit, worse than I did on 76 if I would have caved. Keep pushing through and stay quit - once you come out of the fog you will feel so much better than you did heading into it. It will strengthen your quit.

Keep grinding it out - you are a Badass Quitter

I will second that!

Stay Focused
Stay Strong
Stay QUIT!!!

Funks are nic's last ditch effort to reclaim you....dont let that happen stay the course and grow from it!

[Suck-It]

Hang in there WT - the funks suck but they do pass. I think around day 76 I had a major what the fuck, who cares kinda day - the worst day yet. But, I woke up on Friday and felt great. It had passed. I know I would have felt like shit, worse than I did on 76 if I would have caved. Keep pushing through and stay quit - once you come out of the fog you will feel so much better than you did heading into it. It will strengthen your quit.

Keep grinding it out - you are a Badass Quitter

[carumba10]

Day 53 Blah Blah Blah!!!
I don't know rather the feelings I'm having are quit related or not.  I've just been feeling rather down and don't give a shit attitude (not my quit it is still #1).    I was taking a short break from work and I just fell asleep, now before I get back to work I thought that I'd pose a question:  As we reprogram our lives to live without Nicotine -------------Hell I don't even know what I want to ask.  I feel like I'm back in the 1st week fog.  Does anyone else have this big funk around day 50???  Any ideas of how to shake it??  I don't even want to spend that much time here online, and that has been a huge part of my life and quit for the past 50 days!!

I have some great news for you WT, this is absolutely normal! You are well on your way to a pain free and funk free quit. I had some real bad funks through day 220+/- but haven't had any since (but know there will be more occational funks in the future). The "I don't give a shits" will pass.

-NDY 267 days of freedom

notdead you really know how to give a guy hope-----220 days! Thats only another 170 or so days 'impatient'

I know it will pass just needed to piss and moan!!

Sorry man, no magic pills to make it go away. Who's the dumbass that put that shit in their body for over 38 years? - YOU (and me!) Seems like I got off easy with only 220 days. But it's never really over, just easier. How about you just think about today. Pissing and moaning actually helps a ton. Anything to distract the funk. Go see a movie (I recommend the Dictator, but don't see it with your wife)

You are right about who put the shit in my body. I hate that prick! But I love the one that has said no more.

I had a nasty 50 day funk, but wt, if it helps you to know, I haven't funked since. The "usual" funk times were when I started working out and jogging, and I truly credit that to the lack of funks. Just somethin to keep in mind

Not sure what you are trying to say.

[Bruce]

Day 53 Blah Blah Blah!!!
I don't know rather the feelings I'm having are quit related or not.  I've just been feeling rather down and don't give a shit attitude (not my quit it is still #1).    I was taking a short break from work and I just fell asleep, now before I get back to work I thought that I'd pose a question:  As we reprogram our lives to live without Nicotine -------------Hell I don't even know what I want to ask.  I feel like I'm back in the 1st week fog.  Does anyone else have this big funk around day 50???  Any ideas of how to shake it??  I don't even want to spend that much time here online, and that has been a huge part of my life and quit for the past 50 days!!

I have some great news for you WT, this is absolutely normal! You are well on your way to a pain free and funk free quit. I had some real bad funks through day 220+/- but haven't had any since (but know there will be more occational funks in the future). The "I don't give a shits" will pass.

-NDY 267 days of freedom

notdead you really know how to give a guy hope-----220 days! Thats only another 170 or so days 'impatient'

I know it will pass just needed to piss and moan!!

Sorry man, no magic pills to make it go away. Who's the dumbass that put that shit in their body for over 38 years? - YOU (and me!) Seems like I got off easy with only 220 days. But it's never really over, just easier. How about you just think about today. Pissing and moaning actually helps a ton. Anything to distract the funk. Go see a movie (I recommend the Dictator, but don't see it with your wife)

You are right about who put the shit in my body. I hate that prick! But I love the one that has said no more.

I had a nasty 50 day funk, but wt, if it helps you to know, I haven't funked since. The "usual" funk times were when I started working out and jogging, and I truly credit that to the lack of funks. Just somethin to keep in mind

[Wt57]

Day 53 Blah Blah Blah!!!
I don't know rather the feelings I'm having are quit related or not.  I've just been feeling rather down and don't give a shit attitude (not my quit it is still #1).    I was taking a short break from work and I just fell asleep, now before I get back to work I thought that I'd pose a question:  As we reprogram our lives to live without Nicotine -------------Hell I don't even know what I want to ask.  I feel like I'm back in the 1st week fog.  Does anyone else have this big funk around day 50???  Any ideas of how to shake it??  I don't even want to spend that much time here online, and that has been a huge part of my life and quit for the past 50 days!!

I have some great news for you WT, this is absolutely normal! You are well on your way to a pain free and funk free quit. I had some real bad funks through day 220+/- but haven't had any since (but know there will be more occational funks in the future). The "I don't give a shits" will pass.

-NDY 267 days of freedom

notdead you really know how to give a guy hope-----220 days! Thats only another 170 or so days 'impatient'

I know it will pass just needed to piss and moan!!

Sorry man, no magic pills to make it go away. Who's the dumbass that put that shit in their body for over 38 years? - YOU (and me!) Seems like I got off easy with only 220 days. But it's never really over, just easier. How about you just think about today. Pissing and moaning actually helps a ton. Anything to distract the funk. Go see a movie (I recommend the Dictator, but don't see it with your wife)

You are right about who put the shit in my body. I hate that prick! But I love the one that has said no more.

[Notdeadyet]

Day 53 Blah Blah Blah!!!
I don't know rather the feelings I'm having are quit related or not.  I've just been feeling rather down and don't give a shit attitude (not my quit it is still #1).    I was taking a short break from work and I just fell asleep, now before I get back to work I thought that I'd pose a question:  As we reprogram our lives to live without Nicotine -------------Hell I don't even know what I want to ask.  I feel like I'm back in the 1st week fog.  Does anyone else have this big funk around day 50???  Any ideas of how to shake it??  I don't even want to spend that much time here online, and that has been a huge part of my life and quit for the past 50 days!!

I have some great news for you WT, this is absolutely normal! You are well on your way to a pain free and funk free quit. I had some real bad funks through day 220+/- but haven't had any since (but know there will be more occational funks in the future). The "I don't give a shits" will pass.

-NDY 267 days of freedom

notdead you really know how to give a guy hope-----220 days! Thats only another 170 or so days 'impatient'

I know it will pass just needed to piss and moan!!

Sorry man, no magic pills to make it go away. Who's the dumbass that put that shit in their body for over 38 years? - YOU (and me!) Seems like I got off easy with only 220 days. But it's never really over, just easier. How about you just think about today. Pissing and moaning actually helps a ton. Anything to distract the funk. Go see a movie (I recommend the Dictator, but don't see it with your wife)

[Mthomas3824]

Day 53 Blah Blah Blah!!!
I don't know rather the feelings I'm having are quit related or not. I've just been feeling rather down and don't give a shit attitude (not my quit it is still #1). I was taking a short break from work and I just fell asleep, now before I get back to work I thought that I'd pose a question: As we reprogram our lives to live without Nicotine -------------Hell I don't even know what I want to ask. I feel like I'm back in the 1st week fog. Does anyone else have this big funk around day 50??? Any ideas of how to shake it?? I don't even want to spend that much time here online, and that has been a huge part of my life and quit for the past 50 days!!

Day 71 and I feel it too. I actually just felt pretty good hitting the hump day. I was a late bloomer in life so I probably am a late bloomer in my quit. All I can say is you are not alone in this. I have felt this way since Friday.

My short term memory is bad, when I get home from work, there is tons of things to do but I just go get into bed and watch tv.

I only know that I have been through this before so it is just another temporary phase.

The tongue thing, I am at a loss. I have nothing like that and never did. Have you started taking or eating anything like fruit since your quit that is different. Maybe it is an allergic reaction. When I eat honeydew Mellon my mouth itches. Maybe you started something in your quit that your mouth has a reaction to?

Just a thought.

[Wt57]

Day 53 Blah Blah Blah!!!
I don't know rather the feelings I'm having are quit related or not.  I've just been feeling rather down and don't give a shit attitude (not my quit it is still #1).    I was taking a short break from work and I just fell asleep, now before I get back to work I thought that I'd pose a question:  As we reprogram our lives to live without Nicotine -------------Hell I don't even know what I want to ask.  I feel like I'm back in the 1st week fog.  Does anyone else have this big funk around day 50???  Any ideas of how to shake it??  I don't even want to spend that much time here online, and that has been a huge part of my life and quit for the past 50 days!!

I have some great news for you WT, this is absolutely normal! You are well on your way to a pain free and funk free quit. I had some real bad funks through day 220+/- but haven't had any since (but know there will be more occational funks in the future). The "I don't give a shits" will pass.

-NDY 267 days of freedom

notdead you really know how to give a guy hope-----220 days! Thats only another 170 or so days 'impatient'

I know it will pass just needed to piss and moan!!

[Notdeadyet]

Day 53 Blah Blah Blah!!!
I don't know rather the feelings I'm having are quit related or not.  I've just been feeling rather down and don't give a shit attitude (not my quit it is still #1).    I was taking a short break from work and I just fell asleep, now before I get back to work I thought that I'd pose a question:  As we reprogram our lives to live without Nicotine -------------Hell I don't even know what I want to ask.  I feel like I'm back in the 1st week fog.  Does anyone else have this big funk around day 50???  Any ideas of how to shake it??  I don't even want to spend that much time here online, and that has been a huge part of my life and quit for the past 50 days!!

I have some great news for you WT, this is absolutely normal! You are well on your way to a pain free and funk free quit. I had some real bad funks through day 220+/- but haven't had any since (but know there will be more occational funks in the future). The "I don't give a shits" will pass.

-NDY 267 days of freedom

[Wt57]

Day 53 Blah Blah Blah!!!
I don't know rather the feelings I'm having are quit related or not. I've just been feeling rather down and don't give a shit attitude (not my quit it is still #1). I was taking a short break from work and I just fell asleep, now before I get back to work I thought that I'd pose a question: As we reprogram our lives to live without Nicotine -------------Hell I don't even know what I want to ask. I feel like I'm back in the 1st week fog. Does anyone else have this big funk around day 50??? Any ideas of how to shake it?? I don't even want to spend that much time here online, and that has been a huge part of my life and quit for the past 50 days!!