My good cave

[T-Cell]

I nearly had a melt down. Those that know me, I have a 4 yr old shadow most days (grandson). Well he proudly told me haha "locked you out of the pickup grampa! Well I thought that's cute. After asking a dozen times "where's the keys" he finally told me "under the chips"--what chips? "me show you" pointing inside! Yep keys were locked inside! My mild nicless rage couldn't be released on a 4 yr old. 2 hr later w/ help from his mom were all laughing and the alarm is blareing.

Got a fortune cookie last nigh said "no matter what your
Past has been you have a spotless future". Well at least a spotless day.

Good story WT, and good on you for keeping it together.
Stay quit, and your quit will keep getting stronger. Proud to be quit with you bro!

[Grizzly25]

I nearly had a melt down. Those that know me, I have a 4 yr old shadow most days (grandson). Well he proudly told me haha "locked you out of the pickup grampa! Well I thought that's cute. After asking a dozen times "where's the keys" he finally told me "under the chips"--what chips? "me show you" pointing inside! Yep keys were locked inside! My mild nicless rage couldn't be released on a 4 yr old. 2 hr later w/ help from his mom were all laughing and the alarm is blareing.

Got a fortune cookie last nigh said "no matter what your
Past has been you have a spotless future". Well at least a spotless day.

Good stuff bro!

I have had those near melt downs all the way thru my quit and I am starting to get the realization that most of the things I would have had melt downs on are not worth the effort!

I unfortunately have had the melt downs where my kids were involved to many times to count ..... I blame the nic-bitch and myself for losing control but now while eliminating the nic-bitch I am dealing with many things way better than before!

Stay Strong, Focused  QUIT!!!!!!

[Wt57]

I nearly had a melt down. Those that know me, I have a 4 yr old shadow most days (grandson). Well he proudly told me haha "locked you out of the pickup grampa! Well I thought that's cute. After asking a dozen times "where's the keys" he finally told me "under the chips"--what chips? "me show you" pointing inside! Yep keys were locked inside! My mild nicless rage couldn't be released on a 4 yr old. 2 hr later w/ help from his mom were all laughing and the alarm is blareing.

Got a fortune cookie last nigh said "no matter what your
Past has been you have a spotless future". Well at least a spitless day.

[Wt57]

When will the damn sore tongue go away?  Mine just keeps getting worse!  Seeing the dentist this week.

Do you have actual sores on your tongue or the whole thing is sore? I don't have either, but my mouth has been "shedding" the past few days now.

Fricking tongue looks like the grandcanyon. My mouth is shedding too. But tongue just killing me hard to eat. Feels like I took a electric sander to the surface. Actually feels like when I was a little kid and put it on a cold pipe and then pulled it off.

[Kubrick]

When will the damn sore tongue go away? Mine just keeps getting worse! Seeing the dentist this week.

Do you have actual sores on your tongue or the whole thing is sore? I don't have either, but my mouth has been "shedding" the past few days now.

[Wt57]

When will the damn sore tongue go away? Mine just keeps getting worse! Seeing the dentist this week.

[Grizzly25]

Holy shit! 33 days since my last nic dream, and I thought it was bad. This dream she brought the entire QLF crew to taunt me with a open can of cope. I wanted that do bad!! Woke 3 times from my dream sweating, everytime I'd lay back down the damn dream immediately started back up. The only good thing about this dream: I STAYED QUIT. I know the QLF crew are a rough bunch but they'd never do the shit to a person that they did to me in my dream, it was the bitch!!

QLF my brother!!!!

This is a definte sign that you are indeed kicking Nic's ass!!!

Keep up the badass quit

Stay Focused
Stay Strong
Stay QUIT!

[Wt57]

Holy shit! 33 days since my last nic dream, and I thought it was bad. This dream she brought the entire QLF crew to taunt me with a open can of cope. I wanted that do bad!! Woke 3 times from my dream sweating, everytime I'd lay back down the damn dream immediately started back up. The only good thing about this dream: I STAYED QUIT. I know the QLF crew are a rough bunch but they'd never do the shit to a person that they did to me in my dream, it was the bitch!!

[Suck-It]

My continued credit to God for leading me from a disgusting life of deceit, lies and self pity.
I feel much like the Israelites being led by Moses through the wilderness to the promised land. My journey has been almost the same number of years. (at least 38) I've always believed in God but rebelled against a lot of his commandments, and thought that I could do things my way and then easily correct my evil ways. One of my biggest challenges in life is the Exodus 20:3 Thou shalt have no other gods before me. for most of the past 38 years I've worshipped another god, Tobacco. Often I have thought about forsaking this god but there was always a reason to put it off to another day. That day just never came. Days turned years, years turn to decades, life rolls on. Soon a life time has passed. Finally the day did come it was 34 days ago. I found the strength within myself and from the support of some very special friends that I have never met, never even heard most of their voices. Again I have got to give credit where credit is due. 1st--I thank God for giving the strength to abandon my evil worship. 2nd I thank him for leading my search for help to the steps of KTC. 3rd I thank each and everyone here who's stories of inspiration, companionship, integrity and pure intestinal fortitude has carried me into this promised land of QUIT. Everyday I will be at the steps of My July Quit Group and humble myself and swear an oath to be nicotine free for that day, nothing more, nothing less. Thank You Friends

Great post, love it. We cannot do this alone. I quit with you today - have a great weekend.

[Souliman]

Great job brother. You're on the path man. We're all walking with you.

[Wt57]

My continued credit to God for leading me from a disgusting life of deceit, lies and self pity.
I feel much like the Israelites being led by Moses through the wilderness to the promised land. My journey has been almost the same number of years. (at least 38) I've always believed in God but rebelled against a lot of his commandments, and thought that I could do things my way and then easily correct my evil ways. One of my biggest challenges in life is the Exodus 20:3 Thou shalt have no other gods before me. for most of the past 38 years I've worshipped another god, Tobacco. Often I have thought about forsaking this god but there was always a reason to put it off to another day. That day just never came. Days turned years, years turn to decades, life rolls on. Soon a life time has passed. Finally the day did come it was 34 days ago. I found the strength within myself and from the support of some very special friends that I have never met, never even heard most of their voices. Again I have got to give credit where credit is due. 1st--I thank God for giving the strength to abandon my evil worship. 2nd I thank him for leading my search for help to the steps of KTC. 3rd I thank each and everyone here who's stories of inspiration, companionship, integrity and pure intestinal fortitude has carried me into this promised land of QUIT. Everyday I will be at the steps of My July Quit Group and humble myself and swear an oath to be nicotine free for that day, nothing more, nothing less. Thank You Friends

[Scowick65]

Some thoughts that have been going through my mind about posting roll.  When you look at those who cave most of the time roll call isn't a top priority.

What is Roll Call?

1.  For me roll call is an opportunity to come before my group and make a solemn promise to stay quit with them for the entire day.
2. For me roll call must come early in the day or it is nothing but boasting that I've been quit up to that point of the day without a promise.
3.  For this dumb ass addict roll call is a reminder of what I am and where I've come from, a dumb ass addict that has pulled myself up from my addiction.
4.  For Me roll call reminds me of how long my journey has been, not just days quit but I am also reminded how long it took me to turn my nicotine use around. (for me it around 14000 days and I will never forget that)
5.  Last for me roll call is a opportunity to return to my group and report that I have been faithful to the commitment that I made to them the day before and that I have advance 1 more day.

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Well stated and a good reminder for me. I am mthomas and I agree with this message.

Begin with the end in mind. Great job. Great post.

[Mthomas3824]

Some thoughts that have been going through my mind about posting roll.  When you look at those who cave most of the time roll call isn't a top priority.

What is Roll Call?

1.  For me roll call is an opportunity to come before my group and make a solemn promise to stay quit with them for the entire day.
2. For me roll call must come early in the day or it is nothing but boasting that I've been quit up to that point of the day without a promise.
3.  For this dumb ass addict roll call is a reminder of what I am and where I've come from, a dumb ass addict that has pulled myself up from my addiction.
4.  For Me roll call reminds me of how long my journey has been, not just days quit but I am also reminded how long it took me to turn my nicotine use around. (for me it around 14000 days and I will never forget that)
5.  Last for me roll call is a opportunity to return to my group and report that I have been faithful to the commitment that I made to them the day before and that I have advance 1 more day.

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Well stated and a good reminder for me. I am mthomas and I agree with this message.

[Wt57]

Some thoughts that have been going through my mind about posting roll. When you look at those who cave most of the time roll call isn't a top priority.

What is Roll Call?

1. For me roll call is an opportunity to come before my group and make a solemn promise to stay quit with them for the entire day.
2. For me roll call must come early in the day or it is nothing but boasting that I've been quit up to that point of the day without a promise.
3. For this dumb ass addict roll call is a reminder of what I am and where I've come from, a dumb ass addict that has pulled myself up from my addiction.
4. For Me roll call reminds me of how long my journey has been, not just days quit but I am also reminded how long it took me to turn my nicotine use around. (for me it around 14000 days and I will never forget that)
5. Last for me roll call is a opportunity to return to my group and report that I have been faithful to the commitment that I made to them the day before and that I have advance 1 more day.

[rangy96]

WHY QUIT.

He got a big hole in the side of his face and his wife would pick bone and teeth out daily.  His jaw quit working and couldn’t open his mouth no problem he had a hole in his face to pour soup into.  After feeding him his wife would clean the hole, pour ½ a can of Copenhagen in and cover it with a kotex, and then bandage his whole face back up. 

I'm with SWJ. Holy Fuck.

A dip covered with a tampon because my face is gone.

Good god almighty. That freaks me out a little bit.

I'll tell you what WT, you keep writing and I'll keep reading.

And keep on reaching out to those younger quitters. Don't let them be stupid.