I cannot post in roll today as I have fallen of the wagon. My stress level has hit my explosion point and I caved on day 11. I will be working to get off this stuff, and will post roll for day 1 when that happens. I was ready to kill someone yesterday, not literally, but you know what I mean. I don't need text messages chewing me out right now because you might not like my response. Let me work through some issues and I will be posting roll again, I hope.
The only issue that you need to work out is your integrity. You had half of this site bending over backwards to help you and support you and you just flipped every single one of them a bright, bold middle finger.
Is your quit really that much tougher than everyone else's? Are your problems really that much more significant? What makes you think that the stress, anxiety and craving that you're going through is any bit tougher than what everyone on this site has gone through successfully?
The difference is that you allowed yourself an out. You allowed yourself to think that you are somehow special or different. Well, you are not special or different. Your cravings, your stress and your anxiety are exactly what each and every one of us went through, or are currently struggling with. The difference is that we took breaking down off the table and we held true to our word.
You need to look in the mirror and figure out if you are tough enough. It's ok if you aren't, not everyone is. In fact, we need failures around to show an example of what will happen if we ever let our guard down. We need someone to provide mouth cancer pics and tobacco death statistics. That's the path your weakness will lead you down.
BTW, I don't give a buffalo nickle about whatever angry response you might have. I stayed quit today and you caved. The only response you could possibly have that interests me is an answer to your three cave questions, a Day 1 roll post and then sustained success. If you can't do that, then don't bother showing back up here.