Anger brought me back to Day 1

[steffano626]

Hmmm...that would certainly be a shady move. I thought they meant he posted roll on day 4 only to cave later that day and then stopped posting roll.

[sixercountry]

I have just caught up on this thread. This may have caused me to miss the most important explanation if it is indeed true. I am also not going to go back 2 weeks to check roll and I will assume that the bad ass quitters are right when they say you caved on day four and then came back and posted day five but erased it? You need to answer this question. Did you do this? If so, then why? Please answer the question please.

[Daviddim]

This may be unorthodox, but ive been thinking about doing this since i quit for a while now and decided id like to keep a log on here of my days toward victory. A lot of you may remember me as "The Mail Lady Slayer" that caved with a cigarette toward the end of his day 4. I come to you now 8 days back into my quit, haven't touched even a molecule of nicotine during that time. We all know how hard that first 3 days is, its absolute HELL. To this day im still incredibly proud of myself for making it through that, before this, i used to think to myself that i just wasn't a strong enough person to quit. I used to stare at myself in the mirror on occasion and ask myself why in the HELL i was doing this to myself, frantically check my mouth for sores, google mouth cancer and learn about what its first stages look like. Thats not a great way to live, in fear that one day you'll wake up and realize that that time had come, that the dreaded mouth cancer finally caught up to you.

So here i am, 8 days in, i could never have made it past day 1 without all of you at KTC. From the moment I first stepped into live chat with a nicotine patch on and you all told me to light my patches on fire, you have been supporting me through the worst of craves. I still have a long way to go, and one of my biggest tests this weekend. Being a musician we have these things called "concerts" every so often, except instead of it mainly being about the "concert" it usually just ends up being an out of control after party where everyone's soaked in beer and shit gets broken. However im prepared, ive told myself no drinking and no after party, of course my band will be upset but, i think they'd be more upset if their vocalist caved and ended up having half his jaw removed one day.

With that said, i leave you all in suspense. WILL HE MAKE IT?! (yes he will) Or will the dreaded nicotine monster engulf his very innards to control the world! (no it wont)
Stay quit friends, il be checking in tomorrow.

PS any numbers would be greatly appreciated for this weekend im about to face.
ODAAT

This is my first time reading this thread. You have some considerable ground to make up, and although you're still here and you're 8 days quit you walked a fine line. Posting roll and lying about it, even for a nano second breaks the key foundation in which this support group is created. Integrity. Good for you, 8 days, but you have a long way to go to earn back our respect and trust.

Because you are on thin ice, watch what you say. Do not condescend me or my KTC brethren ("Being a musician we have these things called "concerts"").

Now, your cliffhanger statement surrounding your quit status won't cause me to lose a moment's sleep, should you need a lifeline before lighting up or pulling a pinch PM me and I'll give you my number. One thing I can see is that you want to be quit and have reached out for support. That is a step in the right direction.

In what way was that statement condescending? Sorry if you took any offense, but i believe you are seeing things that arnt there.

[T-Cell]

This may be unorthodox, but ive been thinking about doing this since i quit for a while now and decided id like to keep a log on here of my days toward victory. A lot of you may remember me as "The Mail Lady Slayer" that caved with a cigarette toward the end of his day 4. I come to you now 8 days back into my quit, haven't touched even a molecule of nicotine during that time. We all know how hard that first 3 days is, its absolute HELL. To this day im still incredibly proud of myself for making it through that, before this, i used to think to myself that i just wasn't a strong enough person to quit. I used to stare at myself in the mirror on occasion and ask myself why in the HELL i was doing this to myself, frantically check my mouth for sores, google mouth cancer and learn about what its first stages look like. Thats not a great way to live, in fear that one day you'll wake up and realize that that time had come, that the dreaded mouth cancer finally caught up to you.

So here i am, 8 days in, i could never have made it past day 1 without all of you at KTC. From the moment I first stepped into live chat with a nicotine patch on and you all told me to light my patches on fire, you have been supporting me through the worst of craves. I still have a long way to go, and one of my biggest tests this weekend. Being a musician we have these things called "concerts" every so often, except instead of it mainly being about the "concert" it usually just ends up being an out of control after party where everyone's soaked in beer and shit gets broken. However im prepared, ive told myself no drinking and no after party, of course my band will be upset but, i think they'd be more upset if their vocalist caved and ended up having half his jaw removed one day.

With that said, i leave you all in suspense. WILL HE MAKE IT?! (yes he will) Or will the dreaded nicotine monster engulf his very innards to control the world! (no it wont)
Stay quit friends, il be checking in tomorrow.

PS any numbers would be greatly appreciated for this weekend im about to face.
ODAAT

David, I was going to pass without comment. But I do have 1 piece of advice.
Your words remain addict defeatist. You sound like you don't believe you can be quit. But that simply isn't true. You can and will keep your promise today, no maybe, no try. There is no victory to be stopped for 3 days or 30 days or 300 days if you fail and cave tomorrow. That is a stop, a quit has no end. Victory is winning every day. Get your mind right, you CAN win every day. But first you got to want it, then you have to build a quit (accountability, honesty, support) that helps you grow from almost expecting yourself to fail to knowing you will win today and every day.
Finally, if you now have a quit plan, post it in your intro. It can help other quitters help you stay accountable and it can help remind you why you need to win (keep your promise) today.

[Steakbomb18]

This may be unorthodox, but ive been thinking about doing this since i quit for a while now and decided id like to keep a log on here of my days toward victory. A lot of you may remember me as "The Mail Lady Slayer" that caved with a cigarette toward the end of his day 4. I come to you now 8 days back into my quit, haven't touched even a molecule of nicotine during that time. We all know how hard that first 3 days is, its absolute HELL. To this day im still incredibly proud of myself for making it through that, before this, i used to think to myself that i just wasn't a strong enough person to quit. I used to stare at myself in the mirror on occasion and ask myself why in the HELL i was doing this to myself, frantically check my mouth for sores, google mouth cancer and learn about what its first stages look like. Thats not a great way to live, in fear that one day you'll wake up and realize that that time had come, that the dreaded mouth cancer finally caught up to you.

So here i am, 8 days in, i could never have made it past day 1 without all of you at KTC. From the moment I first stepped into live chat with a nicotine patch on and you all told me to light my patches on fire, you have been supporting me through the worst of craves. I still have a long way to go, and one of my biggest tests this weekend. Being a musician we have these things called "concerts" every so often, except instead of it mainly being about the "concert" it usually just ends up being an out of control after party where everyone's soaked in beer and shit gets broken. However im prepared, ive told myself no drinking and no after party, of course my band will be upset but, i think they'd be more upset if their vocalist caved and ended up having half his jaw removed one day.

With that said, i leave you all in suspense. WILL HE MAKE IT?! (yes he will) Or will the dreaded nicotine monster engulf his very innards to control the world! (no it wont)
Stay quit friends, il be checking in tomorrow.

PS any numbers would be greatly appreciated for this weekend im about to face.
ODAAT

This is my first time reading this thread. You have some considerable ground to make up, and although you're still here and you're 8 days quit you walked a fine line. Posting roll and lying about it, even for a nano second breaks the key foundation in which this support group is created. Integrity. Good for you, 8 days, but you have a long way to go to earn back our respect and trust.

Because you are on thin ice, watch what you say. Do not condescend me or my KTC brethren ("Being a musician we have these things called "concerts"").

Now, your cliffhanger statement surrounding your quit status won't cause me to lose a moment's sleep, should you need a lifeline before lighting up or pulling a pinch PM me and I'll give you my number. One thing I can see is that you want to be quit and have reached out for support. That is a step in the right direction.

[Daviddim]

This may be unorthodox, but ive been thinking about doing this since i quit for a while now and decided id like to keep a log on here of my days toward victory. A lot of you may remember me as "The Mail Lady Slayer" that caved with a cigarette toward the end of his day 4. I come to you now 8 days back into my quit, haven't touched even a molecule of nicotine during that time. We all know how hard that first 3 days is, its absolute HELL. To this day im still incredibly proud of myself for making it through that, before this, i used to think to myself that i just wasn't a strong enough person to quit. I used to stare at myself in the mirror on occasion and ask myself why in the HELL i was doing this to myself, frantically check my mouth for sores, google mouth cancer and learn about what its first stages look like. Thats not a great way to live, in fear that one day you'll wake up and realize that that time had come, that the dreaded mouth cancer finally caught up to you.

So here i am, 8 days in, i could never have made it past day 1 without all of you at KTC. From the moment I first stepped into live chat with a nicotine patch on and you all told me to light my patches on fire, you have been supporting me through the worst of craves. I still have a long way to go, and one of my biggest tests this weekend. Being a musician we have these things called "concerts" every so often, except instead of it mainly being about the "concert" it usually just ends up being an out of control after party where everyone's soaked in beer and shit gets broken. However im prepared, ive told myself no drinking and no after party, of course my band will be upset but, i think they'd be more upset if their vocalist caved and ended up having half his jaw removed one day.

With that said, i leave you all in suspense. WILL HE MAKE IT?! (yes he will) Or will the dreaded nicotine monster engulf his very innards to control the world! (no it wont)
Stay quit friends, il be checking in tomorrow.

PS any numbers would be greatly appreciated for this weekend im about to face.
ODAAT

[Daviddim]

This may be unorthodox, but ive been thinking about doing this since i quit for a while now and decided id like to keep a log on here of my days toward victory. A lot of you may remember me as "The Mail Lady Slayer" that caved with a cigarette toward the end of his day 4. I come to you now 8 days back into my quit, haven't touched even a molecule of nicotine during that time. We all know how hard that first 3 days is, its absolute HELL. To this day im still incredibly proud of myself for making it through that, before this, i used to think to myself that i just wasn't a strong enough person to quit. I used to stare at myself in the mirror on occasion and ask myself why in the HELL i was doing this to myself, frantically check my mouth for sores, google mouth cancer and learn about what its first stages look like. Thats not a great way to live, in fear that one day you'll wake up and realize that that time had come, that the dreaded mouth cancer finally caught up to you.

So here i am, 8 days in, i could never have made it past day 1 without all of you at KTC. From the moment I first stepped into live chat with a nicotine patch on and you all told me to light my patches on fire, you have been supporting me through the worst of craves. I still have a long way to go, and one of my biggest tests this weekend. Being a musician we have these things called "concerts" every so often, except instead of it mainly being about the "concert" it usually just ends up being an out of control after party where everyone's soaked in beer and shit gets broken. However im prepared, ive told myself no drinking and no after party, of course my band will be upset but, i think they'd be more upset if their vocalist caved and ended up having half his jaw removed one day.

With that said, i leave you all in suspense. WILL HE MAKE IT?! (yes he will) Or will the dreaded nicotine monster engulf his very innards to control the world! (no it wont)
Stay quit friends, il be checking in tomorrow.

PS any numbers would be greatly appreciated for this weekend im about to face.
ODAAT

good thoughts...you need to keep your intro stuff all together though...quit on

Found it Jay, i forgot you could go into your profile and track your posts. Il move this over

[Daviddim]

Holy. Fucking. Shit.

I'm not one to blast caving like some of the dudes here, but this...Damn. You're going to blame the MAIL LADY? THE MAIL LADY? You mean the mail lady that was holding your FAKE SHIT that doesn't mean a fucking thing? Goddammit man...stick some fucking tea, coffee, pencil shavings, or whatever the fuck, in your mouth and quit until the mean old mail lady will let you have your shit.

Geezus...the mail lady. You are talking about the lady that brings your mail, right? Just checking.

yes, the Mail Lady. This is an on going thing though, it wasnt just this time, its made me angry multiple times waiting for a package just to get a pink slip. It honestly STILL makes me angry though, okay i get it, youre scared of dogs. Ill tell you what, when i get on a 40 foot ladder in the wind at work to paint your house, IM SCARED SHITLESS, ONE MISTAKE AND IM SERIOUSLY INJURED OR WORSE, but i still do it because its my job! I just dont understand why this woman gets special treatment?

With all that aside, read my 3 questions.

[jayd41]

bump...that took about 20 seconds to find

[Daviddim]

Thank you Diper!

And jay, i was looking for my former post but I believe it was removed? And i never posted an actual intro on Day 1

[Loded Diper]

You can do this Dave! You'll make it through this weekend and every other day with us by your side, one day at a time. Quit with you today!

[jayd41]

This may be unorthodox, but ive been thinking about doing this since i quit for a while now and decided id like to keep a log on here of my days toward victory. A lot of you may remember me as "The Mail Lady Slayer" that caved with a cigarette toward the end of his day 4. I come to you now 8 days back into my quit, haven't touched even a molecule of nicotine during that time. We all know how hard that first 3 days is, its absolute HELL. To this day im still incredibly proud of myself for making it through that, before this, i used to think to myself that i just wasn't a strong enough person to quit. I used to stare at myself in the mirror on occasion and ask myself why in the HELL i was doing this to myself, frantically check my mouth for sores, google mouth cancer and learn about what its first stages look like. Thats not a great way to live, in fear that one day you'll wake up and realize that that time had come, that the dreaded mouth cancer finally caught up to you.

So here i am, 8 days in, i could never have made it past day 1 without all of you at KTC. From the moment I first stepped into live chat with a nicotine patch on and you all told me to light my patches on fire, you have been supporting me through the worst of craves. I still have a long way to go, and one of my biggest tests this weekend. Being a musician we have these things called "concerts" every so often, except instead of it mainly being about the "concert" it usually just ends up being an out of control after party where everyone's soaked in beer and shit gets broken. However im prepared, ive told myself no drinking and no after party, of course my band will be upset but, i think they'd be more upset if their vocalist caved and ended up having half his jaw removed one day.

With that said, i leave you all in suspense. WILL HE MAKE IT?! (yes he will) Or will the dreaded nicotine monster engulf his very innards to control the world! (no it wont)
Stay quit friends, il be checking in tomorrow.

PS any numbers would be greatly appreciated for this weekend im about to face.
ODAAT

good thoughts...you need to keep your intro stuff all together though...quit on

[Daviddim]

This may be unorthodox, but ive been thinking about doing this since i quit for a while now and decided id like to keep a log on here of my days toward victory. A lot of you may remember me as "The Mail Lady Slayer" that caved with a cigarette toward the end of his day 4. I come to you now 8 days back into my quit, haven't touched even a molecule of nicotine during that time. We all know how hard that first 3 days is, its absolute HELL. To this day im still incredibly proud of myself for making it through that, before this, i used to think to myself that i just wasn't a strong enough person to quit. I used to stare at myself in the mirror on occasion and ask myself why in the HELL i was doing this to myself, frantically check my mouth for sores, google mouth cancer and learn about what its first stages look like. Thats not a great way to live, in fear that one day you'll wake up and realize that that time had come, that the dreaded mouth cancer finally caught up to you.

So here i am, 8 days in, i could never have made it past day 1 without all of you at KTC. From the moment I first stepped into live chat with a nicotine patch on and you all told me to light my patches on fire, you have been supporting me through the worst of craves. I still have a long way to go, and one of my biggest tests this weekend. Being a musician we have these things called "concerts" every so often, except instead of it mainly being about the "concert" it usually just ends up being an out of control after party where everyone's soaked in beer and shit gets broken. However im prepared, ive told myself no drinking and no after party, of course my band will be upset but, i think they'd be more upset if their vocalist caved and ended up having half his jaw removed one day.

With that said, i leave you all in suspense. WILL HE MAKE IT?! (yes he will) Or will the dreaded nicotine monster engulf his very innards to control the world! (no it wont)
Stay quit friends, il be checking in tomorrow.

PS any numbers would be greatly appreciated for this weekend im about to face.
ODAAT

[jayd41]

Holy. Fucking. Shit.

I'm not one to blast caving like some of the dudes here, but this...Damn. You're going to blame the MAIL LADY? THE MAIL LADY? You mean the mail lady that was holding your FAKE SHIT that doesn't mean a fucking thing? Goddammit man...stick some fucking tea, coffee, pencil shavings, or whatever the fuck, in your mouth and quit until the mean old mail lady will let you have your shit.

Geezus...the mail lady. You are talking about the lady that brings your mail, right? Just checking.

it is a rare thing for me to read something and laugh out loud but that was fucking hilarious.

[LeonardThompson]

Holy. Fucking. Shit.

I'm not one to blast caving like some of the dudes here, but this...Damn. You're going to blame the MAIL LADY? THE MAIL LADY? You mean the mail lady that was holding your FAKE SHIT that doesn't mean a fucking thing? Goddammit man...stick some fucking tea, coffee, pencil shavings, or whatever the fuck, in your mouth and quit until the mean old mail lady will let you have your shit.

Geezus...the mail lady. You are talking about the lady that brings your mail, right? Just checking.