I quit again

[worktowin]

Day 214
Depression.
I will not dip today.

MN/2,818 my word is my bond.

4,036

[MN_Engineer]

Day 214
Depression.
I will not dip today.

MN/2,818 my word is my bond.

[Dipchit]

Day 214
Depression.
I will not dip today.

[worktowin]

Day 213
Some depression but anxiety seems low this morning. I will not dip today.

MN/2,817 with you today.

4,035

[MN_Engineer]

Day 213
Some depression but anxiety seems low this morning. I will not dip today.

MN/2,817 with you today.

[Dipchit]

Day 213
Some depression but anxiety seems low this morning. I will not dip today.

[Dipchit]

Day 212
I have an appointment with a thearapest so I’ll try that. As far as a doctor goes that’s a solid no. All they want to do is shove phych drugs down your throat. I’m not going to trade withdrawl for another. I actually started feeling better last night again at bedtime. Right now I’m just emotionally flat with some depression. I have read several threads on here about some not turning the corner until about 250 to 300 days. This to shall pass and with talk therapy I believe I can get the mental tools I need to get through this. I never felt this way until I stopped dipping and I never felt like this before either so I’m not mentally ill im just healing and nothing but self care and time will make the process any faster. Thanks for the advice.
I will not dip today.

MN/2,816 proud to be quit with you today.

Keith0617 1923 ODAAT

4,034.  Glad you are seeking out some help.  300 was a big milestone for me, when life started being good again.  Not 100% great, but good.

Hope I can turn a corner soon. Unfortunately there is nothing that can speed up the process. It’s an injury to the brain that causes a chemical imbalance. Neuro healing takes a long time and by adding phych meds all you are doing is prolonging the healing back to homeostasis. I never in my life would have believed that nicotine could cause so much damage. It’s just nicotine right???? Powerful shit. Today I’m going from anxiety to depression and anxiety to depression. I get the occasional brain zap too. They suck. My corner will happen sooner or later, just hope it’s sooner.

[worktowin]

Day 212
I have an appointment with a thearapest so I’ll try that. As far as a doctor goes that’s a solid no. All they want to do is shove phych drugs down your throat. I’m not going to trade withdrawl for another. I actually started feeling better last night again at bedtime. Right now I’m just emotionally flat with some depression. I have read several threads on here about some not turning the corner until about 250 to 300 days. This to shall pass and with talk therapy I believe I can get the mental tools I need to get through this. I never felt this way until I stopped dipping and I never felt like this before either so I’m not mentally ill im just healing and nothing but self care and time will make the process any faster. Thanks for the advice.
I will not dip today.

MN/2,816 proud to be quit with you today.

Keith0617 1923 ODAAT

4,034.  Glad you are seeking out some help.  300 was a big milestone for me, when life started being good again.  Not 100% great, but good.

[Keith0617]

Day 212
I have an appointment with a thearapest so I’ll try that. As far as a doctor goes that’s a solid no. All they want to do is shove phych drugs down your throat. I’m not going to trade withdrawl for another. I actually started feeling better last night again at bedtime. Right now I’m just emotionally flat with some depression. I have read several threads on here about some not turning the corner until about 250 to 300 days. This to shall pass and with talk therapy I believe I can get the mental tools I need to get through this. I never felt this way until I stopped dipping and I never felt like this before either so I’m not mentally ill im just healing and nothing but self care and time will make the process any faster. Thanks for the advice.
I will not dip today.

MN/2,816 proud to be quit with you today.

Keith0617 1923 ODAAT

[MN_Engineer]

Day 212
I have an appointment with a thearapest so I’ll try that. As far as a doctor goes that’s a solid no. All they want to do is shove phych drugs down your throat. I’m not going to trade withdrawl for another. I actually started feeling better last night again at bedtime. Right now I’m just emotionally flat with some depression. I have read several threads on here about some not turning the corner until about 250 to 300 days. This to shall pass and with talk therapy I believe I can get the mental tools I need to get through this. I never felt this way until I stopped dipping and I never felt like this before either so I’m not mentally ill im just healing and nothing but self care and time will make the process any faster. Thanks for the advice.
I will not dip today.

MN/2,816 proud to be quit with you today.

[Dipchit]

Day 212
I have an appointment with a thearapest so I’ll try that. As far as a doctor goes that’s a solid no. All they want to do is shove phych drugs down your throat. I’m not going to trade withdrawl for another. I actually started feeling better last night again at bedtime. Right now I’m just emotionally flat with some depression. I have read several threads on here about some not turning the corner until about 250 to 300 days. This to shall pass and with talk therapy I believe I can get the mental tools I need to get through this. I never felt this way until I stopped dipping and I never felt like this before either so I’m not mentally ill im just healing and nothing but self care and time will make the process any faster. Thanks for the advice.
I will not dip today.

[worktowin]

Day 211
Anxiety frustration anger.
I promise not to dip today.

MN/2,815 ready to grind out another Monday quit.

Keith0617 1922 Choosing not to put cancer in my lip

It’s unbelievable how the suffering can erase any good day(s) you had. I’m back in full blown withdrawal just like the first week. It’s like my good day I had on Saturday never happened. Fucking depression is deep and black with white hot searing anxiety. WTF is going on???? I don’t get it. Good one day and literally fighting for your sanity the next? This makes no sense.

Go. To. A. Doctor.

Seriously man, it's time to find a medical professional that can help guide you through all this. I've been around this place for almost 8 years and while I was hesitant to say it before, I've never witnessed anyone experience what you describe for this length of time. Quitting can be a real bitch and the mental rewiring can take a long time. But the degree to which you describe has me concerned. I want you to experience all the positive aspects of being quit so I say all this in light of the brotherhood and accountability that makes KTC so unique. I just don't have anything more to offer you other than daily words of encouragement which I will continue to do.

Worktowin 4,033. A counselor might help too.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 211
Anxiety frustration anger.
I promise not to dip today.

MN/2,815 ready to grind out another Monday quit.

Keith0617 1922 Choosing not to put cancer in my lip

It’s unbelievable how the suffering can erase any good day(s) you had. I’m back in full blown withdrawal just like the first week. It’s like my good day I had on Saturday never happened. Fucking depression is deep and black with white hot searing anxiety. WTF is going on???? I don’t get it. Good one day and literally fighting for your sanity the next? This makes no sense.

Go. To. A. Doctor.

Seriously man, it's time to find a medical professional that can help guide you through all this. I've been around this place for almost 8 years and while I was hesitant to say it before, I've never witnessed anyone experience what you describe for this length of time. Quitting can be a real bitch and the mental rewiring can take a long time. But the degree to which you describe has me concerned. I want you to experience all the positive aspects of being quit so I say all this in light of the brotherhood and accountability that makes KTC so unique. I just don't have anything more to offer you other than daily words of encouragement which I will continue to do.

[Dipchit]

Day 211
Anxiety frustration anger.
I promise not to dip today.

MN/2,815 ready to grind out another Monday quit.

Keith0617 1922 Choosing not to put cancer in my lip

It’s unbelievable how the suffering can erase any good day(s) you had. I’m back in full blown withdrawal just like the first week. It’s like my good day I had on Saturday never happened. Fucking depression is deep and black with white hot searing anxiety. WTF is going on???? I don’t get it. Good one day and literally fighting for your sanity the next? This makes no sense.

[Keith0617]

Day 211
Anxiety frustration anger.
I promise not to dip today.

MN/2,815 ready to grind out another Monday quit.

Keith0617 1922 Choosing not to put cancer in my lip