This Time Is For Real

[pab1964]

400 times I said I quit. - that's bad ass. That and that alone makes my day.
Time to make the bed.
Do not ring the bell.
Dig in and fight.
Continue to practice the Basics
I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post.

Candoit - I'm extremely happy for you today. I saw the number 400 and couldn't be more excited. A number of milestones you've passed, and a number more. Each one ever so important. Way to keep strong every single day. Proud to be quit with you today.

"I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post."

That's what I'm Screaming! CONGRATS Brother on 400.

Moving Forward
Rawls 282

Awesome 400 man!

400 is badassery! Smile today Candy everywhere I've posted, I've seen nothing but love for you! Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!

[Candoit]

Just a little thought for all of the underpaid and under respected teachers.

Doctor is a Latin word, and it was borrowed from Latin already formed, with a meaning, namely 'teacher'. The word is formed exactly the way teacher is:

a verb root (English teach-, Latin doc-),
plus an agentive suffix (English -er, Latin -tor).

It was used to refer to an especially learned person, one who was authorized and qualified to teach.

It wasn't until the Twelfth Century AD in Europe that the modern Western universities were invented. The first universities were Guilds, of Masters or Students, and the Masters were Doctors, i.e, authorized teachers.

Gradually the Bachelor's, Master's, and Doctor's degrees evolved from a guild structure of Apprentice, Journeyman, and Master.

[trigerhapy]

400 times I said I quit. - that's bad ass. That and that alone makes my day.
Time to make the bed.
Do not ring the bell.
Dig in and fight.
Continue to practice the Basics
I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post.

Candoit - I'm extremely happy for you today. I saw the number 400 and couldn't be more excited. A number of milestones you've passed, and a number more. Each one ever so important. Way to keep strong every single day. Proud to be quit with you today.

"I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post."

That's what I'm Screaming! CONGRATS Brother on 400.

Moving Forward
Rawls 282

Awesome 400 man!

[Rawls]

400 times I said I quit. - that's bad ass. That and that alone makes my day.
Time to make the bed.
Do not ring the bell.
Dig in and fight.
Continue to practice the Basics
I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post.

Candoit - I'm extremely happy for you today. I saw the number 400 and couldn't be more excited. A number of milestones you've passed, and a number more. Each one ever so important. Way to keep strong every single day. Proud to be quit with you today.

"I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post."

That's what I'm Screaming! CONGRATS Brother on 400.

Moving Forward
Rawls 282

[jimthins]

400 times I said I quit. - that's bad ass. That and that alone makes my day.
Time to make the bed.
Do not ring the bell.
Dig in and fight.
Continue to practice the Basics
I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post.

Candoit - I'm extremely happy for you today. I saw the number 400 and couldn't be more excited. A number of milestones you've passed, and a number more. Each one ever so important. Way to keep strong every single day. Proud to be quit with you today.

[Candoit]

400 times I said I quit. - that's bad ass. That and that alone makes my day.
Time to make the bed.
Do not ring the bell.
Dig in and fight.
Continue to practice the Basics
I do no longer Wake Up Piss Post, but I wake up, pray, piss, post.

[KingNothing]

Congratulations on 400 Candyman. Good things coming your way in the next 100. We've got your back and I'm proud as hell to quit with you today.

[jabr]

My deepest fear is giving all of me and it not being returned. I afraid that when all bets are off that I will have never been lived like I have given.

I challenge everyone to love with no conditions your spouse. I love my wife as much as I love my daughters. I gave of myself so completely, that the wells ran dry.

I have replenished the wells to only find that she didn't wait. Why? I cannot bear the burden of this alone. She is making me to be the bad guy, she is making me hurt, she is making me doubt.

I am seeking forgiveness for 100% of the err, when I should be seeking forgiveness for 50% of the err. Why is she not seeking forgiveness?

Candy I have been married 31 year's. I will be the first to tell you it hasn't always been a cakewalk and it's still not
I was told by my Grandfather a time a young age that marriage has got to be 50/50 and you can never be to proud to admit when you are wrong. Men and woman always have problems admitting there wrong or always have to get the last word in but rest assured my friend you didn't screw your marriage up by yourself. Head up son, and stay strong. Prayers to you and quit on my brother!

Brother, those first 2 sentences flashed me back to 2012. Those statements are a hard realization, but they're true. You may never get as good as you gave. What I realized is you've got to get to a place where you're ok with that.

You said it yourself here or somewhere else recently that love is an act and not a feeling/emotion. No, I never got as good as I gave. But I finally realized, and accepted, that I gave absolutely everything I could, and that was the only side I could control.

In the end, I couldn't pull it out of the ditch. Hurt like a mother. Took me a long time to convince myself it wasn't a failure. It wasn't what I wanted. The conclusion wasn't what she wanted either, but she also didn't want to invest enough to fix it.

You say you need to move forward. I say you're moving forward regardless. Time stops for no man nor his circumstances.

Looking back with the clarity of hindsight, it's easy for me to relate this to you. But, believe me when I say, I recall with vivid clarity the devastation, the uncertainty, the exhaustion, the emasculated feelings, and the utter helplessness.

I dare say the way you've portrayed yourself on this forum over 400 days is the real you. My opinion is you're a solid guy whose put a tremendous effort into improving himself and helping others.

The sun will rise tomorrow. The day may not look like we expect or want. But, it will have potential for each of us to improve ourselves.

Keep grinding, Candoit. You got this.

[worktowin]

Just so fn angry right now. I need to stop this train of thought before I say something I would regret. She keeps pushing me away. Testing me. Why?

^for me. Just have to note this for me.

May not make sense to you candy but I've heard women say he's really trying to hard, maybe back off a little give her, her space. Maybe she's having issues you're not aware of. Hang in there bud, it is what it is and you can't force anything, sit back and watch.

I agree with Pab but I'm gonna phrase it a little differently... Right now I would focus on you. On how you can move forward. On how you can improve your life. If she wants to be with you on a life improvement journey - which might take time to play out - you both win. If she doesn't, you have focused your efforts on your own improvement.

I'm not saying to ignore or be rude or anything like that... Just suggesting that every ounce of your energy be focused solely on you.

[pab1964]

Just so fn angry right now. I need to stop this train of thought before I say something I would regret. She keeps pushing me away. Testing me. Why?

^for me. Just have to note this for me.

May not make sense to you candy but I've heard women say he's really trying to hard, maybe back off a little give her, her space. Maybe she's having issues you're not aware of. Hang in there bud, it is what it is and you can't force anything, sit back and watch.

[Candoit]

Just so fn angry right now. I need to stop this train of thought before I say something I would regret. She keeps pushing me away. Testing me. Why?

^for me. Just have to note this for me.

[Thumblewort]

No one said to Issac Newton, you can't prove planetary movement until you take adavanced mathematics, physics, and English. He went out an invented calculus to prove his point.

You do not need to take a course before you can do something. You just do it.

Once you've completed something for the first time, you are finally ready to start it for the first time. Life is messy that way.

If your dick is too short
Or your squirt is too weak
You'd better stand closer
Or piss on your feet

[quark]

No one said to Issac Newton, you can't prove planetary movement until you take adavanced mathematics, physics, and English. He went out an invented calculus to prove his point.

You do not need to take a course before you can do something. You just do it.

Once you've completed something for the first time, you are finally ready to start it for the first time. Life is messy that way.

[Candoit]

No one said to Issac Newton, you can't prove planetary movement until you take adavanced mathematics, physics, and English. He went out an invented calculus to prove his point.

You do not need to take a course before you can do something. You just do it.

[Candoit]

Forgiveness is not forgetting
Fear is not scared
Failure is not losing
Happiness is not painless
Success is not happiness
Pride is not ego
Honor is not selfish
Selfless is not loneliness
Sadness is not joyless
Smiling is not with out tears
Discovery is not with out frustration
Compassion is not selfless
Anger is not hate
Hate is not terminal
Moving forward is not moving on

We use too many synonyms in ourlives. In doing so we forget that feelings and emotions are not singluar entities. They are complex layers that are codependent. You cannot experience one with out the others. To denie the existence of the others breeds one: resentment.