I'll be honest, Once I hit the second floor I got lazy with my daily post. I missed a few hear and there. I kept asking myself the question when am I gonna leave ktc? I tried to leave twice, but kept getting pulled back by someone reaching out to me. Sigh, you guys rock!
Then 2 things happened last week that opened my eyes again.
First I ran into an old customer, he still had a massive wad in the same spot as always. I felt sorry for him, standing there with his wife daughter. I remembered how dumb I used to look with a dip in.
Secondly I was talking with my sister in law and mentioned that I had gone 300 day's without tobacco, her reply, wow that's great! So what's helen doing? You see she was happy for me, but she has no friggin idea of what it took to get here.
That's why I come to ktc. This is a place where everybody understands each other, and the difficulties of this journey, and also the rewards. Honestly I don't think about chew at all anymore, but I think about helping those that do. I definitely don't have time to post in all the groups like some of you quit madmen, but I'm here for anyone of you. I try to help by posting in my thread, and hopefully it helps someone.
My addiction will never go away, but I have my foot on nics throat, and NO CHANCE of letting up. However, I need to be here to get my quit juice for extra power. I'll never question myself again, and just enjoy my time with all the brothers sisters on this wonderful sight. peace
