I"m in- just found my way

[B-loMatt]

This day and yesterday have been deusies. Deep cravings at times, fog almost all the time. I want to eat everything, and nothing satisifies. So foggy at work that nothing worthwhile is getting done, and i feel like I'd be better off taking leave. I"m crabby as heck at home and elsewhere, but doing my best to not make my family suffer, or to give in to road rage and have worse consequences. I also feel the sense of loss at times- feels like grief. Good! Maybe that means i'm processing the loss/finality of it all.
For the last week , I wake up around 3 am and don't go back to sleep. Sucks! Right now, this feels like it won't end and I"m weary of it all. It is helping me to read about others feeling the same stuff, and about those who have made it through. This fog, especially, has been so relentless that I feel like it might not ever leave. So it helps to read that it's normal and that it will leave sometime. Makes me want to hang on and ride through it.

I may not work tomorrow but will still try and post role. Not sure how to make the weekend if I am not on computer. Text someone? Feel free to PM if you have a suggestion on that.

Thanks all!

Remember this??? Never, ever again Brett!

Welcome to the 3rd floor! Congratulations and thank you for all that you do for this site!

300 is awesome! B.A.Q. for sure! Enjoy your day brother.

[worktowin]

This day and yesterday have been deusies. Deep cravings at times, fog almost all the time. I want to eat everything, and nothing satisifies. So foggy at work that nothing worthwhile is getting done, and i feel like I'd be better off taking leave. I"m crabby as heck at home and elsewhere, but doing my best to not make my family suffer, or to give in to road rage and have worse consequences. I also feel the sense of loss at times- feels like grief. Good! Maybe that means i'm processing the loss/finality of it all.
For the last week , I wake up around 3 am and don't go back to sleep. Sucks! Right now, this feels like it won't end and I"m weary of it all. It is helping me to read about others feeling the same stuff, and about those who have made it through. This fog, especially, has been so relentless that I feel like it might not ever leave. So it helps to read that it's normal and that it will leave sometime. Makes me want to hang on and ride through it.

I may not work tomorrow but will still try and post role. Not sure how to make the weekend if I am not on computer. Text someone? Feel free to PM if you have a suggestion on that.

Thanks all!

Remember this??? Never, ever again Brett!

Welcome to the 3rd floor! Congratulations and thank you for all that you do for this site!

[bronc]

Just a little thing i wanted to post. No need for support or anything, just want to share something nice.

I have a cold or allergies. Pretty bad post-nasal, making my throat raw and sore, coughing a bit. It's SO DAMNED NICE that I know that this is not finally cancer hitting me, it is not because i have been dipping and swallowing too much and i've made my throat sore. I just have a little cold or allergies. I can just relax, take care of myself and it will go away. I don't have to plan to go the doctor if it doesn't go away in x days. I don't have to fear biopsies and probes and tracheotomies and the rest. I can just relax and get better, consider changing up my diet and/or pop some allergy meds. WHAT A RELIEF that i NEVER EXPECTED!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True, True, True. I love seeing you celebrate being free. I'm with you, I'm terrified of "probes"

Amen. I remember those days and I don't want to go back to those days either. Nice just to deal with the 1 problem and not having a larger concern rolling around in your head. Quit with you all day brother!

True 'dat! Freedom feels good!!!!

True words...Quit with you.

QLF with you EDD Brett!

Great post. I can remember days I'd get sick, have a sore throat, and be worried about throat cancer, with a dip in!

Quit on brother Brett!

Amen, Brother.

Truer words have never been spoken! QLF today with you brett!

Freedom. It's a beautiful thing. I'm quit with you pal.

Love this Brett! Freedom feels amazing. Each time I have a moment like you described I smile and think that this fight is so worth it.

[Done4Me]

Great post in Loots thread. I could not agree more. I agree with most of what Loot is saying however the "INTRO" section is NOT the place for that type of dissent. His judgment stinks and I believe he has harmed or potentially harmed young quits. And for that I am pissed.

Quit on. Ryan

Yep, would like to see it moved as well. Off the main page, anywhere but intros. . Still sucks for Sept even though wastepanel is stepping in.

BTW, both of you had good posts, Ryan's was in EW intro.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Great post in Loots thread. I could not agree more. I agree with most of what Loot is saying however the "INTRO" section is NOT the place for that type of dissent. His judgment stinks and I believe he has harmed or potentially harmed young quits. And for that I am pissed.

Quit on. Ryan

[pbrain04]

Just a little thing i wanted to post. No need for support or anything, just want to share something nice.

I have a cold or allergies. Pretty bad post-nasal, making my throat raw and sore, coughing a bit. It's SO DAMNED NICE that I know that this is not finally cancer hitting me, it is not because i have been dipping and swallowing too much and i've made my throat sore. I just have a little cold or allergies. I can just relax, take care of myself and it will go away. I don't have to plan to go the doctor if it doesn't go away in x days. I don't have to fear biopsies and probes and tracheotomies and the rest. I can just relax and get better, consider changing up my diet and/or pop some allergy meds. WHAT A RELIEF that i NEVER EXPECTED!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True, True, True. I love seeing you celebrate being free. I'm with you, I'm terrified of "probes"

Amen. I remember those days and I don't want to go back to those days either. Nice just to deal with the 1 problem and not having a larger concern rolling around in your head. Quit with you all day brother!

True 'dat! Freedom feels good!!!!

True words...Quit with you.

QLF with you EDD Brett!

Great post. I can remember days I'd get sick, have a sore throat, and be worried about throat cancer, with a dip in!

Quit on brother Brett!

Amen, Brother.

Truer words have never been spoken! QLF today with you brett!

Freedom. It's a beautiful thing. I'm quit with you pal.

[AppleJack]

It's always an honor to meet men of integrity who get life... Who enjoy life... Who live a good life. It just rings out of their speech and mannerisms. You know their life isn't perfect but they dont use it as an excuse of any sort... that's what makes it all the more real and satisfying to know such a dude. My pleasure to have met you and hung out a li'l bit yesterday brother. Made my quit solid... Not just for that day but in general. We come from different places but... We're just men at the core. Living and fighting the same general battles.

Quit on m'man... I'll be right there with ya!

[yemtig]

Just a little thing i wanted to post. No need for support or anything, just want to share something nice.

I have a cold or allergies. Pretty bad post-nasal, making my throat raw and sore, coughing a bit. It's SO DAMNED NICE that I know that this is not finally cancer hitting me, it is not because i have been dipping and swallowing too much and i've made my throat sore. I just have a little cold or allergies. I can just relax, take care of myself and it will go away. I don't have to plan to go the doctor if it doesn't go away in x days. I don't have to fear biopsies and probes and tracheotomies and the rest. I can just relax and get better, consider changing up my diet and/or pop some allergy meds. WHAT A RELIEF that i NEVER EXPECTED!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True, True, True. I love seeing you celebrate being free. I'm with you, I'm terrified of "probes"

Amen. I remember those days and I don't want to go back to those days either. Nice just to deal with the 1 problem and not having a larger concern rolling around in your head. Quit with you all day brother!

True 'dat! Freedom feels good!!!!

True words...Quit with you.

QLF with you EDD Brett!

Great post. I can remember days I'd get sick, have a sore throat, and be worried about throat cancer, with a dip in!

Quit on brother Brett!

Amen, Brother.

Truer words have never been spoken! QLF today with you brett!

[slinger]

Just a little thing i wanted to post. No need for support or anything, just want to share something nice.

I have a cold or allergies. Pretty bad post-nasal, making my throat raw and sore, coughing a bit. It's SO DAMNED NICE that I know that this is not finally cancer hitting me, it is not because i have been dipping and swallowing too much and i've made my throat sore. I just have a little cold or allergies. I can just relax, take care of myself and it will go away. I don't have to plan to go the doctor if it doesn't go away in x days. I don't have to fear biopsies and probes and tracheotomies and the rest. I can just relax and get better, consider changing up my diet and/or pop some allergy meds. WHAT A RELIEF that i NEVER EXPECTED!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True, True, True. I love seeing you celebrate being free. I'm with you, I'm terrified of "probes"

Amen. I remember those days and I don't want to go back to those days either. Nice just to deal with the 1 problem and not having a larger concern rolling around in your head. Quit with you all day brother!

True 'dat! Freedom feels good!!!!

True words...Quit with you.

QLF with you EDD Brett!

Great post. I can remember days I'd get sick, have a sore throat, and be worried about throat cancer, with a dip in!

Quit on brother Brett!

Amen, Brother.

[Doc Chewfree]

Just a little thing i wanted to post. No need for support or anything, just want to share something nice.

I have a cold or allergies. Pretty bad post-nasal, making my throat raw and sore, coughing a bit. It's SO DAMNED NICE that I know that this is not finally cancer hitting me, it is not because i have been dipping and swallowing too much and i've made my throat sore. I just have a little cold or allergies. I can just relax, take care of myself and it will go away. I don't have to plan to go the doctor if it doesn't go away in x days. I don't have to fear biopsies and probes and tracheotomies and the rest. I can just relax and get better, consider changing up my diet and/or pop some allergy meds. WHAT A RELIEF that i NEVER EXPECTED!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True, True, True. I love seeing you celebrate being free. I'm with you, I'm terrified of "probes"

Amen. I remember those days and I don't want to go back to those days either. Nice just to deal with the 1 problem and not having a larger concern rolling around in your head. Quit with you all day brother!

True 'dat! Freedom feels good!!!!

True words...Quit with you.

QLF with you EDD Brett!

Great post. I can remember days I'd get sick, have a sore throat, and be worried about throat cancer, with a dip in!

Quit on brother Brett!

[Dagranger]

Just a little thing i wanted to post. No need for support or anything, just want to share something nice.

I have a cold or allergies. Pretty bad post-nasal, making my throat raw and sore, coughing a bit. It's SO DAMNED NICE that I know that this is not finally cancer hitting me, it is not because i have been dipping and swallowing too much and i've made my throat sore. I just have a little cold or allergies. I can just relax, take care of myself and it will go away. I don't have to plan to go the doctor if it doesn't go away in x days. I don't have to fear biopsies and probes and tracheotomies and the rest. I can just relax and get better, consider changing up my diet and/or pop some allergy meds. WHAT A RELIEF that i NEVER EXPECTED!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True, True, True. I love seeing you celebrate being free. I'm with you, I'm terrified of "probes"

Amen. I remember those days and I don't want to go back to those days either. Nice just to deal with the 1 problem and not having a larger concern rolling around in your head. Quit with you all day brother!

True 'dat! Freedom feels good!!!!

True words...Quit with you.

QLF with you EDD Brett!

Great post. I can remember days I'd get sick, have a sore throat, and be worried about throat cancer, with a dip in!

[Thumblewort]

Just a little thing i wanted to post. No need for support or anything, just want to share something nice.

I have a cold or allergies. Pretty bad post-nasal, making my throat raw and sore, coughing a bit. It's SO DAMNED NICE that I know that this is not finally cancer hitting me, it is not because i have been dipping and swallowing too much and i've made my throat sore. I just have a little cold or allergies. I can just relax, take care of myself and it will go away. I don't have to plan to go the doctor if it doesn't go away in x days. I don't have to fear biopsies and probes and tracheotomies and the rest. I can just relax and get better, consider changing up my diet and/or pop some allergy meds. WHAT A RELIEF that i NEVER EXPECTED!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True, True, True. I love seeing you celebrate being free. I'm with you, I'm terrified of "probes"

Amen. I remember those days and I don't want to go back to those days either. Nice just to deal with the 1 problem and not having a larger concern rolling around in your head. Quit with you all day brother!

True 'dat! Freedom feels good!!!!

True words...Quit with you.

QLF with you EDD Brett!

[Mthomas3824]

Just a little thing i wanted to post. No need for support or anything, just want to share something nice.

I have a cold or allergies. Pretty bad post-nasal, making my throat raw and sore, coughing a bit. It's SO DAMNED NICE that I know that this is not finally cancer hitting me, it is not because i have been dipping and swallowing too much and i've made my throat sore. I just have a little cold or allergies. I can just relax, take care of myself and it will go away. I don't have to plan to go the doctor if it doesn't go away in x days. I don't have to fear biopsies and probes and tracheotomies and the rest. I can just relax and get better, consider changing up my diet and/or pop some allergy meds. WHAT A RELIEF that i NEVER EXPECTED!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True, True, True. I love seeing you celebrate being free. I'm with you, I'm terrified of "probes"

Amen. I remember those days and I don't want to go back to those days either. Nice just to deal with the 1 problem and not having a larger concern rolling around in your head. Quit with you all day brother!

True 'dat! Freedom feels good!!!!

True words...Quit with you.

[SAM83]

Just a little thing i wanted to post. No need for support or anything, just want to share something nice.

I have a cold or allergies. Pretty bad post-nasal, making my throat raw and sore, coughing a bit. It's SO DAMNED NICE that I know that this is not finally cancer hitting me, it is not because i have been dipping and swallowing too much and i've made my throat sore. I just have a little cold or allergies. I can just relax, take care of myself and it will go away. I don't have to plan to go the doctor if it doesn't go away in x days. I don't have to fear biopsies and probes and tracheotomies and the rest. I can just relax and get better, consider changing up my diet and/or pop some allergy meds. WHAT A RELIEF that i NEVER EXPECTED!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True, True, True. I love seeing you celebrate being free. I'm with you, I'm terrified of "probes"

Amen. I remember those days and I don't want to go back to those days either. Nice just to deal with the 1 problem and not having a larger concern rolling around in your head. Quit with you all day brother!

True 'dat! Freedom feels good!!!!

[Derk40]

Just a little thing i wanted to post. No need for support or anything, just want to share something nice.

I have a cold or allergies. Pretty bad post-nasal, making my throat raw and sore, coughing a bit. It's SO DAMNED NICE that I know that this is not finally cancer hitting me, it is not because i have been dipping and swallowing too much and i've made my throat sore. I just have a little cold or allergies. I can just relax, take care of myself and it will go away. I don't have to plan to go the doctor if it doesn't go away in x days. I don't have to fear biopsies and probes and tracheotomies and the rest. I can just relax and get better, consider changing up my diet and/or pop some allergy meds. WHAT A RELIEF that i NEVER EXPECTED!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

FUCK! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN YOU DON"T CHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True, True, True. I love seeing you celebrate being free. I'm with you, I'm terrified of "probes"

Amen. I remember those days and I don't want to go back to those days either. Nice just to deal with the 1 problem and not having a larger concern rolling around in your head. Quit with you all day brother!