I am quitting

[JayDubya]

Congrats on the Five OH!!! B)

[Coach Steve]

'BanDog'

[peters6278]

Nice work on 50 Paul. You've got a harcore quit going.

[SAM83]

Five fucking Oh

Paul, well fought! The battle rages on but we f'in got this:-) Fifth step on your way to the first floor of HOF!!!

[ppolcyn]

Five fucking Oh

[T-Cell]

Angry as fuck at cavers in June 14.

Caving still pisses me off. But many are just newbie/foggy fuckers who show up here still pathetic slaves to their addiction. They don't believe they can quit so they can't. The nic bitch still totally owns them. Many you can help by getting their attention and telling them the truth. Others are simply not ready to quit, despite thinking/wishing they were when they signed up. But many cavers do come back to be bad ass quitters, so reaching out to them might strengthen your quit as well. Cavers I just find sad that they didn't think they could be free...

[ppolcyn]

Angry as fuck at cavers in June 14.

[T-Cell]

you can have just one. you have quit for almost 50 days. good job, celebrate with aa dip.

^^^^ thoughts this morning

Geez, the nic bitch just wont let go.

FUCK YOU!!!!

I was driving in to work this morning and I had that same thought come into my head. After 253 days... "you can have just one"... I still happens to me during the week.

As soon as those thoughts enter my mind... I quickly regroup, laugh at how stupid it is and tell the Nic B to F off!

The first week of my quit I'd dwell on those thoughts... at week 50 it got a little easier to beat back... at 253 it is a lot easier to knock it out.

We are addicts and we need to work the plan EDD! Never a time for let down. Even at day 253... I am a stupid ass decision away from throwing my hard earned quit down the drain. Not gonna happen today. No F-in way. I posted roll and I will keep my word. Quit with you today!

Still there at day 752, but it is almost just a broken record clip or 60's sitcom laugh track at this point. I expect it, and it sounds the same every time. It sounds hollow and pathetic, damn near laughable. I brush her aside almost without thought. But the deal is you have to kick her ass every single time. She only has to win once.
Build that quit to massive proportions.

[Derk40]

you can have just one. you have quit for almost 50 days. good job, celebrate with aa dip.

^^^^ thoughts this morning

Geez, the nic bitch just wont let go.

FUCK YOU!!!!

I was driving in to work this morning and I had that same thought come into my head. After 253 days... "you can have just one"... I still happens to me during the week.

As soon as those thoughts enter my mind... I quickly regroup, laugh at how stupid it is and tell the Nic B to F off!

The first week of my quit I'd dwell on those thoughts... at week 50 it got a little easier to beat back... at 253 it is a lot easier to knock it out.

We are addicts and we need to work the plan EDD! Never a time for let down. Even at day 253... I am a stupid ass decision away from throwing my hard earned quit down the drain. Not gonna happen today. No F-in way. I posted roll and I will keep my word. Quit with you today!

[ppolcyn]

you can have just one. you have quit for almost 50 days. good job, celebrate with aa dip.

^^^^ thoughts this morning

Geez, the nic bitch just wont let go.

FUCK YOU!!!!

[ppolcyn]

Thanx.

[J2b]

There are others as well that have helped.

TCELL, J2B (aka cocksucker, just kidding, he gets it) Wastepanel, Coach Steve, Grizz, D2Maine, Zam and I am sure lotsa of others

"Helped" is the key word. You've owned your quit and taken control one day at a time. Quit like fuck with you today Paul!

p.s. J2B is also a jizzlicker.

Hey, if it keeps you quit 'winker'

[crowleye72]

I don't know who all reads my intro but hopefully after this post everyone will. Last night I spent my evening crashed in the waiting room for the ICU at southen ohio medical center in Portsmouth ohio.

There was a fortyish woman crashed in there too. This morning we started talking a little and I found out her father is in really bad shape. I try not to be too nosy. She notices my jar of coffee and she sees my take a bite. She asked me why I was doing that. I told her that I recently gave up dipping snuff and that it helps me deal with it.

Immediately, she just breaks down. I am asking myself, "what the fuck did I do?" 

After a few moments she composes herself and says "daddy's in here because of that stuff".

As we talk more, she tells me that her father has dipped for over fifty years and has cancer that has metastasized and spread throughout his body. She invited me in to see him and what I see is a skinny man who looks like he has been in a concentration camp. After a few minutes of being in there, I had to leave.

The shit just got real. I couldn't take it. I saw myself on that hospital bed.

She said the doctor said he doesn't have much time. So please pray for Missy and John

So although that was an extremely horrible situation, seeing John like that strengthened my quit one million fold.

To anyone who hasn't quit yet, just imagine yourself laying in a hospital bed as a mere fraction of what you are now and nothing can really be done to save you. To know that it isn't long until that awful ugly dirty fucking whore, the nic Bitch and her filthy fucking partner, US Tobacco takes your life away.

No fucking way. I have too much to live for!!

Paul, thanks for sharing. Very powerful. Also, I hope you being the hospital does not mean you or your loved ones are having more serious issues. I think I remember you having a scare with your daughter. Is everything OK on your side?

Thanks for the dose of reality!!! Sometimes I still need a reminder

just unreal...thank you for sharing!

The bitch ain't playing folks. She plays for keeps. We all need to fight back with the same level of tenacity or it could be any of us on that hospital bed.

Fuck tobacco

Damn straight.....fuck tobacco.....I hate it

Thanks for posting. Yep, this shit is for real. Glad to quit with badasses who get it and help each other.

Great post PP! You own it!
Most never completely grasp that quitting really is life and death until they get smacked in the face with it. Hopefully it won't be their own face/jaw/tongue they are getting smacked with while they figure it out. It took me 38 years of playing those crappy odds to figure out I had to quit...

wow really makes you want to quit thanks for sharing

[T-Cell]

I don't know who all reads my intro but hopefully after this post everyone will. Last night I spent my evening crashed in the waiting room for the ICU at southen ohio medical center in Portsmouth ohio.

There was a fortyish woman crashed in there too. This morning we started talking a little and I found out her father is in really bad shape. I try not to be too nosy. She notices my jar of coffee and she sees my take a bite. She asked me why I was doing that. I told her that I recently gave up dipping snuff and that it helps me deal with it.

Immediately, she just breaks down. I am asking myself, "what the fuck did I do?" 

After a few moments she composes herself and says "daddy's in here because of that stuff".

As we talk more, she tells me that her father has dipped for over fifty years and has cancer that has metastasized and spread throughout his body. She invited me in to see him and what I see is a skinny man who looks like he has been in a concentration camp. After a few minutes of being in there, I had to leave.

The shit just got real. I couldn't take it. I saw myself on that hospital bed.

She said the doctor said he doesn't have much time. So please pray for Missy and John

So although that was an extremely horrible situation, seeing John like that strengthened my quit one million fold.

To anyone who hasn't quit yet, just imagine yourself laying in a hospital bed as a mere fraction of what you are now and nothing can really be done to save you. To know that it isn't long until that awful ugly dirty fucking whore, the nic Bitch and her filthy fucking partner, US Tobacco takes your life away.

No fucking way. I have too much to live for!!

Paul, thanks for sharing. Very powerful. Also, I hope you being the hospital does not mean you or your loved ones are having more serious issues. I think I remember you having a scare with your daughter. Is everything OK on your side?

Thanks for the dose of reality!!! Sometimes I still need a reminder

just unreal...thank you for sharing!

The bitch ain't playing folks. She plays for keeps. We all need to fight back with the same level of tenacity or it could be any of us on that hospital bed.

Fuck tobacco

Damn straight.....fuck tobacco.....I hate it

Thanks for posting. Yep, this shit is for real. Glad to quit with badasses who get it and help each other.

Great post PP! You own it!
Most never completely grasp that quitting really is life and death until they get smacked in the face with it. Hopefully it won't be their own face/jaw/tongue they are getting smacked with while they figure it out. It took me 38 years of playing those crappy odds to figure out I had to quit...

[brettlees]

I don't know who all reads my intro but hopefully after this post everyone will. Last night I spent my evening crashed in the waiting room for the ICU at southen ohio medical center in Portsmouth ohio.

There was a fortyish woman crashed in there too. This morning we started talking a little and I found out her father is in really bad shape. I try not to be too nosy. She notices my jar of coffee and she sees my take a bite. She asked me why I was doing that. I told her that I recently gave up dipping snuff and that it helps me deal with it.

Immediately, she just breaks down. I am asking myself, "what the fuck did I do?" 

After a few moments she composes herself and says "daddy's in here because of that stuff".

As we talk more, she tells me that her father has dipped for over fifty years and has cancer that has metastasized and spread throughout his body. She invited me in to see him and what I see is a skinny man who looks like he has been in a concentration camp. After a few minutes of being in there, I had to leave.

The shit just got real. I couldn't take it. I saw myself on that hospital bed.

She said the doctor said he doesn't have much time. So please pray for Missy and John

So although that was an extremely horrible situation, seeing John like that strengthened my quit one million fold.

To anyone who hasn't quit yet, just imagine yourself laying in a hospital bed as a mere fraction of what you are now and nothing can really be done to save you. To know that it isn't long until that awful ugly dirty fucking whore, the nic Bitch and her filthy fucking partner, US Tobacco takes your life away.

No fucking way. I have too much to live for!!

Paul, thanks for sharing. Very powerful. Also, I hope you being the hospital does not mean you or your loved ones are having more serious issues. I think I remember you having a scare with your daughter. Is everything OK on your side?

Thanks for the dose of reality!!! Sometimes I still need a reminder

just unreal...thank you for sharing!

The bitch ain't playing folks. She plays for keeps. We all need to fight back with the same level of tenacity or it could be any of us on that hospital bed.

Fuck tobacco

Damn straight.....fuck tobacco.....I hate it

Thanks for posting. Yep, this shit is for real. Glad to quit with badasses who get it and help each other.