When Do I Get Back To Normal? Day 450
Can we be honest?
I am a different person.
I'm not nearly as motivated as I was.
I'm not nearly as content as I was.
I'm as abrasive as ever, but not as happy.
Old time vets, were you like this?
At what point did it go away?
Otherwise, what's the point?
Since we're being honest.
This was posted yesterday by a person with 112 days quit.
Nicotine helps us relax. ItÂ’s a drug. It gives us a buzz. Without it some of us are irritable and impatient; at least I am. So now what do I do? IÂ’m 450 days quit, and not really happy with myself.
When you are having trouble with your quit, read your signature. You put that shite there for a reason.Let’s see, “
Our lives change when our daily habits change. New habits bring new life.” It’s right there, in purple. Duh.
So, I need to develop a new habit that will reduce my irritability and increase my patience. There are many choices, nicotine (no, thatÂ’s out, not going back), meditation, prayer, some herbs perhaps. ItÂ’s a start. Something to persue. One day at a time. IÂ’ll keep you posted.
Edit: I found
something to try. I'll keep you posted. Based on my past experience with meditation, this will be harder than quitting. However, I have more motivation now.