My good cave

[carumba10]

My dilemma has been that in the whole scheme of my quit, the closer I get to HOF, I am becoming underwhelmed by it.

It does seem a little underwhelming at times. Maybe that's a good thing ? Good job hanging tough.

[Souliman]

My dilemma has been that in the whole scheme of my quit, the closer I get to HOF, I am becoming underwhelmed by it.

I can relate WT. There are times when I am totally underwhelmed by it because it is in fact, just another day. No different than any other day remaining in my life, a day where I must be quit one day at a time. I think many people feel that way. Then, at other times, I look forward to it with great anticipation. That usually happens when I am overwhelmed by how happy I am to be quit and how much better life is being quit.

Thanks for sharing your trepidation about your feelings for 100 days. I have that same feeling sometimes and your conclusion is right. Focus on today. If you stay quit, then that is worthy of celebration.

Great words guys!

I have made the HOF just this past Wednesday adn the funny thing is .... well while its a great milestone and somewhat of a good accomplishment it is in fact just another day.

We are all addicts and will need this site and its accountability many more times after the we hit the hall!

I remember a quote "You are not here on accident" It is very true for all of us!

Stay focused and enjoy the accomplishment, dont let the sneaky nic bitch creep into your hear and try to down play your accomplishment!

Quit on QUITERS!!!!

It is in fact just another day, no more important or no less important then yesterday or tomorrow. Some people, like myself, need these milestones for an extra motivation. I did my HoF up right, wrote the speech, bought the coin, a wristband and when I hit the second floor, you can bet your ass I'm getting the 200 chip! It's all how you look at it, don't get complacent with your quit, that's why I look forward to these milestone days personally.

Just throwing a couple pennies...

I truly look at each day as a milestone. Its a day where I can face my addiction in the eyes and say I'm stronger than you. I have control over my body and mind. No longer am I complacent. Posting roll each day really feels like screaming "I QUIT" from the top of a building. Traffic stops. Birds get distracted and crash in buildings. Children drop their ice cream cones. That's right bitches. I own this day. Its mine. Day 1 is a tremendous accomplishment. The power in putting down your word and believing with all your being that you can fight through the pain, that you are strong enough, no matter what, to find a way to keep your word is amazing. Its just as much an accomplishment as day 100. Keep fighting.

[Bruce]

My dilemma has been that in the whole scheme of my quit, the closer I get to HOF, I am becoming underwhelmed by it.

I can relate WT. There are times when I am totally underwhelmed by it because it is in fact, just another day. No different than any other day remaining in my life, a day where I must be quit one day at a time. I think many people feel that way. Then, at other times, I look forward to it with great anticipation. That usually happens when I am overwhelmed by how happy I am to be quit and how much better life is being quit.

Thanks for sharing your trepidation about your feelings for 100 days. I have that same feeling sometimes and your conclusion is right. Focus on today. If you stay quit, then that is worthy of celebration.

Great words guys!

I have made the HOF just this past Wednesday adn the funny thing is .... well while its a great milestone and somewhat of a good accomplishment it is in fact just another day.

We are all addicts and will need this site and its accountability many more times after the we hit the hall!

I remember a quote "You are not here on accident" It is very true for all of us!

Stay focused and enjoy the accomplishment, dont let the sneaky nic bitch creep into your hear and try to down play your accomplishment!

Quit on QUITERS!!!!

It is in fact just another day, no more important or no less important then yesterday or tomorrow. Some people, like myself, need these milestones for an extra motivation. I did my HoF up right, wrote the speech, bought the coin, a wristband and when I hit the second floor, you can bet your ass I'm getting the 200 chip! It's all how you look at it, don't get complacent with your quit, that's why I look forward to these milestone days personally.

[Grizzly25]

My dilemma has been that in the whole scheme of my quit, the closer I get to HOF, I am becoming underwhelmed by it.

I can relate WT. There are times when I am totally underwhelmed by it because it is in fact, just another day. No different than any other day remaining in my life, a day where I must be quit one day at a time. I think many people feel that way. Then, at other times, I look forward to it with great anticipation. That usually happens when I am overwhelmed by how happy I am to be quit and how much better life is being quit.

Thanks for sharing your trepidation about your feelings for 100 days. I have that same feeling sometimes and your conclusion is right. Focus on today. If you stay quit, then that is worthy of celebration.

Great words guys!

I have made the HOF just this past Wednesday adn the funny thing is .... well while its a great milestone and somewhat of a good accomplishment it is in fact just another day.

We are all addicts and will need this site and its accountability many more times after the we hit the hall!

I remember a quote "You are not here on accident" It is very true for all of us!

Stay focused and enjoy the accomplishment, dont let the sneaky nic bitch creep into your hear and try to down play your accomplishment!

Quit on QUITERS!!!!

[rangy96]

My dilemma has been that in the whole scheme of my quit, the closer I get to HOF, I am becoming underwhelmed by it.

I can relate WT. There are times when I am totally underwhelmed by it because it is in fact, just another day. No different than any other day remaining in my life, a day where I must be quit one day at a time. I think many people feel that way. Then, at other times, I look forward to it with great anticipation. That usually happens when I am overwhelmed by how happy I am to be quit and how much better life is being quit.

Thanks for sharing your trepidation about your feelings for 100 days. I have that same feeling sometimes and your conclusion is right. Focus on today. If you stay quit, then that is worthy of celebration.

[Wt57]

Day 50 a road marker? Day 100 a milestone? 1 year another milestone?

These questions have been plaguing my mind this week. I have been comparing my quit to my life.

Life.......................Quit
Birth-------------------Day 1-------------- a beginning
1st steps--------------Day 50-------------a good start
1st day of school-----Day 100-----------a road marker
Out on your own-----1 yr-----------------a milestone
marriage  kids-----
Grandkids-------------
Retirement------------


Death------------------Death(still quit)--------------Triumph


My dilemma has been that in the whole scheme of my quit, the closer I get to HOF, I am becoming underwhelmed by it. I don't know what the life expectancy of a quit addict in my demographics is, I have longevity genes so lets say 80 yrs old. That means that I am way past 1/2 way to DEAD. I have had many side trips, detours, road markers and milestones in my life. Today I consider 50 days ago (the day I quit) as one of the milestones in my life that I will cherish with some of the bigger events in my life (such as marriage, birth of daughter, birth of grandkids etc.). If I put myself at the end, at death, I don't think day 50 or day 100 will even be listed on the event calendar, Maybe I'm wrong but I don't think so.
Looking down the road into the future has been one of the more difficult aspects to deal with in my quit! When I think long term I "CAVE". I'm strong, my quit is strong, I'm gaining something I've never had "integrity", I will not cave if I continue to quit 1 day at a time.
Another scary aspect of 50 or 100 days quit is when I compare it to the past: I've been a addict for over 14,000 days I've been alive a little over 20,000 days. Compare that to 100 days-----not even a drop in the bucket. So another lesson to be learned the past can also be overwhelming, thinking of it sows seeds of "CAVE".
My conclusion is: THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS IS TODAY.

[Suck-It]

One of the faithful quitters that I look up to for support in my QUIT is MThomas, He often says that he had a "ah ha moment".

Well I just got in from a long day and have been trying to avoid thinking past today, (for some reason this is a real problem for me). In the last couple of days I had a conversation with one of you, I don't even know who it was now, but I had mentioned that I had quit alcohol in October, 1979 after several years of serious abuse. I don't know when the last time I thought of having a drink, its been a very long time (at least 25 yr)

My ah ha moment---My nicotine addiction is the same as my alcohol addiction, one day at a time and eventually I won't think about a dip. In fact alcohol NEVER tempts me, I never think about it, I never romance the Idea of a drink, It is not even a thought even when surrounded by it and that wasn't always the case. For several years I just about died every time I was around alcohol, but I knew that 1 drink and I'd be right back into my same old pattern of being drunk most everyday.

The reason that this has taken me so long to associate my alcoholism with my nicotine addiction is that; even though I know I'm still an alcoholic I no longer think about it. (it is in the past) Until I no longer think about nicotine, I will Quit Like Fuck one day at a time no matter how long that takes!!

Awesome stuff WT. You are one hell of a quitter and I am proud to be beating the shit out of this addiction with you. I may be a few days in front of you but you are definitely a great leader in this quit. I draw a lot of strength from your posts. Keep up the good work and thanks again for sharing.

[Wt57]

One of the faithful quitters that I look up to for support in my QUIT is MThomas, He often says that he had a "ah ha moment".

Well I just got in from a long day and have been trying to avoid thinking past today, (for some reason this is a real problem for me). In the last couple of days I had a conversation with one of you, I don't even know who it was now, but I had mentioned that I had quit alcohol in October, 1979 after several years of serious abuse. I don't know when the last time I thought of having a drink, its been a very long time (at least 25 yr)

My ah ha moment---My nicotine addiction is the same as my alcohol addiction, one day at a time and eventually I won't think about a dip. In fact alcohol NEVER tempts me, I never think about it, I never romance the Idea of a drink, It is not even a thought even when surrounded by it and that wasn't always the case. For several years I just about died every time I was around alcohol, but I knew that 1 drink and I'd be right back into my same old pattern of being drunk most everyday.

The reason that this has taken me so long to associate my alcoholism with my nicotine addiction is that; even though I know I'm still an alcoholic I no longer think about it. (it is in the past) Until I no longer think about nicotine, I will Quit Like Fuck one day at a time no matter how long that takes!!

[Souliman]

Just dropping some props. You sir, are a fucker that brings the quit.

Glad you're here man.

[Suck-It]

My adult life as a ninja dipper!
I would guess that I only got caught 5 times dipping in over 38 yrs. what a proud record to celebrate. The first time was my 3 yr old daughter ( she's 31 now). All of the other times were by my wife, it would be more but she gave up on questioning me, Always the same thing-- I'm quiting, oh just had a bad day, no I'm not dippin very often. Etc etc etc ...
Admitting what a prick I've been is really a overwhelmingly difficult thing to admit. The day I quit I set my wife down confessed all my lies to her, I promised her I quit that day. Everyday I have gone before my July quit group and pledged my quit, also each day I have held my wife's hand, looked into her eyes and made the same promise to her.
Through all of my lies there have been two unfooled observers of my addiction: I have always known what a stupid prick I've been, and Nothing can be hidden from God!
It feels so good to face life knowing that I'm honest with WT, my wife, each of you total strangers and God.
My new guilt free life is so awesome!!

Great post WT - very proud to be quitting with you. Keep up the good work my brother and thanks for sharing. That is an awesome post.

[Wt57]

My adult life as a ninja dipper!
I would guess that I only got caught 5 times dipping in over 38 yrs. what a proud record to celebrate. The first time was my 3 yr old daughter ( she's 31 now). All of the other times were by my wife, it would be more but she gave up on questioning me, Always the same thing-- I'm quiting, oh just had a bad day, no I'm not dippin very often. Etc etc etc ...
Admitting what a prick I've been is really a overwhelmingly difficult thing to admit. The day I quit I set my wife down confessed all my lies to her, I promised her I quit that day. Everyday I have gone before my July quit group and pledged my quit, also each day I have held my wife's hand, looked into her eyes and made the same promise to her.
Through all of my lies there have been two unfooled observers of my addiction: I have always known what a stupid prick I've been, and Nothing can be hidden from God!
It feels so good to face life knowing that I'm honest with WT, my wife, each of you total strangers and God.
My new guilt free life is so awesome!!

[Scowick65]

I fucking caved--- again!!!  That's right my good cave I caved too the peer pressure of KTC!  Yesterday I got hit by the blahs again,  started felling sorry for WT.  I started thinking further down the road than today.  Then I saw a couple of real caves and the reality of how fragile our quit can be set in.  Last night I did what I do best, fucking hide behind a computer screen and talk mostly truth, I rambled to anyone with a open inbox.  Today is a new day, I posted early, made my promise to stay quit for today and I will.  My dumb ass thoughts about 6, 7, 8 months down the road are gone.  Oh yea before anyone rips me a new one I got my day wrong when I posted roll (just a stupid dumb ass mistake) believe me I remember and cherish every fuckin day I've been quit.  Thanks Cmark for catching me.  Never thought it possible that I could make friends with total unseen strangers like you, how wrong I was, you are fast becoming some of my closest friends in this phase of my life.
Thank you, and thank God
WT

Thanks for being here for me as well. We have a strong support group in July! I am battling more than the nic demon this week so god willing I will be strong and fight off any urges that may arrise.

:D

[chitownsnus]

I fucking caved--- again!!! That's right my good cave I caved too the peer pressure of KTC! Yesterday I got hit by the blahs again, started felling sorry for WT. I started thinking further down the road than today. Then I saw a couple of real caves and the reality of how fragile our quit can be set in. Last night I did what I do best, fucking hide behind a computer screen and talk mostly truth, I rambled to anyone with a open inbox. Today is a new day, I posted early, made my promise to stay quit for today and I will. My dumb ass thoughts about 6, 7, 8 months down the road are gone. Oh yea before anyone rips me a new one I got my day wrong when I posted roll (just a stupid dumb ass mistake) believe me I remember and cherish every fuckin day I've been quit. Thanks Cmark for catching me. Never thought it possible that I could make friends with total unseen strangers like you, how wrong I was, you are fast becoming some of my closest friends in this phase of my life.
Thank you, and thank God
WT

Thanks for being here for me as well. We have a strong support group in July! I am battling more than the nic demon this week so god willing I will be strong and fight off any urges that may arrise.

[Wt57]

I fucking caved--- again!!! That's right my good cave I caved too the peer pressure of KTC! Yesterday I got hit by the blahs again, started felling sorry for WT. I started thinking further down the road than today. Then I saw a couple of real caves and the reality of how fragile our quit can be set in. Last night I did what I do best, fucking hide behind a computer screen and talk mostly truth, I rambled to anyone with a open inbox. Today is a new day, I posted early, made my promise to stay quit for today and I will. My dumb ass thoughts about 6, 7, 8 months down the road are gone. Oh yea before anyone rips me a new one I got my day wrong when I posted roll (just a stupid dumb ass mistake) believe me I remember and cherish every fuckin day I've been quit. Thanks Cmark for catching me. Never thought it possible that I could make friends with total unseen strangers like you, how wrong I was, you are fast becoming some of my closest friends in this phase of my life.
Thank you, and thank God
WT

[Mthomas3824]

My update!

Dentist visit:  Not what I expected, said the inflammation of my tongue is probably a viral or yeast infection--- holy shit I know where that came from--- 'Y'  'Y'  'Kiss'   Dr. Said avoid anything that seems to make it worse.  Shit that's as hard as my quit!

On the road:  made the 5 hr trip no one is dead and I'm still quit!!

In-laws?? I left the house for a couple hours ( that would have been for my alone time with the bitch) in the past!  But not this time.  It was filled with lots of nic talk but no partaking.

Now all I have left to do is repeat the trip and in-laws tomorrow.

I QLF today and am making this late night post here to brag about it. 'na na'   'na na'  'na na'

Don't meet any guys on the internet, then go out for pie and I think you're in the clear.

I can't believe it took me so long to quit. The joy of the quit beats any buzz that is chased with a shot of Guilt and a squeeze of lie.

I Heart the Quit Life!!!!

Yea I met this guy I found online, my mother-in-law is worried about my safety, (me too). We meet up late at night for a rendezvous (sounds ghey, it's not). Now I have a face to put with all the shit talk. Never could have been prepared for reality: 5'5", 230#, skinhead, no teeth and Jamaican!
Got you first MT before you exposed the real me!

holdon....hoooold on.......

A YEAST INFECTION ON YOUR TOUNGE!?!?!?!?!


'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'

That is the funniest shit I have ever heard

Is pretty damn funny now, but I thought it was the big C for sure! I was CUNT! No more pussy eatin for me for awhile.

:o Stay away from the homemade bread and rolls at WT house!


'ash' WT asks for black bottom pie.

(Scene takes place at a village inn in Utah)

Waitress: "What is Black Bottom Pie"
MT: "yeah I never heard of it"
WT: "It has rum in it"

Waitress: "we don't have it"
MT: "You forget you're in Utah?"
WT: "Forgot its a dry county"

WT: "I'll have the strawberry crepes"

MT: "What the fuck? Utah isn't France either! WT, you need to go to the powder room and put on some lip stick while your at it?"

MT: "How are the crepes and why does it look like you have a loaf of bread on your tongue?"



'crackup' aw fun times.