I'm into the 140's now. Been a lot happening these last few weeks and the quit goes onward. I figured I would post this here. I know this is an anonymous, faceless group of guys and gals so I suppose that makes it more confortable to discuss difficult issues. This is way past my bedtime so
If I ramble forgive me. When I wrote Dec '15 that the 120's were difficult, I had a ton of things changing at work. However the toughest life change was news that my Pop was real sick. His ticker is failing which is causing kidney failure. One makes the other worse and round and round. We are weeks now into this sickness and he is in hospice. My Bros. Sisters are here. I'm sitting next to him as we dose him with Morhine and he is in and out of consciousness. He's my hero. Strange I know that 47 yr old man would think like that about his dad. This man fought in Korea raised 7 children. All love him. I truly believe he is passing now more from a broken heart. We lost our mom 5 yrs ago to lung cancer. She never smoked or drank. Maybe the ocasional 7 7 on Christmas eve. This big hardworking man, dying of a broken heart and struggling to breath is tough. I do kot know when the end will be. I do know that there is a lifetime of wonderful memories and amazing parenting he gave to me. Never missed a ball game or match. The sacrifice the two of them offered us as children was truly amazing. A house wife and a machinist. Imigrants both of them. The amount of lives they influenced for the goodthemselves is astounding. He wanted me quit so bad. He smoked but quit in his thirties. I am quit pop. Going to bed now and up in 2-1/2 hrs for the next bedside shift. Quit with all you. Carry on and thanks for the forum to put thoughts into words. Done on cell phone forgive spelling.
JGlav, so sorry to hear about your dad. I've been through losing a parent once when my mom lost her battle with cancer and that final goodbye was about the hardest week of my life. I'm praying for you tonight my friend and as always text or call if you need support.
Sounds like you were blessed with 2 wonderful parents JGlav, and that they were blessed with a great son. It also sounds like, on the way to meet his wife again, you are giving your dad one hell of a great gift. My thoughts and prayers are with your family right now dude. But you can take a deep breath and smile knowing that your dad is proud of you.
Wow, what a great post. Yea, you're right this place "can be" an anonymous and safe place to quit. And what makes that cool is that you can share these deep issues with a bunch of randoms and next thing you know, these randoms are by your side giving you support beyond your quit. To me, that's not a random person anymore, that's a friend. The guy who posted in front of me...bonafide friend of mine. We've met, we text, our lives are connected. We're there for you bro.
Other lesson you just taught and reinforced. One problem + nicotine = 2 problems. Huge stressor going on in your life, and you're here posting roll and quitting your ass off. That's how you do it my friend.
Thanks guys. Appreciate the thoughts and prayers. It's a tough time right now but does not give me an excuse. Honestly all last nigtht
I did not once think of that sickening crap. I thank this place for that!!
Steakbomb's right with "Wow, what a great post".
My thoughts and prayers are with you, your dad, and family.
I know how it feels to lose a parent, as a I lost my Dad a little more than 8 years ago.
I remember how he would always be on me about quitting tobacco, as he passed from COPD.
Watching him suffer from not being able to breath for 10 or so years was enough for me to quit smoking, However the romance with tobacco wasn't over at that time. Worktowin hits the nail on the head, when he says "you're giving your dad a great gift".
Unfortunately I wasn't able to give that same gift, but I know my father's looking down on me now, and very proud of the fact that I'm quit alongside a BAD ASS QUITTER such as youself JGlav!!!
Again thoughts and prayers your way bro!