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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #82 on: February 02, 2021, 06:26:22 PM »
846 days of Freedom!

I had a dip dream this morning; well, actually, a dream of me dreaming I had a dip dream, until...

The dream started out with me putting a dip in.  I could taste it.  My mouth was watering.  I spit.  Then, the realization that I caved.  The remorse.  The guilt.  The shame.

But then I had this feeling it was just a dream.  That I woke up and I was in my parents house in their bathroom.  I remember the thought that I could still post my number.  That putting the dip in was just a dream.  I was ok.  Until I spit juice into the sink of the bathroom.  I looked into the mirror.  I opened up my mouth.  I saw what had to be an entire can of dip in my mouth.  Tobacco everywhere.  Saliva, drool, and tobacco juice everywhere.  I tried to spit the tobacco out, but I couldn't.  I dug my finger into that glob and tried to get it out, but I couldn't.  I had just caved on day 942.

What is the significance of day 942?  What will be so special, terrible, or remarkable about day 942 that i cave?  I thought about how good my gums and cheeks feel as I ran my tongue across them.  What made me decide to put a dip in and give that up?  How am I going to tell my quit friends that I caved?  Then I woke up.  Went to the bathroom.  Looked into the mirror.  Opened up my mouth, and made sure there was no dip in there.  Fuck!

We all find ourselves at a crossroad.  Some of us visit that crossroad regularly.  We make a decision at that crossroad, and move on.  I have been thinking about moving on.  Change.  Growth.  KTC used to be the website I spent the most time on:  it was number one suggestion when I opened up a new browser tab.  Now, even Pornhub has taken over KTC's place in my web surfing.  Google,  Youtube.  Ebay.  And, yes, even Pornhub, all have more page views than KTC.  My anxiety is better.  The oral fixation is not as bad.  I don't have any triggers when I pass a c-store.  Why post everyday?

Well, at the crossroad today, I made a decision.  I will post at least until day 942.  And now, I move on.

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Congrats on 847 days quit. That's huge!
Dip dreams are the worst, and yours sounded so vivid. No fun. I have definitely woken from a dip dream and ran into the bathroom to look in the mirror. Keep on quttin' like the bad M'Fer you are.

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Read this several times now, dang...I can almost feel your panic… I totally get what you’re saying...and I too have felt that immense relief that I could still post my number as well.

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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #81 on: January 31, 2021, 12:09:03 PM »
846 days of Freedom!

I had a dip dream this morning; well, actually, a dream of me dreaming I had a dip dream, until...

The dream started out with me putting a dip in.  I could taste it.  My mouth was watering.  I spit.  Then, the realization that I caved.  The remorse.  The guilt.  The shame.

But then I had this feeling it was just a dream.  That I woke up and I was in my parents house in their bathroom.  I remember the thought that I could still post my number.  That putting the dip in was just a dream.  I was ok.  Until I spit juice into the sink of the bathroom.  I looked into the mirror.  I opened up my mouth.  I saw what had to be an entire can of dip in my mouth.  Tobacco everywhere.  Saliva, drool, and tobacco juice everywhere.  I tried to spit the tobacco out, but I couldn't.  I dug my finger into that glob and tried to get it out, but I couldn't.  I had just caved on day 942.

What is the significance of day 942?  What will be so special, terrible, or remarkable about day 942 that i cave?  I thought about how good my gums and cheeks feel as I ran my tongue across them.  What made me decide to put a dip in and give that up?  How am I going to tell my quit friends that I caved?  Then I woke up.  Went to the bathroom.  Looked into the mirror.  Opened up my mouth, and made sure there was no dip in there.  Fuck!

We all find ourselves at a crossroad.  Some of us visit that crossroad regularly.  We make a decision at that crossroad, and move on.  I have been thinking about moving on.  Change.  Growth.  KTC used to be the website I spent the most time on:  it was number one suggestion when I opened up a new browser tab.  Now, even Pornhub has taken over KTC's place in my web surfing.  Google,  Youtube.  Ebay.  And, yes, even Pornhub, all have more page views than KTC.  My anxiety is better.  The oral fixation is not as bad.  I don't have any triggers when I pass a c-store.  Why post everyday?

Well, at the crossroad today, I made a decision.  I will post at least until day 942.  And now, I move on.

oldschool.
Congrats on 847 days quit. That's huge!
Dip dreams are the worst, and yours sounded so vivid. No fun. I have definitely woken from a dip dream and ran into the bathroom to look in the mirror. Keep on quttin' like the bad M'Fer you are.

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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #80 on: January 31, 2021, 12:06:40 PM »
*poof*
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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #79 on: January 30, 2021, 10:09:17 AM »
846 days of Freedom!

I had a dip dream this morning; well, actually, a dream of me dreaming I had a dip dream, until...

The dream started out with me putting a dip in.  I could taste it.  My mouth was watering.  I spit.  Then, the realization that I caved.  The remorse.  The guilt.  The shame.

But then I had this feeling it was just a dream.  That I woke up and I was in my parents house in their bathroom.  I remember the thought that I could still post my number.  That putting the dip in was just a dream.  I was ok.  Until I spit juice into the sink of the bathroom.  I looked into the mirror.  I opened up my mouth.  I saw what had to be an entire can of dip in my mouth.  Tobacco everywhere.  Saliva, drool, and tobacco juice everywhere.  I tried to spit the tobacco out, but I couldn't.  I dug my finger into that glob and tried to get it out, but I couldn't.  I had just caved on day 942.

What is the significance of day 942?  What will be so special, terrible, or remarkable about day 942 that i cave?  I thought about how good my gums and cheeks feel as I ran my tongue across them.  What made me decide to put a dip in and give that up?  How am I going to tell my quit friends that I caved?  Then I woke up.  Went to the bathroom.  Looked into the mirror.  Opened up my mouth, and made sure there was no dip in there.  Fuck!

We all find ourselves at a crossroad.  Some of us visit that crossroad regularly.  We make a decision at that crossroad, and move on.  I have been thinking about moving on.  Change.  Growth.  KTC used to be the website I spent the most time on:  it was number one suggestion when I opened up a new browser tab.  Now, even Pornhub has taken over KTC's place in my web surfing.  Google,  Youtube.  Ebay.  And, yes, even Pornhub, all have more page views than KTC.  My anxiety is better.  The oral fixation is not as bad.  I don't have any triggers when I pass a c-store.  Why post everyday?

Well, at the crossroad today, I made a decision.  I will post at least until day 942.  And now, I move on.

oldschool.
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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #78 on: January 01, 2021, 11:02:21 AM »
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Happy New Year to all!  I challenge anyone reading this who still is an addict and slave to nicotine:  Quit today.  Quit right now.  Quit cold Turkey.

Yes, it will be hard.  Yes, it requires a promise not to use nicotine for the day.  Yes, you are required to keep your word.

The payoff is quite immense:  Freedom!!  But it is so much more than that if you let it.  You have the opportunity to change your life.  Learn about yourself and the reasons you let nicotine control you.  Build a better you.
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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #77 on: October 30, 2020, 10:02:29 AM »
... In my head a voice said, "wouldn't a dip be good right about now"...
Bro I've had so many of those it's crazy. Like you said, not a crave, just a seemingly innocuous thought "gee, a lipper sure would be nice". And that's how it starts. That's why I'm still here. That's why I'm still posting. Thanks for throwing that out there. Edifying to know someone else still has 'em.
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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #76 on: October 30, 2020, 01:15:46 AM »
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As a side note, I too came across an old cigar in an old golf bag.  ...
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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #75 on: October 30, 2020, 01:13:33 AM »
... In my head a voice said, "wouldn't a dip be good right about now"...
Bro I've had so many of those it's crazy. Like you said, not a crave, just a seemingly innocuous thought "gee, a lipper sure would be nice". And that's how it starts. That's why I'm still here. That's why I'm still posting. Thanks for throwing that out there. Edifying to know someone else still has 'em.
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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #74 on: October 29, 2020, 09:01:02 AM »
750 days nicotine free!

Interesting day.  Woke up.  Posted Roll.  Made a cup of coffee.  Started to go upstairs into my newly renovated home office and it hit me,  It wasn't a crave.  It was a thought, a thought that I really haven't had in quite a long time:  In my head a voice said, "wouldn't a dip be good right about now".  I stopped from going upstairs, sat on the couch again, and texted my promise to my quit circle to promise not to use nicotine.  Early on I would hold off on texting my promise until I got to work as that was one of the hardest times of the day for me.  Know your tools and use them when needed.....

So, in the late afternoon I was cleaning up some of the aftermath from the home office renovation and I found something.  Hidden away, stashed in a seldom used suit coat pocket, was a cigar.  Yes, that instrument of death that has tricked many into going back to being addicts.  I didn't over react.  I didn't rush to throw it away.  I stopped and thought; Why today?  Why today is nicotine trying so hard to lure me back?  I am blessed that I am stronger now than a year ago, and I am entirely grateful that I am so different from the person I was 2 years ago.  If this day would have happened back then, I probably would not be telling you of today's events.  I might not have made it to 750 days nicotine free.  Thank God I Quit.

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Great victory brother. Way to stay strong and stay quit. You know you can reach out if you need it, you don't have to fight alone
Great job Rich. Thank you for sharing.
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Thanks for sharing Rich.  It is amazing how nicotine entangles itself with our addict memories, actions, tasks, etc.  where out of nowhere, a fleeting thought will enter to stuff our face.  Fortunately they roll out as quickly as they came, but it is an important reminder to NEVER let our guard down and to protect our quits with all we have!  I am thankful for this board and the support it provides.

As a side note, I too came across an old cigar in an old golf bag.  I laughed thinking how the Aumegrad a couple years ago would’ve lit that dried out cancer stick just for the hit.  Hahaha eat a fat one nic ... not today!

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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #73 on: October 27, 2020, 09:14:20 AM »
750 days nicotine free!

Interesting day.  Woke up.  Posted Roll.  Made a cup of coffee.  Started to go upstairs into my newly renovated home office and it hit me,  It wasn't a crave.  It was a thought, a thought that I really haven't had in quite a long time:  In my head a voice said, "wouldn't a dip be good right about now".  I stopped from going upstairs, sat on the couch again, and texted my promise to my quit circle to promise not to use nicotine.  Early on I would hold off on texting my promise until I got to work as that was one of the hardest times of the day for me.  Know your tools and use them when needed.....

So, in the late afternoon I was cleaning up some of the aftermath from the home office renovation and I found something.  Hidden away, stashed in a seldom used suit coat pocket, was a cigar.  Yes, that instrument of death that has tricked many into going back to being addicts.  I didn't over react.  I didn't rush to throw it away.  I stopped and thought; Why today?  Why today is nicotine trying so hard to lure me back?  I am blessed that I am stronger now than a year ago, and I am entirely grateful that I am so different from the person I was 2 years ago.  If this day would have happened back then, I probably would not be telling you of today's events.  I might not have made it to 750 days nicotine free.  Thank God I Quit.

Thanks for the Accountability and Brotherhood,
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Great victory brother. Way to stay strong and stay quit. You know you can reach out if you need it, you don't have to fight alone
Great job Rich. Thank you for sharing.
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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #72 on: October 27, 2020, 08:51:42 AM »
750 days nicotine free!

Interesting day.  Woke up.  Posted Roll.  Made a cup of coffee.  Started to go upstairs into my newly renovated home office and it hit me,  It wasn't a crave.  It was a thought, a thought that I really haven't had in quite a long time:  In my head a voice said, "wouldn't a dip be good right about now".  I stopped from going upstairs, sat on the couch again, and texted my promise to my quit circle to promise not to use nicotine.  Early on I would hold off on texting my promise until I got to work as that was one of the hardest times of the day for me.  Know your tools and use them when needed.....

So, in the late afternoon I was cleaning up some of the aftermath from the home office renovation and I found something.  Hidden away, stashed in a seldom used suit coat pocket, was a cigar.  Yes, that instrument of death that has tricked many into going back to being addicts.  I didn't over react.  I didn't rush to throw it away.  I stopped and thought; Why today?  Why today is nicotine trying so hard to lure me back?  I am blessed that I am stronger now than a year ago, and I am entirely grateful that I am so different from the person I was 2 years ago.  If this day would have happened back then, I probably would not be telling you of today's events.  I might not have made it to 750 days nicotine free.  Thank God I Quit.

Thanks for the Accountability and Brotherhood,
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Great victory brother. Way to stay strong and stay quit. You know you can reach out if you need it, you don't have to fight alone
Great job Rich. Thank you for sharing.
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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #71 on: October 26, 2020, 09:20:14 PM »
750 days nicotine free!

Interesting day.  Woke up.  Posted Roll.  Made a cup of coffee.  Started to go upstairs into my newly renovated home office and it hit me,  It wasn't a crave.  It was a thought, a thought that I really haven't had in quite a long time:  In my head a voice said, "wouldn't a dip be good right about now".  I stopped from going upstairs, sat on the couch again, and texted my promise to my quit circle to promise not to use nicotine.  Early on I would hold off on texting my promise until I got to work as that was one of the hardest times of the day for me.  Know your tools and use them when needed.....

So, in the late afternoon I was cleaning up some of the aftermath from the home office renovation and I found something.  Hidden away, stashed in a seldom used suit coat pocket, was a cigar.  Yes, that instrument of death that has tricked many into going back to being addicts.  I didn't over react.  I didn't rush to throw it away.  I stopped and thought; Why today?  Why today is nicotine trying so hard to lure me back?  I am blessed that I am stronger now than a year ago, and I am entirely grateful that I am so different from the person I was 2 years ago.  If this day would have happened back then, I probably would not be telling you of today's events.  I might not have made it to 750 days nicotine free.  Thank God I Quit.

Thanks for the Accountability and Brotherhood,
oldschool

Great victory brother. Way to stay strong and stay quit. You know you can reach out if you need it, you don't have to fight alone
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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #70 on: October 26, 2020, 09:00:48 PM »
750 days nicotine free!

Interesting day.  Woke up.  Posted Roll.  Made a cup of coffee.  Started to go upstairs into my newly renovated home office and it hit me,  It wasn't a crave.  It was a thought, a thought that I really haven't had in quite a long time:  In my head a voice said, "wouldn't a dip be good right about now".  I stopped from going upstairs, sat on the couch again, and texted my promise to my quit circle to promise not to use nicotine.  Early on I would hold off on texting my promise until I got to work as that was one of the hardest times of the day for me.  Know your tools and use them when needed.....

So, in the late afternoon I was cleaning up some of the aftermath from the home office renovation and I found something.  Hidden away, stashed in a seldom used suit coat pocket, was a cigar.  Yes, that instrument of death that has tricked many into going back to being addicts.  I didn't over react.  I didn't rush to throw it away.  I stopped and thought; Why today?  Why today is nicotine trying so hard to lure me back?  I am blessed that I am stronger now than a year ago, and I am entirely grateful that I am so different from the person I was 2 years ago.  If this day would have happened back then, I probably would not be telling you of today's events.  I might not have made it to 750 days nicotine free.  Thank God I Quit.

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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #69 on: September 13, 2020, 09:31:50 PM »
The only time you fail, is if you don't try

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Re: Oldschool introduction
« Reply #68 on: September 07, 2020, 09:20:10 AM »
Congrats on 700 Rich!
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Congrats again Rich!
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