This Time Is For Real

[worktowin]

408/21

I asked her if she called the counselor to set the appointment yet?

Mrs C: I have been too busy at work to do anything else, and when I get in the car, I just need time to decompress.

Me: Understandable

Mrs. C: I don't think you get it. My feelings are not going to change, and you wont believe me until you hear it from someone else.

Me: We still should at least sit down with a counselor and talk.

Mrs. C: You figure out what your doing for your birthday tomorrow?

Me: I would like to do something with my family.

Mrs. C: Thats fine take the girls out to dinner and I will find something else to do.

Why am I chasing this hurt?

You asked a good question at the end. Why are you? Kind of like when you quit, you need to dig deep and figure the answer out. The sooner, the better.

Not saying you are doing the wrong thing. Not saying to stop. But you need to understand your motives.

[Candoit]

408/21

I asked her if she called the counselor to set the appointment yet?

Mrs C: I have been too busy at work to do anything else, and when I get in the car, I just need time to decompress.

Me: Understandable

Mrs. C: I don't think you get it. My feelings are not going to change, and you wont believe me until you hear it from someone else.

Me: We still should at least sit down with a counselor and talk.

Mrs. C: You figure out what your doing for your birthday tomorrow?

Me: I would like to do something with my family.

Mrs. C: Thats fine take the girls out to dinner and I will find something else to do.

Why am I chasing this hurt?

[pab1964]

Poof

[pab1964]

Bullshit!

[pab1964]

404/18 -

I sold my truck today. I have owned that truck since June of 2005 paid 1800 for it then with 90,000 miles, today it had 180,000 miles and I sold it for 1800. That pained me more than I suspected. The oldest was upset with me. But that money is more important than a truck, it is for my family.

She still keeping me more than an arms distance away. It is making me angry and resentful towards her, I am trying my hardest to stay positive and hopeful. Cut and run easy to do, what she wants to do, what I am resentful for. A wee bit hypocritical but keep pressing forward.

Space is what she wants but will not fix the problems. If she was actually working on fixing the problems maybe, but from where I stand she still is trying to place blame on everyone else. It takes two for a marriage to break or work.

Candy read what you wrote, it takes 2 in marriage to make it work. Looks like a one man show. Give her room, she may realize grass is not always greener on the other side! You to good a man to go through this shit!

[Candoit]

404/18 -

I sold my truck today. I have owned that truck since June of 2005 paid 1800 for it then with 90,000 miles, today it had 180,000 miles and I sold it for 1800. That pained me more than I suspected. The oldest was upset with me. But that money is more important than a truck, it is for my family.

She still keeping me more than an arms distance away. It is making me angry and resentful towards her, I am trying my hardest to stay positive and hopeful. Cut and run easy to do, what she wants to do, what I am resentful for. A wee bit hypocritical but keep pressing forward.

Space is what she wants but will not fix the problems. If she was actually working on fixing the problems maybe, but from where I stand she still is trying to place blame on everyone else. It takes two for a marriage to break or work.

[Candoit]

BELIEF - AWARENESS - RESPECT - KINDNESS
B.A.R.K

BELIEF

Believe in yourself
Believe that you are important
Believe that you can accomplish anything
Believe that there are people who love you
Believe that you can make a difference in this world
Believe that there are people who want to help you
Believe you are the best !!!AWARENESS

Aware of your family
Aware of your community and friends
Aware of the goals you must set for yourself
Aware of the consequences to the decisions of the things you do
Aware of those who will help you achieve your goals
Aware that your life is what you make of it
Aware that there are people who love you!!!RESPECT

Respect yourself
Respect your family
Respect is earned each and every day
Respect the rights and decisions of others even if they are different than yours
Respect those who are older than you
Respect your school and teachers
Respect is the key to your futureKINDNESS

Do the right thing
Be helpful without being told to be
Offer to do things for free - volunteer to help
Be kind to yourself - You must learn to love yourself before you can love others
No one stands so tall when they stoop to help a child
Be kind to all people and kindness will find youBark covers and protects the giant redwood, it cannot grow without it. It is it's armor, malleable and porous, yet strong, waterproof and able to be repaired.

These are my only four rules. These are the rules I raise my childern by. This is the ruler I measure myself by. I don't need a long list of rules, live and practice these in here and you will do tremendous things out there.

[jimthins]

I have a Wisteria bush I found on freecycle about 6-7 years ago. Since I have owned it has never bloomed. I was talking with an old Italian nursey owner about this. Wondering if it was time to dig it out and toss it.

His reply surpised me: "Wisteria does not behave like many plants that need the right amount of TLC. Wisteria thrives on damage. It takes at least 6 years to establish itself. Additionally you need to prune the new growth at least twice a year. Then either cut a ring of bark off or stab the roots with a shovel in Jan/Feb. Until it is threathened and shocked it has no reason to grow."

As I am in my yard now looking at the plant. I remembered this conversation. It takes time to grow roots. The strong roots are necessary to grow, but so is a shock. It can only handle the shock if it has strong roots.

As long as things are stable and calm, we have no reason to grow. Yet the scars and wounds force this to grow, expand, and flourish.

Some good words right there Cando. One of those things you don't take the time to stop and think about. Dig a little deeper, and think a little longer at the true meanings. We sometimes get caught up in our day-to-day activities not appreciating the small stuff.

[Candoit]

I have a Wisteria bush I found on freecycle about 6-7 years ago. Since I have owned it has never bloomed. I was talking with an old Italian nursey owner about this. Wondering if it was time to dig it out and toss it.

His reply surpised me: "Wisteria does not behave like many plants that need the right amount of TLC. Wisteria thrives on damage. It takes at least 6 years to establish itself. Additionally you need to prune the new growth at least twice a year. Then either cut a ring of bark off or stab the roots with a shovel in Jan/Feb. Until it is threathened and shocked it has no reason to grow."

As I am in my yard now looking at the plant. I remembered this conversation. It takes time to grow roots. The strong roots are necessary to grow, but so is a shock. It can only handle the shock if it has strong roots.

As long as things are stable and calm, we have no reason to grow. Yet the scars and wounds force this to grow, expand, and flourish.

[pab1964]

400 times I said I quit. - that's bad ass. That and that alone makes my day.
Time to make the bed.
Do not ring the bell.
Dig in and fight.
Continue to practice the Basics
I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post.

Candoit - I'm extremely happy for you today. I saw the number 400 and couldn't be more excited. A number of milestones you've passed, and a number more. Each one ever so important. Way to keep strong every single day. Proud to be quit with you today.

"I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post."

That's what I'm Screaming! CONGRATS Brother on 400.

Moving Forward
Rawls 282

Awesome 400 man!

400 is badassery! Smile today Candy everywhere I've posted, I've seen nothing but love for you! Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!

[Candoit]

Just a little thought for all of the underpaid and under respected teachers.

Doctor is a Latin word, and it was borrowed from Latin already formed, with a meaning, namely 'teacher'. The word is formed exactly the way teacher is:

a verb root (English teach-, Latin doc-),
plus an agentive suffix (English -er, Latin -tor).

It was used to refer to an especially learned person, one who was authorized and qualified to teach.

It wasn't until the Twelfth Century AD in Europe that the modern Western universities were invented. The first universities were Guilds, of Masters or Students, and the Masters were Doctors, i.e, authorized teachers.

Gradually the Bachelor's, Master's, and Doctor's degrees evolved from a guild structure of Apprentice, Journeyman, and Master.

[trigerhapy]

400 times I said I quit. - that's bad ass. That and that alone makes my day.
Time to make the bed.
Do not ring the bell.
Dig in and fight.
Continue to practice the Basics
I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post.

Candoit - I'm extremely happy for you today. I saw the number 400 and couldn't be more excited. A number of milestones you've passed, and a number more. Each one ever so important. Way to keep strong every single day. Proud to be quit with you today.

"I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post."

That's what I'm Screaming! CONGRATS Brother on 400.

Moving Forward
Rawls 282

Awesome 400 man!

[Rawls]

400 times I said I quit. - that's bad ass. That and that alone makes my day.
Time to make the bed.
Do not ring the bell.
Dig in and fight.
Continue to practice the Basics
I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post.

Candoit - I'm extremely happy for you today. I saw the number 400 and couldn't be more excited. A number of milestones you've passed, and a number more. Each one ever so important. Way to keep strong every single day. Proud to be quit with you today.

"I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post."

That's what I'm Screaming! CONGRATS Brother on 400.

Moving Forward
Rawls 282

[jimthins]

400 times I said I quit. - that's bad ass. That and that alone makes my day.
Time to make the bed.
Do not ring the bell.
Dig in and fight.
Continue to practice the Basics
I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post.

Candoit - I'm extremely happy for you today. I saw the number 400 and couldn't be more excited. A number of milestones you've passed, and a number more. Each one ever so important. Way to keep strong every single day. Proud to be quit with you today.

[Candoit]

400 times I said I quit. - that's bad ass. That and that alone makes my day.
Time to make the bed.
Do not ring the bell.
Dig in and fight.
Continue to practice the Basics
I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post.