I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.
How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.
But gosh darn it I am petrified.
Hi there.
Fellow female addict here.
So let's look at this okay.
Thinking about quitting just isn't going to cut it. You actually have to not put the shit in your mouth. It is simple, but no, it is not easy to quit. One day, you will look back at your intro and realize that your addict brain just filled this in for you. I love it because it helps fuel my quit and hatred for nicotine. I remember feeling these same things and now, having more clarity and understanding about my addiction, I know I can help you.
Yes, you are addicted. This place works though if you let it. Don't think about "quitting for the rest of your life" That is just too damn overwhelming....for anyone with any addiction. Just focus on today. That is all that matters. If you don't quit and you do die, then tomorrow doesn't even matter anyway. You have control of today....only. Oh yeah, sorry, I'm rather direct sometimes.....oops....
Gaining weight. That can be emotionally and physically draining on us. I am going to tell you that it will be easier to lose weight than it would be to lose your jaw from mouth cancer. A few pounds is nothing. Dead people don't gain weight so that is the other option. Sounds crappy to me.
Irritability can't be avoided. It's going to happen as you detox, however, it is not to be taken out on your kiddos. It is not their fault you put yourself in this position. Find a solution.....can Grandma or someone take them for a few days....to let you battle the tough days? Regardless, life happens and we have to learn how to deal with it without Nicotine.....truth. I did everything with a dip in too. I get it. Guess what? Now you just have to do everything without it. No worries....for today, you can do it! Worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
You know you are paranoid and anxious because you damn well know you CAN get cancer and CAN die from crap right? It's not a mind game. It is fact and it screaming at you girl!!!! I understand your concern for how you act around your family but I guarantee your worst day is better than their worst day of burying you. Quit.
You say you seem to make it only one hour at a time. Okay, so let's just work on dealing with your addiction and quitting for just minutes at a time. You can chew gum, clean, work out, do laundry, play with your kids, walk the dog, go into chat, and then when your cravings are peaking, get some smokey mountain. It is completely tobacco and nicotine free. It will help with your oral fixation and take that craving from a 10 filled with rage and crazy down to a 3 where you can manage it......I swear it was the key for me to keep going thru the day.
Tricks? The first one is posting roll. If you make your promise early, first thing in the morning, then that so called LIFE that creeps in won't be able to get to you because you have already promised. Smokey mountain or "fake" is also helpful. Keep things handy to help with your oral fixation. Getting over that can be done down the line once you stop poisoning yourself. It's more than the money....we hate what we have spent on nicotine but the hatred for it goes much deeper than money. Keep your focus on your anger because of what you are putting yourself thru and what Big Tobacco does to people. Read. Read. Read. Go to chat....talk live with real people that CAN HELP SAVE YOUR LIFE. I've lost teeth. Yellow teeth can be fixed.
It's scary because you don't think you can do it. That is your addiction speaking. You can do it. This place works. Trust us.
Now, you just have to pick any single one hand that is held out for you.........
Chicks rule.
Lady G day 676
Quit like Fuck!
